Sticky: Asian Women and White Men: Why the Mental Health of Hapa Sons and Daughters of White Men and Asian Women Needs to be Addressed, and Why You Should Reach Out to Hapa People.

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I changed the above picture for fear of doxxing. Use this blog as an example of how troubled Hapas can be, some worse than others. I wrote this essay about two years ago, at the peak of a very, very damaging breakdown. Since then, thanks to a supportive community and a (now large) group of Eurasians putting their brains together, I have transformed this blog into a rational discussion of the dangers of hatred, the reality of race relations even in romance, and even discovered the source of why I was so crazy; my older posts (if you go back to the beginning) can be used as a representation of the kind of damage that was done to my mind, and the kind of psychosis that can be found in mixed young men and women without proper intervention. If I hadn’t started this blog, I would likely now be dead or imprisoned, and ironically by writing I found the source of the very unsettling problems I had no more than two years ago; hence I won’t change the title. If you don’t believe that I am Hapa, continue reading. I try to present the issues as honestly as I can.

I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged male – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.

Iimage1-5magine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?

In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall, red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white.

This man was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture).

I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including almost all of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men, and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade. 

My parents’ relationship was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.

When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian, and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal.

Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going  and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women, hate my Asian side, so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissecting White male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.

I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood. 

highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went.

I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.

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The half Asian reality summed up here.

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Society doesn’t care that your son is half white. Asian women don’t care that your son is half white. All they want is white men. Half Asian sons are not white men.

Most of the time Asian women marry white men because they don’t like Asian men and have a physical preference for white men.

Half Asian men resemble Asian men.

In fact the majority of people don’t like Asian men.

Admit it: your wife / girlfriend is with you because she does not like Asian men. She is only attracted to tall white men.

They will say it’s because of behavior / feminism, but Asian male behavior (jealousy) is because Asian women don’t like the way Asian men look. Ask any Asian woman married to a white man and she’ll just say:

“I’m just not attracted to them.”

Asian women don’t like Asian men for the same reason MOST white women don’t like Asian men. They are Asian.

A half Asian son realizes this. He realizes that he is Asian too. It doesn’t matter how good looking he is, how talented, how intelligent – he will endure a lifetime of hearing “of course your mother is the Asian one,” and being perpetually second class in non-Asian society. He will endure jokes, endure racism, discrimination from society, see thousands of Asian women a year paired up with white men, face discrimination in dating, in work – and…

…his own parents will oftentimes be extremely racist against Asian men as well – yet he looks like an Asian guy. 

Along with the millions of Asian women around him disliking Asian men, his own mother does too. Every single Eurasian person with eyes looks around him and sees how Asian women act around white men, fawning, complimenting – and Asian mothers expect us to not notice. Can we please just drop the charade and admit this is true?

How are half Asians supposed to somehow not notice that Asian women openly favor white men, that these couples are extremely narcissistic and have insanely eugenicist beliefs about their own children, and yet develop emotionally healthy?

If he looks Asian, then, well. Welcome to a life of bullying, confusion, resentment, depression, rejection from both sides, and perpetual low self esteem seeing Asian women like his mother paired up millions of times over with white men – yet he looks Asian. 

He will be asked to take pride in the fact that his, and all his friends’ fathers are white, and asked to deal with the stereotypes of White men / Asian women and unable to distinguish between good and bad couplings. He will try to take pride in looking Asian but realizes that nobody, not his friends, not women, not his own mother, wants anything to do with an Asian male. He will be born into an anti-Asian society, look Asian, and recognize that even his own mother valued white men over him. It is the ultimate betrayal.

I’m sorry. Please, please, please stop lying about this.

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Footnotes:

“But half Asian babies are cute.”

And half Asian babies become Asian men when they grow up.

“Half Asian men are hot.”

They’re not all hot, and people won’t care that they’re half. Besides, you believed white men hottest. You turned down hot Asian men for white men, so why would anyone want a hot half Asian man?

I know hot half Asian men.”

