Sticky: Asian Women and White Men: Why the Mental Health of Hapa Sons and Daughters of White Men (With Yellow Fever) and Asian Women Needs to be Addressed, and Why You Should Reach Out to Hapa People

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I changed the above picture for fear of doxxing; ironically, the picture is now of another Eurasian male who went to an Ivy League school, had a conservative white dad, and an Asian mother, and had a public meltdown. Use this blog as an example of how troubled Hapas can be, some worse than others. I wrote this essay about two years ago, at the peak of a very, very damaging breakdown. Since then, thanks to a supportive community and a (now large) group of Eurasians putting their brains together, I have transformed this blog into a rational discussion of the dangers of hatred, the reality of race relations even in romance, and even discovered the source of why I was so crazy; my older posts (if you go back to the beginning) can be used as a representation of the kind of damage that was done to my mind, and the kind of psychosis that can be found in mixed young men and women without proper intervention. If I hadn’t started this blog, I would likely now be dead or imprisoned, and ironically by writing I found the source of the very unsettling problems I had no more than two years ago; hence I won’t change the title. If you don’t believe that I am Hapa, continue reading. I try to present the issues as honestly as I can.

nicholas-cage-alice-kim-custody-battle-kal-el-cage-pp.jpgI am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man – a literal brown haired, hazel eyed dream Hapa boy – born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged, meek, rapidly balding, hyper-racist, hyper-conservative conspiracy theorist male who was an “Asiaphile” – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism (ironically from Asian women in my own family and white “friends” who actually liked Asian women because they were easy) and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world and being raised to be superior, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, deeply mentally disturbed, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and to this day still unable to undo the damage that the Eurasian myths and family’s racism did to me, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, are gay, permavirgins, or leverage their half-whiteness to Asian women, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.

If you don’t think this website is valid – go to Reddit.com/r/hapas, which received 11 million views in 2 years, and 2 million views in the last two months. Also – find half Asians with Asian fathers and compare their behavior to those with Asian mothers. 

There are very specific issues with being the children of anti-feminist, racist, unattractive white men, and self hating Asian women. None of these apply to the children of Asian fathers.

Even Kip Fulbeck, king of all Hapas, admitted that the Hapa male process of self-hatred is such a problem, that it should be a cause for concern.

Iimage1-5magine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?

In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall (6’3″, skinny), red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white; their entire marriage was violent, loveless (father sleeping on the floor for fifteen years), and calculating.

This man (a semi-famous paleoconservative Homophobic activist on par with the Westboro Baptist Church) was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white or non-Asian woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, very racist against blacks, Hispanics and Muslims, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely over the top homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely distasteful of feminism, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture). His interest in Asian culture was largely dictated by his personality – in which he idealized Asian cultures as being more honorable and traditional, and mistook “white worship” (a cultural tick in which Asian women see themselves as less beautiful than white women and marry white men for status and integration), for “traditionalism” and “submissiveness.”

I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including five out of six of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men (the majority of whom are racists, Republicans, or short and or meek), and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade. 

My parents’ relationship, as was the case in every single one of my female relatives, was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself with a butcher knife in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.

The behavior of Asian women, in particular, is like nothing else on earth, to the point that you can see the majority of all stories about abusive parents on Reddit’s AsianParentStories sub – complain about the mothers, including the second generation Asian mothers – like Amy Chua – who metamorphosize into the Tiger Mothers that they hate.

When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian (scowling at me on the street, or smirking), and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. Several of my “friends,” who were engineers and nerdy, actually would take every opportunity to remind me of my Asianness, while sleeping with Asian women, as Asian women were all they could get. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal. My insanity grew more and more pervasive as I fantasized about cutting out my eyes to make them deeper, refused to look in the mirror for five years,

Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going  and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women in my Asian family, hate my Asian side, so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissecting White male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.

I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood. 

highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went. Hapa males in particular need special consideration due to the fact that we have zero privilege, and yet are raised by two people who want privilege without having to do any of the work.

I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.

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The half Asian reality summed up here, and why this new demographic of Half Asians with White fathers / Asian mothers is going to be very dangerous. I’m warning you from personal experience.

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Society doesn’t care that your son is half white. Asian women don’t care that your son is half white. All they want is white men. Half Asian sons are not white men.

Most of the time Asian women marry white men because they don’t like Asian men and have a physical preference for white men. Asian women also dislike being associated with the Asian “gilded Ghetto” monolith, and want to feel “included” into the majority culture – so they marry white men at rates unmatched by any other ethnic group.

There is no other race on earth that has this ingrained hatred of Asianness and their own men. Literally none.

Half Asian men resemble Asian men, 80-90% of the time. 

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In fact the majority of people don’t like Asian men.

Admit it: your wife / girlfriend is with you because she does not like Asian men. She is only attracted to tall white men.

They will say it’s because of behavior / feminism, but Asian male behavior (jealousy) is because Asian women don’t like the way Asian men look. Ask any Asian woman married to a white man and she’ll just say:

“I’m just not attracted to them.”

Asian women don’t like Asian men for the same reason MOST white women don’t like Asian men. They are Asian.

A half Asian son realizes this. He realizes that he is Asian too. It doesn’t matter how good looking he is, how talented, how intelligent – he will endure a lifetime of hearing “of course your mother is the Asian one,” and being perpetually second class in non-Asian society. He will endure jokes, endure racism, discrimination from society, see hundreds thousands of Asian women a year paired up with white men, face discrimination in dating, in work – and…

…his own parents will oftentimes be extremely racist against Asian men as well – yet he looks like an Asian guy. 

Keep in mind, that Asian women are so world famous for hating their own men – that the men who like Asian women and want to be seen with one in public, are almost uniformly terrible people: racists, Neo-Nazis, White Nationalists, MRAs, MGTOWS, autists, abusive people – like my father.

In fact – it could be said, that unbeknownst to most whites, Asian women can be so extremely racist and pro-white and so “famously easy” for White men – that they tend to attract the worst white males.

So half Asians not only look Asian, but come from extremely hateful homes.

Along with the millions of Asian women around him disliking Asian men, his own mother does too. Every single Eurasian person with eyes looks around him and sees how Asian women act around white men, fawning, complimenting – and Asian mothers expect us to not notice. Can we please just drop the charade and admit this is true?

How are half Asians supposed to somehow not notice that Asian women openly favor white men, that these couples are extremely narcissistic and have insanely eugenicist beliefs about their own children, and yet develop emotionally healthy?

If he looks Asian, then, well. Welcome to a life of bullying, confusion, resentment, depression, rejection from both sides, and perpetual low self esteem seeing Asian women like his mother paired up millions of times over with white men – yet he looks Asian. 

He will be asked to take pride in the fact that his, and all his friends’ fathers are white, and asked to deal with the stereotypes of White men / Asian women and unable to distinguish between good and bad couplings. He will try to take pride in looking Asian but realizes that nobody, not his friends, not women, not his own mother, wants anything to do with an Asian male. He will be born into an anti-Asian society, look Asian, and recognize that even his own mother valued white men over him. It is the ultimate betrayal. 

Asian women and white men will promise up and down that their sons are superior – largely because they have to make sure that their children truly believe they are superior in order to cover up for one of the most unbalanced interracial pairings – yet whites still view half-Asians as inferior.

I’m sorry. Please, please, please stop lying about this.

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Footnotes:

“But half Asian babies are cute.”

And half Asian babies become Asian men when they grow up. In fact most Asian women can’t tell the difference between a fully grown Asian male and a half Asian male. Sometimes half Asian men grow up to look Latino or Middle Eastern or in some cases Central Asian – which makes Asian women hate the children of other Asian women, for simply not being white.

“Half Asian men are hot.”

They’re not all hot, and people won’t care that they’re half. Besides, you believed white men hottest. You turned down hot Asian men for white men, so why would anyone want a hot half Asian man?

I know hot half Asian men.”

Nope. You know men who pass as white. When you figure out how to guarantee your son is 6’3″, let me know. And after all, you wanted a white man, not a half Asian man. Either that, or you know the son of an Asian male and a white woman.

I know Asian men with white girlfriends.”

You know one or two, while you know five times as many Asian women with white boyfriends.

It’s a yes or no question. Does your loved one hate Asian men? Yes, or no.

Will you son be Asian? Yes or no. Simple question.

Just yes, or no.

The Ongoing Mentally Ill Eurasian List: Why Are Hapas with White Fathers Committing So Many Crimes?

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The above picture describes my parents to an absolute T.

2016 update: I stopped, then started to continue to add people to this list because the news keeps aggregating and aggregating. 2016 has seen several national news stories featuring Eurasians – every single one with a white father and Asian mother.

Does anyone want to explain why virtually every single Eurasian / Hapa who commits a crime has a white father and an Asian mother?

The single largest mixed race demographic on earth – all uniformly born to white fathers (literally the last people on earth who understand what it’s like to be non-white) and Asian mothers (literally the last people on earth who care) – the only predictable factor among a million unpredictable social elements.

Could it maybe have to do with the fact that SOME of the people who get involved in these relationships present us with a highly politicized relationship involving the superiority of white men, passive aggressive myths about Eurasian beauty and abilities, and psychosexual microaggressions designed to demean Asian people? While my father never badmouthed Asian men – I can only imagine being the son of raceplayers, or women who make a show of their distaste for Asian blood. And I had it bad. 

Not all, of course, but let’s be honest that there are many Asian women who chase white men out of a passionate hatred for Asian men, and there are white men who are happy to sleep with them, disrespect the hell out of their Asian partners, not thinking that their son will look totally Asian. From the Sarong Party Girls, to the LA valley girls who dye their hair… where does this all lead besides some of us being in a really bad place… and there are some incredible selfish white guys who get off on being worshipped for their whiteness and think that their children won’t have problems. Really? Really?

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“Proud” Hapas

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Why would a half-Asian be proud?

Proud of being white? Or proud of being Asian?

We’re expected to be proud of being Asian yet own mothers fetishized White men – believed white men to be far superior to Asian men, and believed white features to be more desirable on a male? Whenever people look at me, they make comments about my tall nose and small face – so why not just go get a full white guy? We’re like a testimony to how obsessed Asian women are with white features. Literally every time someone asks “what are you?” – and you respond with “I’m Half Chinese,” they say, “it must be your mom who is Chinese.”

Combine this with the fact that everyone hates Asian men – including white women, and Asian women themselves who view you at best as an odd looking Asian mixed minority (Uzbek, Xinjiang), or at worst, like a full Asian

How can we be proud to be half Asian, when everywhere we go we see Asian women throwing themselves at plain, basic, ugly White men – proving that Asian women really will do anything to integrate and upgrade themselves with white blood? We really are supposed to be okay with going to school, being laughed at for being a chink or a small-dicked Asian, humiliated for our Asian looks by white people, when your own mother was literally sleeping with the men who look exactly like the kind of guy saying this shit to you?

Then our mothers have the NERVE to tell us to be proud to be Asian? To be part of a race of men whose women outmarry at a rate of 50-60%? Why not just identify as white – since they are the guys who are able to walk all over Asian women, getting sex and love whenever they want with both white and Asian women – and if we identify as Asian we are putting ourselves right back in the cultural ghetto our mothers tried to escape from?