Nope. You know men who pass as white. When you figure out how to guarantee your son is 6’3″, let me know. And after all, you wanted a white man, not a half Asian man.

I know Asian men with white girlfriends.”

You know one or two, while you know five times as many Asian women with white boyfriends.

It’s a yes or no question. Does your loved one hate Asian men? Yes, or no.

Will you son be Asian? Yes or no. Simple question.

Just yes, or no.

The Ongoing Mentally Ill Eurasian List: Why Are Hapas with White Fathers Committing So Many Crimes?

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The above picture describes my parents to an absolute T.

2016 update: I stopped, then started to continue to add people to this list because the news keeps aggregating and aggregating. 2016 has seen several national news stories featuring Eurasians – every single one with a white father and Asian mother.

Does anyone want to explain why virtually every single Eurasian / Hapa who commits a crime has a white father and an Asian mother?

The single largest mixed race demographic on earth – all uniformly born to white fathers (literally the last people on earth who understand what it’s like to be non-white) and Asian mothers (literally the last people on earth who care) – the only predictable factor among a million unpredictable social elements.

Could it maybe have to do with the fact that SOME of the people who get involved in these relationships present us with a highly politicized relationship involving the superiority of white men, passive aggressive myths about Eurasian beauty and abilities, and psychosexual microaggressions designed to demean Asian people? While my father never badmouthed Asian men – I can only imagine being the son of raceplayers, or women who make a show of their distaste for Asian blood. And I had it bad. 

Not all, of course, but let’s be honest that there are many Asian women who chase white men out of a passionate hatred for Asian men, and there are white men who are happy to sleep with them, disrespect the hell out of their Asian partners, not thinking that their son will look totally Asian. From the Sarong Party Girls, to the LA valley girls who dye their hair… where does this all lead besides some of us being in a really bad place… and there are some incredible selfish white guys who get off on being worshipped for their whiteness and think that their children won’t have problems. Really? Really?

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“Proud” Hapas

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Why would a half-Asian be proud?

Proud of being white? Or proud of being Asian?

We’re expected to be proud of being Asian yet own mothers fetishized White men – believed white men to be far superior to Asian men, and believed white features to be more desirable on a male? Whenever people look at me, they make comments about my tall nose and small face – so why not just go get a full white guy? We’re like a testimony to how obsessed Asian women are with white features. Literally every time someone asks “what are you?” – and you respond with “I’m Half Chinese,” they say, “it must be your mom who is Chinese.”

Combine this with the fact that everyone hates Asian men – including white women, and Asian women themselves who view you at best as an odd looking Asian mixed minority (Uzbek, Xinjiang), or at worst, like a full Asian

How can we be proud to be half Asian, when everywhere we go we see Asian women throwing themselves at plain, basic, ugly White men – proving that Asian women really will do anything to integrate and upgrade themselves with white blood? We really are supposed to be okay with going to school, being laughed at for being a chink or a small-dicked Asian, humiliated for our Asian looks by white people, when your own mother was literally sleeping with the men who look exactly like the kind of guy saying this shit to you?

Then our mothers have the NERVE to tell us to be proud to be Asian? To be part of a race of men whose women outmarry at a rate of 50-60%? Why not just identify as white – since they are the guys who are able to walk all over Asian women, getting sex and love whenever they want with both white and Asian women – and if we identify as Asian we are putting ourselves right back in the cultural ghetto our mothers tried to escape from?

Our features are Asian. Our eyes might be Asian. Or our hair texture. Or our bodies. You we half-Asian, yet Asian women, and white women, continue to reject Asian men in favor of tall, powerful White Western men. Asian women claim that all half Asian men are beautiful – based on what they see on the internet, yet the internet only collects the most beautiful specimens. What about the half Asians who look indistinguishable from full Asians? Or the ones who look ugly, and then disappear from Asian womens’ minds?

We have to then live with the fact that Asian women around us continue to literally bow then like dogs to men like my father, racist, unemployable, unreliable white men – because they’re tall and white. And my father isn’t even that bad a guy! What about the white men who are such horrible racists that they get off on dominating Asian vagina in order to prove their superiority?