Our features are Asian. Our eyes might be Asian. Or our hair texture. Or our bodies. You we half-Asian, yet Asian women, and white women, continue to reject Asian men in favor of tall, powerful White Western men. Asian women claim that all half Asian men are beautiful – based on what they see on the internet, yet the internet only collects the most beautiful specimens. What about the half Asians who look indistinguishable from full Asians? Or the ones who look ugly, and then disappear from Asian womens’ minds?

We have to then live with the fact that Asian women around us continue to literally bow then like dogs to men like my father, racist, unemployable, unreliable white men – because they’re tall and white. And my father isn’t even that bad a guy! What about the white men who are such horrible racists that they get off on dominating Asian vagina in order to prove their superiority?

Oh yes, let’s be proud that:

  • 95% of our fathers were white.
  • Our mothers chased tall bearded white guys.
  • Our moms were bar girls, race climbers, status chasers, mentally ill, superficial, cruel, ex-prostitutes, mentally ill, money-obsessed, spent their whole life fetishizing white male features, obsessed with Europe, etc., etc.
  • Our fathers were manipulative, oftentimes racist men who used white worshipping Asian women to their benefit of finding partnership, sometimes abandoning us because they didn’t want a half Asian child.

We look Asian. We are “Hapa,” meaning that in the eyes of our own mothers and millions like them, and millions of people around the world – we are still Asians. We have white blood, yet we are nowhere near the level of attractiveness of the white movie stars that our mothers drooled over. Are there Chinese movie stars like Hu Dong who have tall noses? So why would a half-Asian be of any value – when Asian women really just want blue eyed, blond haired white men?

So they gave us a label: Hapa, which is nothing more than a clever attempt at giving us self-esteem, as if we were best of both worlds, or a beautiful blend – yet all it means is that we were infused with the blood of a white man, and always and only a white man. They point us at Hapas and make comments about our tall noses or big eyes, and if you don’t have those features, then you’re just another inferior Asian man. So I have had Asian women walking smugly with their white boyfriends look at me as if I was the enemy – even though my father is white. 

Have you noticed White women don’t search out Asian men to create “beautiful Hapas / Eurasians, or Hun Xue Er?” Because like Asian women, they desire white men, so they have no good reason to make up lies about the beauty of Eurasians. Their children will be white.

Don’t get me started on “there were just more white men around;” Asian women are deliberately ignoring Asian men, who by natural law exist in equal numbers, even in Asian countries, to pair up with white men.

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40% of all Asian women deliberately exclude Asian men. Yet as the sons of these women, we’re to take pride in this?

There is very little that could convince me otherwise; maybe if there weren’t millions upon millions of them I would think it was a coincidence… but there are. 

And maybe if I wasn’t turned down by Asian women with regards to my Asian heritage – I would have faith that indeed, my own mother and women in my family, were all just coincidences. 

“But you get turned down because of your personality.”

Contrary to what people believe, I became like this out of anger at treated poorly, whereas until I was in my early 20’s I was well liked, popular, thousands of friends on Facebook, tall, good looking, until it became self-evident to me, through observation, careful study of online dating patterns, and personal experience, that Asian blood is problematic.

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Posts from LipstickAlley, two months before Elliot Rodger, one month before Matthew DeGrood

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The above black woman called it two months before; I call it now. It’s going to happen again on my word… (edit: at this point, it has already, several times, as of Feb. 2016) the psychotic nature of some of these relationships is beyond inexplicable and I barely escaped it. My brother, not so much. Ironically I was able to escape the pit I was falling into by writing more on the subject. If you look at the original posts on the websites they are frantic and insane.

It frankly makes no sense at all, for a woman who spent her entire life verbally abusing, demonizing and avoiding Asian men, to be raising an Asian looking boy – particularly if her husband is complicit in the “dominance” or “creation” of the atmosphere of white supremacy that isolates his own son.

Even worse is that Asian women themselves create a nation-wide hook-up culture that severely penalizes Asian looks and then go on to raise Asian looking sons.

What I mean by that is: you can sociologize it away but at the end of the day, we have an entire landfill’s worth of crap to deal with picking up our parents’ racial baggage ON TOP OF the racism in Western society. It is not our fault. Please understand this.

On top of this, our mothers, out of desperation begin to teach their children about culture by signing them up for Karate and Mandarin lessons, when they were trying to escape it their entire lives. Only a very dense Hapa wouldn’t see that the fact that we all have white fathers is indicative of something much more… malignant.

The quote she is referring to is from the Hapa guy who motivated me to start writing on my own.

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Some of the crazy stuff I did as a Eurasian male, with a Chinese mother, and a tall, skinny, blue eyed, glasses wearing, bearded red-haired British-German father.

I think this could be relevant to anyone interested. This is the direct result of having a Chinese mother who wanted to integrate into the US and was adamant about her hatred of anything Asian. For a long time I considered my mother to be “white”, as she had altered her appearance so extensively that in my vague memory of her – I never considered her an Asian woman, and only yesterday (yes, that yesterday) was I able to look in the mirror and see an Asian guy looking back, and be able to not revert into an immediate panic.

Watch this before reading this post.

Female Chinese international student who denigrated Chinese and sang praises about America at UMaryland commencement is in a WMAF.

The realize that Asian women produce sons who look like this:

  • I denied I was Asian for almost ten years and identified as Italian or Russian.
  • Cut my hair very short to retain its light color, up until two years ago; my hair becomes more brown when short, very, very dark at longer lengths and when wet
  • I would avoid looking at myself in the mirror after taking a shower
  • I did not look in the mirror for a three year period between 2012 and 2015
  • Gained sixty pounds in a summer to look less Asian – lost seventy pounds in one summer three years later, to again, look less Asian, based on different comments
  • I used to believe my mother gave birth via immaculate conception or divine intervention and that God ordained me to be white to fulfill a plan for divinated white supremacy
  • I would fantasize about using a razor blade to cut and deepen my eyes
  • I believe God had chosen me for my looks and I bought lottery tickets expecting to win, like Rodger.
  • I would vomit profusely after developing body dysmorphia as an attempt to cover up my Asian appearance; my vomit was colored unusually due to the large amount of supplements I was taking to maintain a weight that I thought would cover my Asian appearance
  • Plagued by nightmares for twenty five years about my mother crashing our car into a body of water before drowning. Dreams have ceased since writing this blog.
  • I screamed at an AMWW couple out of anger, after seeing one in a bar, again, like Rodger.
  • I would smack an Asian student in the face in an attempt to dominate him
  • I made fun of a popular Asian student at my school anonymously and hurt his reputation to cover my own insecurity
  • I would sing fake Chinese songs in an attempt to impress my friends
  •  I would write long winded emails to my father about how I though blue eyed and blond haired people were angels – after which he never bothered correcting me
  • I posted profusely on very hardcore Neo Nazi forums
  • I had befriended a violent neo Nazi who went over my Facebook and criticized me for having too many friends of color and too many Asian female friends – my cousins.
  • On seeing a photograph where I looked Asian, I would immediately delete it and go into a dark depression
  • I never looked at photographs of my parents – either because I was ashamed of the fact that I was half Asian, or because WMAF made me subconsciously uncomfortable (likely the latter)

More if I can remember. My fear is my pain will eventually dissipate and I’ll forget. I need to continue triggering myself to the point that I can effectively keep producing material that will help people.

Xiaxue, mother to an Asian looking Asian boy, officially endorse Trump in front of one of the most racist subs on Reddit, /r/the_donald

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Gee, racist, White supremacist, sexually confused, mentally damaged Hapa males – where have we seen that before?

Archive here.

She appears on /r/the_donald, one of the most racist, hated subs on Reddit.

She freely uses the term cucks.

Here’s her defense in /r/Singapore. Asian women are the only group of women who somehow manage to mix white supremacist redpill HBD talk with feminism. It’s insane.

Here’s her son:

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Another WMAW couple appears on Red Ice Radio – a white supremacist media outlet

It’s not the first time either. See Rachel Dahl and her husband who posted here to defend her.

Red Ice Radio is a white supremacist radio station.

My dad probably listens to stuff like this. He was fond of HAM radio back in the day, and loves Alex Jones and would listen to these weird garage radio stations with guys ranting about Jews and blacks. Part of the reason why my mother went nuts was because my father believed the end of the world was coming and Christ was coming back to annihilate the Jews and negroes, so he abandoned his pension plan or 401k or whatever and instead focused on becoming a full-time religioprepper, or whatever. I’m serious.

Anyways, the purpose of this blog is to advertise the immense amount of internal strife and racism I feel, having a literal white supremacist father who went for an Asian woman. It seems in 2017, it is more likely that a white supremacist finds a non-white wife – in particular Asian, than a white one.

It would be ironic, if it wasn’t so ironic. It’s not one or two. It’s literally thousands of these guys. Here’s the ones that were stupid enough to brag about it.

People don’t quite understand the depth of Asian self hatred. The idea that Asians are inferior to whites is so ingrained in some Asians – the anger and desperation to get away from them – is so compelling that it propels Asian women to marry literal white supremacists. Not once or twice, but by the thousands.

I used to be involved with white supremacists, one of whom tried to get me into his criminal plot to…. do violence. Luckily I said no. He crept on my Facebook and asked me why I had so many Asian girls in my friends. These Asian girls, in fact, were my dear cousins.

My self hatred still lingers. Even today, when it gets hot, I feel the Asianness in my hair; the oiliness in my skin, the thinness of my bones; the grease on my temples. Yeah.

It’s not a good sign for these children. All I do, is try to express why this is happening and what will result.

In fact, Richard Spencer, leader of the alt-right who himself had yellow fever and married the closest thing he could find to a submissive white woman – a black haired Russian woman, commented that there were a ton of Half-Asians appearing at his white nationalist conferences. The grown up sons of racist white men and Asian women.

Stormfront actually just had a 15 page thread expressing adulation for a man married to an Asian woman.  “Based Stickman – a hero arises,” is the name a Stormfront poster titled a thread about a man with a half-Asian son.

This half-Asian guy on Reddit pretty much summed up why White Supremacists love Asian women. Oftentimes other people can do the mental legwork after your mental legs wear out.

On average, Asian women are more white supremacist than white women. These pathetic white supremacists know most white women are too smart and educated to buy into white supremacy because they are all too familiar with all the horrific crimes white men have committed throughout the years because they themselves have suffered because of them. Only an ignorant, delusional women of color who is unaware of the true nature of white males is still dumb enough to buy into white supremacy, and if these Alt-Right cukkks don’t have an Asian wife, they marry another white-worshiping, self-hating women of color like a latina in Nathan Damigo’s case, an Iranian in Mike Cernovich’s case, or a Native American in Gavin McInnes’s case.

 

Guardians of the Galaxy 2 proves all of my theories about Half-Asians and popular conceptions of WMAW.

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Mantis, a stereotypical Asian dunce character played by a WMAW Eurasian woman with a White dad. Yes, a white dad, proving that so many of us look full Asian.