Oh yes, let’s be proud that:

  • 95% of our fathers were white.
  • Our mothers chased tall bearded white guys.
  • Our moms were bar girls, race climbers, status chasers, mentally ill, superficial, cruel, ex-prostitutes, mentally ill, money-obsessed, spent their whole life fetishizing white male features, obsessed with Europe, etc., etc.
  • Our fathers were manipulative, oftentimes racist men who used white worshipping Asian women to their benefit of finding partnership, sometimes abandoning us because they didn’t want a half Asian child.

We look Asian. We are “Hapa,” meaning that in the eyes of our own mothers and millions like them, and millions of people around the world – we are still Asians. We have white blood, yet we are nowhere near the level of attractiveness of the white movie stars that our mothers drooled over. Are there Chinese movie stars like Hu Dong who have tall noses? So why would a half-Asian be of any value – when Asian women really just want blue eyed, blond haired white men?

So they gave us a label: Hapa, which is nothing more than a clever attempt at giving us self-esteem, as if we were best of both worlds, or a beautiful blend – yet all it means is that we were infused with the blood of a white man, and always and only a white man. They point us at Hapas and make comments about our tall noses or big eyes, and if you don’t have those features, then you’re just another inferior Asian man. So I have had Asian women walking smugly with their white boyfriends look at me as if I was the enemy – even though my father is white. 

Have you noticed White women don’t search out Asian men to create “beautiful Hapas / Eurasians, or Hun Xue Er?” Because like Asian women, they desire white men, so they have no good reason to make up lies about the beauty of Eurasians. Their children will be white.

Don’t get me started on “there were just more white men around;” Asian women are deliberately ignoring Asian men, who by natural law exist in equal numbers, even in Asian countries, to pair up with white men.

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40% of all Asian women deliberately exclude Asian men. Yet as the sons of these women, we’re to take pride in this?

There is very little that could convince me otherwise; maybe if there weren’t millions upon millions of them I would think it was a coincidence… but there are. 

And maybe if I wasn’t turned down by Asian women with regards to my Asian heritage – I would have faith that indeed, my own mother and women in my family, were all just coincidences. 

“But you get turned down because of your personality.”

Contrary to what people believe, I became like this out of anger at treated poorly, whereas until I was in my early 20’s I was well liked, popular, thousands of friends on Facebook, tall, good looking, until it became self-evident to me, through observation, careful study of online dating patterns, and personal experience, that Asian blood is problematic.

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Posts from LipstickAlley, two months before Elliot Rodger, one month before Matthew DeGrood

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The above black woman called it two months before; I call it now. It’s going to happen again on my word… (edit: at this point, it has already, several times, as of Feb. 2016) the psychotic nature of some of these relationships is beyond inexplicable and I barely escaped it. My brother, not so much. Ironically I was able to escape the pit I was falling into by writing more on the subject. If you look at the original posts on the websites they are frantic and insane.

It frankly makes no sense at all, for a woman who spent her entire life verbally abusing, demonizing and avoiding Asian men, to be raising an Asian looking boy – particularly if her husband is complicit in the “dominance” or “creation” of the atmosphere of white supremacy that isolates his own son.

Even worse is that Asian women themselves create a nation-wide hook-up culture that severely penalizes Asian looks and then go on to raise Asian looking sons.

What I mean by that is: you can sociologize it away but at the end of the day, we have an entire landfill’s worth of crap to deal with picking up our parents’ racial baggage ON TOP OF the racism in Western society. It is not our fault. Please understand this.

On top of this, our mothers, out of desperation begin to teach their children about culture by signing them up for Karate and Mandarin lessons, when they were trying to escape it their entire lives. Only a very dense Hapa wouldn’t see that the fact that we all have white fathers is indicative of something much more… malignant.

The quote she is referring to is from the Hapa guy who motivated me to start writing on my own.