The character “Mantis” is an Asian woman who is used as a butt of a lot of jokes for being an asexual unattractive dunce who is completely naive about her… abilities, and doesn’t seem to balk at insults. I’ve never seen abuse of an Asian person in a movie that was this bad since Sixteen Candles.

Ironically she is reminded for a huge chunk of the movie in a recurring joke that she is “ugly.” She actually isn’t, but her character is portrayed as extremely naive in a way that rings Asian-waifu-kawaii.

The problem here is that she is reminded over and over of her ugliness by an actor who is the son of an Asian guy and a white woman – Dave Batista. He literally gags for no reason at the thought of being with her physically, after saying that he “prefers a woman with more meat on her.” It was insane. People in the theater I was in – a 100% Chinese audience in a billion dollar mall decked out in Gucci and Canali – were muttering that it was racist.

The actress herself (I had NO IDEA) is actually a WMAW Eurasian woman (who even I, the world’s premier expert on Eurasian issues, couldn’t tell) whose real life brother killed himself.

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Sound familiar?

So not only do WMAW Eurasians look more Asian, but just like in real life they are humiliated and treated like crap by the sons of Asian men. Even more so the character of Mantis reflects popular opinions that Asian women aren’t seen as beautiful by anyone other than a specific group of non-Asian men…. not the winners. This has long been an underhanded trope in mainstream media, where Asian women are paired up with the dorks. (I’ll source this if I have time later). Even Zoe Saldana, a high-yellow Dominicana, is seen as being more suitable for the white male leads these days. Star Trek, Beauty and the Beast, and the Walking Dead, have all decided to go with the white male / black female – which is ironically *less disturbing* (or less played out) than WMAW.

It’s almost as if Asian women essentially went too far in allowing themselves to be fetishized to the point that people notice that it’s disturbing and worthy of disdain; that the ridiculously unbalanced portrayal of Asian women vs. Asian men meant an inherent stigmatization that any non-Asian man who would be seen with one necessarily had to be… weird, or desperate, or… whatever. It’s crazy. My opinion is that WMAW went way too far, with Amy Chua, Elliot Rodger (whose father worked in Hollywood and ran in those circles). Meanwhile Asian men finally are getting to feel the pendulum swing back to the other side, ironically just because their female counterparts went too far. It’s as if people are trying to actively go in a new direction.

WMAW, unfortunately, is not a new direction. It’s an old one, and an ugly one.

Prey, the Triple A game that came out this week, features a main character with an Asian last name and a clear nod to his mixed heritage where he has – yes, a white mother and Asian father.

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Bizarre.

🔥How White men who like Asian women hate Asian men and White women the most, and how this affects Eurasian male psychosexuality; and why Elliot Rodger targeted Asian men and White women

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I am Eurasian with a White father and Asian mother. I am incredibly, incredibly messed up, way beyond normal behavior for a male of my age. A lot of this has to do with my paranoid, conspiracy theorist dad (who stopped working because he was afraid that Jesus was coming back, and drove my mother insane), and depressed, mentally-ill Asian mother. I inherited a lot of their mental “problems” – as well a their cultural baggage.

I understand that as a Eurasian male – there are going to be people out there that are a lot worse, particularly when nobody listens to you.

Want to know why? Look at this post by a White guy in Taiwan who was seeking a Taiwanese woman but said, in regards, to Taiwanese men / foreign women couples – that there were “more than there should be.” 

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In the past, I was actually verbally attacked and humiliated for my Asian appearance – despite having a White father and Asian mother – by several of my university classmates. Each and every one of the classmates that did this – was a racist against Asians; one was Arab, two were white.

As engineers they would constantly complain about the Asians in the library or in the cafeteria. It turns out that these men, given that they were neither particularly good looking, and also very nerdy, all slept with Asian women for casual sex and hookups. Because these were the only women these guys could get. These same men would routinely make fun of my for my appearance, ask questions like “are you taller than everyone in China?” (despite the fact that I’m shorter than many high school students, at 6’0″ tall), and made small penis jokes.

It’s not unusual for men who like Asian women to have a particular hate for Asian men and Eurasian men . 

The reason for this is because these men who like Asian women generally do so, as a way to “take back the power” in the form of male sexuality and dominance over Asian women – the women that are known, frankly, for being available for anyone that is not Asian. Asian women are not the most attractive, but largely, because of their stigma, tend to attract men who seek to express a latent desire to have a woman who will beget them with a sense of sexual worth, when in fact, these men might be lacking it in the first place; the desire for Asian women is generally consequential to ones inability to secure a non-Asian partner.

So in a way, the entire appeal of Asian women is that they are available to you, if you fail to get what you want from non-Asian women, who are generally more physically appealing and have higher standards. Meaning that, if X women are too feminist, they don’t like you, too demanding, well, at least I can get an Asian woman – since she will do anything for integration and status (though this is not known to the male, who assumes that the woman just wants “big cock” and “sex with a superior male.”)

So when these men see Asian men with White or non-Asian women, it triggers them, in a way that is exceptionally dangerous, even bordering on violent. Because the Asian male (and in many cases, the Eurasian male) is a non-entity, a feminine other that does not deserve love or sex or companionship. Keep in mind that the man who chose an Asian woman – generally chose her as a second choice, as a response to White or other non-Asian women who have too high standards.

The entire appeal of Asian women is that they are available if and only if the first choice – a non-Asian woman – is not available. Meaning that men like me, who started off charming, outgoing and ambitious, refused to date them because I felt simply that it wouldn’t challenge me as a person, and largely because I didn’t want to be worshipped for my half-White blood. My first kiss actually was with one of the nicest girls I’ve ever known, who actually was Japanese and now engaged to a hapa with a Japanese father, but other than that, since that period I became more and more wary of Asian girls. Unfortunately for the decent ones out there.