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🔥Racist white men LOVE Asian women❗️❗️❗️ (Vital Post; updated)

 

Here are some brief examples, there are hundreds of thousands of these guys. Asian women are famous for being highly valued by racist white men, who view them as the antithesis to white female feminism, race traitors, and liberalism. Asian women are well known for loving blue eyes and blonde haired men – simply because they are white, and this means a higher status life – so white men capitalize on this. Asian culture also puts a high premium on integration and status, and marrying a white person = status, and integration.

I.e., White women are viewed as not operating in accordance with the white man’s motives; so, whereby, Asian women, by virtue of wanting whiter children, and to escape the Gilded Ghetto / Model Minority second class citizenship, are very pro-white, and moreso, pro white-male. White men can escape “emasculation” by non-white men and white women, by “taking the power back” with Asian women, who want whiter children, and hate Asianness.

They oftentimes, as a result, marry men like my father; antisocial, prickly, racist and extremely conservative, physically unattractive white men, and whether they intend to stay with these men after childbirth is still something I’m not sure of, given that many Japanese women kidnap their children back to Japan, and my mother, for example, started severely chastising and alienating my father after my brother and I were born.

In fact the entire gist of White male / Asian women relationships is that those white men with physical defects / mental defects have a better chance at getting a woman – than he would within his own race. Sounds un-PC, but people have died as a result.

Example 1.

This particular guy, Nigel Wise, is in the English Defense League.

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Example 2.

The creator of a massive Neo-Nazi website said: “Second, following from the key word there – “marriage” – the men who involve themselves with Asian women are looking for a serious and traditional relationship.  Women who go with Blacks and Latinos are looking for excitement.” 

Example 3.

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John Derbyshire, white nationalist. Some of the things he has said.

Example 4.

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The director of One Nation in Queensland has an Asian wife.

Example 5.

Can I still fuck East Asian girls and be a WN?

Example 6.

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Ranking Aryan Nation member/current inmate Jimmy Maxwell. “My first wife and mother of my children is even half Korean”. Several of his Quapa kids have drugs and legal problems. One is incarcerated for murder.

Example 7. 

White guy from a few months back, married to an Asian woman, saying that a white woman who was burned to death deserved it for sleeping with a black male – hence being a “mud shark.”

Example 8.

White nationalist Youtube is married to a Taiwanese woman.

Here’s a link to one of his YouTube videos in which he talks about the importance of preserving the white race through white nationalism (without mixing with Slavs and Mediterranean Peoples).

Example 9.

New Zealander politician and head of National Party, Don Brash, criticized for his views on race relations in New Zealand. “Don Brash doesn’t seem racist. He’s married to an Asian woman.” [Also has a hapa son]

Archive.

Example 10.

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[2015] Republican running for New Jersey Assembly finds himself in hotwater for writing book containing hate speech against women and minorities. “I’m not a homophobe, I’m not anti-Semitic, not anti-Asian… My wife is Asian. My son is Korean.”

Example 11.

 

“Irish man arrested for causing havoc and racially abusing Muslims. Says he did it because he fears for his hapa son’s future. He “finds it difficult to be labelled a racist” as his wife is Thai.”

Example 12.

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Neo-Nazi white supremacist Brian Ruhe has a Thai wife

Example 13.

Founder of North Carolina Ku Klux Klan branch, high-profile white nationalist and murderer of several Jewish people was married to a Hawaiian women and had a hapa son.

Example 14.

[2014] White Nationalists march in Australia. When one is asked if the march is racist he replies, “My girlfriend is a Chinese woman.”

Example 15.

Internet comment: White People better wake the fuck up… These liberal motherfuckers want a race war their going to get it one day… My wife is Chinese…


Why do racist white men like Asian women? My dad is a Holocaust denier and has said that gays should be hanged, among other things, such as the fact that New York City is overrun by blacks, and Jews.

Simple:

As a white male; be extremely racist to the point nobody wants to be around you (my dad, who has no friends), and then go for the one race of women that will appreciate for – you guessed it – your whiteness. Asian women, in return, get white skin (a cultural value) and integration (personal value) and possibly fulfills a fetish for white men, regardless of the man’s beliefs.