So when a man who settles with his second choice – or even last choice before…. suicide, or whatever (as in the case of the original post), sees an Asian man with a White woman – it drives him crazy. It drove Elliot Rodger, the son of a White man and an Asian woman crazy, to see Asian men with White women. The following picture was essentially the catalyst that drove Elliot to murder White women and Asian men.

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Have you seen the way that white men who fetishize Asian women talk down about Asian women and white men? Spend time around them or go into a place like /r/china and ask yourself, honestly, two questions:

  1. How is this progressive?
  2. What is this going to be like for the sons who look Asian?
  3. How the hell is is possible to be normal?

Keep in mind that contemporary White male masculinity is essentially now hinged on the dominance over Asians. Keep in mind that the White male is now “under attack” by Muslims, blacks, and other people of color.

In order to really overcome their fear of losing both political and sexual power, the availability of Asian women is their number one fallback plan.

Asian male / White female (or in some cases another type of woman) tends to provoke anger in non-Asian males in a way that others are not able to properly understand.

Just read how this woman was harassed by a Trump supporter for having an Asian husband. Archive here.

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Keep in mind that many, and I mean many, Trump supporters fully support WMAW.

Another thing to point out – like the top cartoon – is that certain Asian women are pretty much incapable of the Westernized notion of love. Tiger Momming is in their veins, as is Tiger Relationships were they get a white husband, nag and scold him constantly, and so the White man finds himself in a loveless relationship while genuine relationships between Asian men and White women – based on love, mutual understanding and similar life goals, drives him crazy. So there’s that.

Obviously these are generalizations but when something like this is ignored, bad things have happened and will happen. The real culprit is just common every day white supremacy, otherwise known as that practiced by your average twenty something fuckboy.

Actual Neo-Nazi admits to Jared Taylor of American Renaissance that he has an Asian wife and Asian children

Planet Elliot Rodger: Neo Nazi has Asian wife and Asian kids

Of course, an unattractive, wimpy white guy thinks it’s a better deal to get with an Asian woman who makes him feel big for being white, for being “traditional and family oriented” and wants integration… with an actual Nazi.

You’ve been warned about these children. In 1967, White racist men married white women; in 2017, they marry family oriented, traditional, chaste Asian women whose dream is to integrate and have blue eyed children, almost as a default.

See this list? https://www.reddit.com/r/hapas/comments/5nafhd/updated_2017_full_list_of_neonazis_altrights/

I was raised by an identically white supremacist male, who married an Asian woman because he thought she was “traditional,” and wound up with two mentally ill sons, the better of whom lost many of his friends by being swayed by his father’s politics to become a white supremacist. I was a fairly well known one, and my father knew I had turned to White Supremacy, and he made to attempt to stop me, his half Asian son.

Asian women want integration, white skinned, blue eyed children, as do white supremacist men. They literally are creating the next generation of very poorly adjusted, spree shooter, Elliot Rodger clones, children raised by the new generation of white supremacists, yet still are shamed by both society and their parents for looking too Asian.

 

Ever notice this archetype?

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The scowling red-eyed Asian woman walking ten feet in front of her white boyfriend / husband, who looks like he uses Linux at work and in his personal life and had zero chance of reproducing without the help of Asian women, pushing the stroller.

The miserable Hapa son / daughter who looks like she’s in tears.

The screaming Asian woman driving while the white husband cowers in the passenger seat.

Every single one of the Asian women in my family (5 out of 6 of them are with white men) has the same behavior – screaming, insulting behavior (“what the hell is wrong with you?”), constant anger, resentment, and bitterness towards their husbands, who are all very, very meek men. Compare these to how happy AM/WW couples look.

Ever wonder why these couples exist?

Ever wonder why Asian women seem so angry despite getting what they wanted – a white man?

My parents were the same way. Fifteen years of no sex, constant fighting, constant physical abuse where my mother would hit her two Hapa sons, her white husband, and scream on the phone to her sisters about how he was such a loser. Pulling me into her bedroom talking about how her husband ate a bag of chips at once. How he ate sugar right out of the bag. Hitting us with spatulas, hitting us with the dull end of a Chinese cleaver, and coat hangers. She called the cops on him not once, but twice, winding up with two Italian barely-20-year-old-cops listening to an Asian woman explain how her husband wasn’t letting her watch “Schindler’s List” because it was directed by a Jew, in front of two Asian looking children.

Wonder why?

It’s the same reason Asian women complain about yellow fever – it’s because they know that being Asian, they are not the first pick for white men. They are the last pick. Asian women are favored for being “anti-feminist,” for being less “pesky” than those white women. They are favored, most of all, for being “easy” as long as you are a white guy. That’s it. They’re the best you can do as long as you’re white and can’t do anything else. It’s easy Asian pussy – or no pussy at all.

Note how White men always refer to Asian women for their “slimess,” their feminine demure. It’s almost like referring to a child. And nobody is really, truly sexually attracted to children. It’s always “my Asian wife,” not “my wife.”

So by getting with a white man – the Asian woman actually lowers her status, rather than raising it. She lowers her status, like my mother did, by being with the lower end of white men, because real athletic, confident, outgoing White men do not get with Asian women, because the stigma is far too great. So the anger is that in pursuing a “better life” (like most Asian women are trained from birth to do), they actually pursued a worse one. And by pursuing status, they actually wound up crashing it, because by being with white men, and only white men, they just wind up looking exactly like a stereotype. Nobody likes stereotypes. In fact, not even the white men like being with a stereotype; they don’t like looking like stereotypes, and deep down they always are holding out for a White woman.