The white man gets a “substitute” white woman – a white skinned woman with less attitude, and more proactive in her belief that whiteness is valuable. In a way, Asian women are even more pro-white than the average white woman. 

If you are a bottom of the barrel white guy who feels like white women are too high maintenance and yet still wants to be proud to be white, and feel honored for your white blood, find an Asian woman. Not Latina, not black, not middle Eastern, but Asian. Honorary Aryans.

Are Asian women more attractive than other races of women? Of course not. Their only appeal is that they are well known for being easier to obtain if you are white.

White men / Asian women is a tradeoff; Asian women get a white lifestyle, integration into “superior” white culture- white men get to feel valued for their race. Eurasians are raised as substitute white children.

 This also explains why many half Asian criminals have expressed white-supremacist views; by and large because they aim for “upward” integration, rather than choosing to identify with a “net-negative” – or, Asian men, who are rejected by society.

Hapa weighs in on white losers + Asian girls

I came across this post somewhere from a Hapa who explained why Hapas are so crazy.

Two things.

I have almost next to no interest in Asian women. Like, zero, I find most of their behavior repugnant, I think the way they throw themselves at white men is extremely distressing. I know it’s not love, and I figure that the ones that are capable of love probably aren’t as racist. My parents didn’t love each other at all.

I have dated a number of girls, all of whom I liked, but inevitably I came across the “I don’t like Asian guys,” which sent me over the edge. I would have been perfectly fine being rejected by White women, but to be lied to that I was superior because I was half Asian, when in fact society just sees me as Asian, is enough to make anyone crazy. Frankly, my loser father should just not have had kids, rather than force that insane relationship based on miscommunication and status onto me.

That being said, my brother has been considered a threat against others. My mother was an extreme, self hating person, like a true blue self-hating white supremacist, and my father is an open white supremacist. It doesn’t make sense, but it does. With that in mind please keep an eye on Eurasian kids.

I agree with the guy. I do feel sorry for the guys who marry Asian women like this, but I feel much, much worse for the kids who have to go through what I went through.

Real answer coming through from a hapa guy.

Asian women are raised in conservative cultures, a poster above already got that right, what he neglected to mention is that the concept of “marrying up” is extremely strong. Marrying an Asian man is a lateral move, marrying a white man is a move up, marrying a black or latino man is step down.

Parents treat all of these accordingly. It isn’t rebellion, its an attempt to gain status within her community. And so the white loser she marries will get her pregnant, she’ll have the baby, and her sons will become Elliot and her daughters will become Mayli. That’s how it goes.

Becoming a single doctor or lawyer is actually worse than becoming a housewife to a white man to them. The dumb ones can pursue marriage to fulfill the standards. It isn’t hard for them to find mates, Asian women are the most fetishized group of people on the planet, especially among weeaboos and fat older white men looking for a trophy wife. And that’s what they want to be, a trophy wife.

Most second or third generation Asian men I know aren’t even remotely interested in all the bullshit that comes along with dating or marrying one of those bitchy tiger traditionalists, and I almost feel bad for the white losers that go in expecting a subservient waifu.

I wish non-Asian people could understand the shit we go through; and other brutal truth about being half Asian

Most people do not like WMAF. The history of it is repulsive, and the imbalance of it, is telling. I don’t care that Asian women want to rebel against their strict parents, or whatever. If 50-60% of Asian women are perfectly fine with Asian guys – that means that not all Asian males are bad. 

When my wife and I first started dating, I did consider myself Chinese, but I was deranged, so I was obsessed with Naziism and trying to look as white as possible. I wore Ralph Lauren, had a Nazi youth cut. After all – all the white men the women in my family had married were ultra conservative, ranging from Giuliani-ists, to Pat Buchnanists, to Hitler-ists (my dad). And when out with her, I would get nasty stares – not from Asian men (which happened once and made me feel like shit because I’m half Asian and have been told that I was less because of it), but from Asian women themselves.