The nerdy white guy, plus an Asian woman? In the eyes of the world – that’s a stereotype, one that nobody likes. An Asian women are smart enough to know that.

So the constant micro aggression, plus the fact that they date and marry white, yet realize that their husbands and boyfriends are white women’s leftovers, plus the realization that their sons looks Asian, plus the realization that their integration plans fail since nobody takes them seriously –

Angry faces, all the time.

Compare that to the White women who like Asian men, because, frankly, they’re good looking and are nice guys and actually work for a living and make the women feel good about themselves.

If Asian women and white men were so happy in their relationships they wouldn’t constantly be hating on AMWF.

My predictions on Half Asians, and the stages of grief

Bad stuff. I’ve finally entered the final stage of grief, yet recognize exactly the stage of anger that led to the creation of this blog. Ironically I understood the forces at work here and recognized it was never love, so I feel better about my identity – in that I understand there is nothing wrong with me physically. (Mentally, yeah, I’m still screwed). The problem is that I understand that the same forces that screwed me are going to send a lot of young Hapas directly into the anger stage.

Hence the Hapacalypse.

Societal’s double standard where it fetishizes Asian women, Asian women are the number one choice for racist white men (to the point of choosing them over White women simply because they explicitly reward unapologetic whiteness), and the insane racism against White women who date Asian men, means there are going to be…

A lot of half Asian sons born to hyper racists.

In fact, Asian women are the preferred women for the most racist, bitter, angry men on earth. It’s almost as if those white men who fail to get what they want from White women – rely exclusively on Asian women, meaning that the most racist, mentally disturbed, vicious White men default to having Half Asian sons.

It’s hard enough being biracial but now it’s even harder balancing looking like an Asian male (enemy), emasculation, PLUS having a white conservative father who wanted a traditional wife who made him feel big for being white – plus an Asian mother who wanted to integrate into White Power(TM).

It’s probably worse now than it ever was, since WMAW has become so common that it’s essentially the default. That means that Asian women are highly valued, while Asian men will represent the looming Yellow Threat. While Asian women are absorbed to the point of normalcy, where WMAW is “expected”, Asian men will be even more routinely denigrated by Asian women as well as white men as being worthless. That means, unfortunately, a lot more Hapa males are gonna be caught in this mess.

My own internal racism, raised as a high achieving “white” kid – is a pretty good gauge of how Asian males will be treated. It’s not good. My own mental state, which I expected to improve with time – is not, so I assume that I am not alone in feeling that Asian fetishists and white racist men aren’t a good mix.

What’s gonna happen:

  • A Dylan Roof type incident with a hapa guy pulling the trigger
  • A hapa guy will pull another Elliot Rodger and kill Asian male / white female couples
  • A white guy with an Asian wife will become a right wing extremist (already happening with Stickman Kyle Chapman, Cernovich and Gavin McInnes).
  • A white loser stereotype with an Asian fetish will attempt to murder Asian male / white female couples
  • A black kid will get shot by a half Asian cop with a white Dad and Asian mom – probably Filipino or Thai mom.
  • Major corporations and political structures being headed by the sons of Asian men and non Asian women.

All those guys in the picture above – happened in the last 2-3 years. The Hapacalypse is the real deal folks.

🔥The Eurasian beauty myth was always a lie

The reason why everyone hyped up the Eurasian beauty myth was because a bunch of Asian women decided back in the 1970’s that Asian men were ugly and low status and that everyone made fun of them and that it was so much better to be fetishized by the White racist powered class than suffer from perpetual isolation.

In order to cover up this disparity, Asian women started saying that half Asians were all superior despite the fact that Asian women can essentially only get the bottom tier of white men. The problem was that no other biracial group says this. Blacks mixed with whites don’t say this. Nor do Latin and whites. Iranians and blacks. In fact, not even the non-Asian mothers of half Asian children, who have Asian husbands, say this.

All those other groups, mixed groups, have produced children that have done great things. Like the presidency. In fact, Barack Obama was raised by an Asian male / white female couple.

Half Asians are “beautiful” is just slang for – I hope they’re beautiful because I sure as hell will never touch an Asian male.

White women don’t want half asian children at all. White women don’t seem to care about having beautiful Eurasian children – unless the Asian man is really, really hot, or in other cases, because he’s just a sweet, loving person.

Even Kelly Chong PhD, author of this now-famous paper, admitted that Asian men have to be really hot to get White women (or at least they had to, back in the 70’s).

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In fact most white women see Eurasian men as Asian.

Also, if Asian women like Eurasian men so much – why don’t they marry them?

Because Eurasian plus Asian equals Asian looking children, and a Eurasian male plus an Asian woman equals just another low status perpetual foreigner couple.

So most Asian women see another Eurasian son of other Asian women and openly mock and harass them.

Saying that Eurasians are beautiful is just a scam to keep people from prying into their unmatched outmarriage rate that is more often that not, loveless, hateful and just an angry, bitter relationship between a woman who hates Asians and a man who just wanted to feel big.

If you don’t believe me, find the next Eurasian you meet and judge for yourself. The ones who look whiter are happier. The ones who look Asian, not so much. The ones with Asian mothers have a noxious cloud about them, the ones with Asian fathers are more actualized. And yes, happier. 

That’s why there are literally hundreds of thousands of Half Asian men running around now thinking they are the greatest thing on earth, yet so many are deeply insecure people, more racist than their parents, and prone to have mental breakdowns on telling them that they look Asian.

Final thing: Google Half Asian and tell me what you see. Only women.

It’s no secret Asian women secretly hope for daughters, because the Eurasian son is way too high risk. Because they know that Eurasian women serve a purpose in society while Eurasian males need… special consideration. We’re invisible, overrated, and the most famous Eurasian males of all time, for whatever reason, have Asian dads.

🔥Hypocritical abusive Asian women / White men and their extreme jealousy towards Asian / Eurasian males and non-Asian females

I’ve already established that white men who like Asian women hate Asian men the most (largely because Asian women are their last pick and largely substitute for the white women that were too demanding to take their loser asses).

But what about Asian women who hate Asian men / White women?

Below is a video that I accidentally uncovered, while watching, in which the woman states that her agent told her that her now-boyfriend, at the time they met, already had a girlfriend despite him being single.

I posted a thread on Reddit asking if there was a chance that the woman who tried to prevent the relationship was Asian. The thread is here and highly upvoted, to my surprise.

It was later confirmed, in that thread, that the agent was in fact an Asian woman.

My mom spent her whole life trying to get me – her Asian looking Eurasian son – to date Asian women. Why the hypocrisy? She had told me that my first girlfriend, a black girl (ironically the only ones who like Asian and Eurasian looking guys), would get pregnant and leave me, and that her father would physically assault me. My father of course, tried to get me to stay away from white women, and my mother joined in by saying that White women were sluts.

Some 40-50% of Asian women date and marry out. In terms of dating, it’s probably much higher – near 80%. Asian women are also pretty notorious for saying terrible things about Asian males. So as if that’s not bad enough for raising Hapa male sons – it gets worse – because I’ve literally heard from Asian women “I don’t like Asian guys.”

Why are there so many instances of them harassing Asian male / non-Asian female couples?
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From Reddit:

Examples of Asian women in relationships with white men, who attack Asian or Eurasian men for dating non-Asian women

  1. 🔥Asian woman describes hypocrisy of insecure Asian women enabling white-male-racist hyper sexualization, and how Asian women who date White men will harass and attack Asian men who date out. “It’s not uncommon for insecure Asian women with non-Asian partners to give dirty looks to and sh*t talk Asian men who date out. This is because those particular Asian women are jealous and insecure.”
  2. Asian male: Women from my Dad’s family hated the fact my mom was from Latin America. Link. 
  3. 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥Entire reddit thread devoted to White women with Asian partners who are harassed by the Asian males’ female family members
  4. Asian woman with white boyfriend attacks her ex-boyfriend for dating a white woman.
  5. Asian male says that his mother worked to prevent him from dating non-Asian women. 
  6. Korean mother in law harasses white woman married to Korean man 
  7. Hypocritical Asian woman encourages Asian looking son to marry Asian, while telling daughter to marry white. 
  8. White woman with Asian boyfriend talks about aggression from Asian women with white boyfriends.
  9. Same white woman talks about aggression from Asian women with white boyfriends, again.

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Many Asian mothers try to force their children to marry Asian women – unusual, since they themselves married white. My mother pushed me towards Asian women for 20 years even though my dad said to me in private: “Chinese women are very hard on their men,” after the constant nagging, screaming, violence, beatings, police-calls, separate bedrooms, sleeping on the floor, and overall atrocious behavior ground the marriage down to a nub, essentially as a result of my mother realizing my father was exactly the kind of loser who “preferred” Asian women.

Why?

Why do Asian women and Asian mothers in law harass the living hell out of the women who date Asian men, Eurasian men, their White daughters in laws, other Asian women, and even black women who date Asian men?

Could it be – that Asian women marry for status and integration and rely heavily on fetishization for integration – a fetishization that inflates their attractiveness, and heavily leans on the fact that they are “superior to Asian men,” so when they see a “superior non-Asian woman” marry an Asian guy – it disrupts their sense of power and makes them realize what a flimsy ledge they’re standing on – that they are not more beautiful or desirable, but rather just fetishized?

It makes Asian women realize, that no matter what, they are only desirable due to fetishization by low-status non-Asian males, so to see an Asian male do well – it disrupts her entire worldview, and makes her angry to see a non-Asian woman have a genuine relationship with an Asian man, despite the fact that she can only get losers?

Could it moreso be that Asian women, due to Asian culture, don’t understand the concept of love as love (meaning that many Asian women happily marry ugly, bald, bottom feeding white men), and so seeing a superior white woman marry an inferior Asian guy just jars her entire system?

The best thing any AMWF, Asian male, or Hapa male can do is straight up avoid Asian women. Many already do. Many top tier Asian men pretty much only date non-Asian women. It is rare to find Eurasian men who date Asian women. Why? Their worldview is incredibly skewed, to the point that bald, old, unattractive white men become a priority, indicating their views on love and sex differ from the rest of the world- and the reasons for this are varied, but largely have to do with the fact that they frankly are the least attractive and only benefit from desperation and fetishization, and their hatred ebbs off on everyone  around them.

This is why so many Half Asian men just straight up cut contact with their parents. Because the world sees us as Asian – and frankly, it’s hard as a WMAW Eurasian to not feel deeply disturbed by his parents, especially when racist white men and Asian women make it a point to harass and demean any male who looks Asian – including Eurasians.

The problem with WMAW couples is that white worshipping Asian women frankly make terrible mothers – they constantly try to use their children as a political tool against Asianness, they marry men who are, frankly, not the best – because Asian women have so heavily crashed their own value to the point that the only men who like them are weird. That is, because asexual Asian women are so “pro-white,” the guys who use this cultural tick to get laid, are generally bottom of the barrel white males. 

Half Asians are essentially on our own in understanding our identity. The ultimate irony is that many times out of many, half Asian sons are being raised by the worst possible people to be raising us – white men and Asian women who hate Asian men and want to maximize on whiteness.