A Chinese woman who was around my age literally gave me a death stare while out with my wife. Then, a while later, a “normal” white waiter, a young man, at a TGIF or Red Robin or some steakhouse grilled me REALLY hard for being with an Asian woman.

Most “normal” men don’t date Asian women because the history of it looks really bad, it is incredibly unbalanced, and it just looks…. really bad. I mean really bad. I’m half Asian and  after these experiences, I went to lengths to disguise my white heritage, while out with my wife, because of the looks that I got from… you guessed it, other Asian women. Even other normal white men grill me HARD when I’m out with her, because it looks bad. So I started wearing my hair back, dressing like a Kpop star (yankees cap, white sneakers) and now people think I’m Korean, and the problems went away over night.

Also in solving these problems, I realized that being Asian was okay; ironically by embracing my Asianness, I probably avoided an Elliot Rodger episode where I would have spent the rest of my life trying to be white, like most half Asians.

This doesn’t however prevent other white-worshipping Asian women from either looking at me with disgust (half the time), and the other time, looking at me like I’m some kind of prize for their white worship. It’s all very confusing and I can imagine how hard this is on many half Asians. The whole thing is insane.

AMWF kids don’t have these problems. From what I understand, most “normal” white men probably accept AMWF and like to see Asian men do well. WMAF is largely about autistic, problematic white men with fucked up notions about Asians in general, and Asian women who want status. It’s literally worst of both worlds.

So I hope non-Asians can at least give us some leniency, if at least let half Asians know that they’re okay.

 

This guy is half Asian with an Asian mom and White dad

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I don’t even look that Asian, and I still had immense trouble with self esteem knowing that my own mother had married a white loser with no job, a racist white man – simply because he had blue eyes. I had immense problems never seeing Asian males on TV, and knowing that 90% of the Asian women I knew were with white men.

So this is all in my head? Literally hearing “I only date white guys” and “I don’t really like Asian guys” despite having a white father – that’s supposed to convince me that everything is egalitarian in this world?

Hapa guys are legitimately miracle workers for not being more angry.

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Article and comments on “Why Western Women won’t Date Chinese Men” proves how insanely racist Asian women are – and how dysfunctional, violent and soulless WMAF couples are

Archive here.

A thread discussing this on /r/hapas was called: “What Chinese-American women think of the male features they give their Half Asian sons. No wonder Xiuxue gave her infant blue contacts, and Elliot Rodger dyed his hair blond at age 7

This is the real deal too, because I lived it.

In my mind being Asian was fundamentally worthless, because my mom and dad were proof of that, so I would freak out over my hair texture. You know how when your hair gets longer, and your sideburns don’t attach to the side of your head like a white person, just get really long, stringy black sideburns? That was such a source of pain for me that I almost imploded and I dropped out of school and all sorts of things.

If these are the people raising half Asian kids I feel more sorry for them than their kids because ultimately they’re going to eat at the same table they’ve been shitting on their whole life.

What’s the point of having kids – if you are really a eugenicist, and truly believe that White male genes are the bee’s knees? What kind of life is it to live ones life with the knowledge that his entire self worth is his father’s genes? What kind of Nazi experiment is this?

At this point I will just use Reddit comments from other mixed race half-Asians to describe exactly how depraved these women are – and why they are unfit in raising half Asian children – many of whom look very Asian, like myself, and long had to deal with perpetual low self esteem and self harm coming from a hateful Asian woman and a white man who tolerated her because she was his last choice.

Even worse is that several of the commenters explain how dysfunctional their relationships with Chinese women are: proving that the worst Chinese women are the ones who chase white men just for status, and everything else, from the violence, abuse, child kidnapping, are all part of her plan to use the man for her master plan of… whatever. Proving half Asian children are high risk.

And yet these idiots can’t seem to realize that when you interracially date, there are often ulterior motives, then they’re stuck with a couple of miserable kids whose mother was a sociopathic violent psycho like my mom, and these loser white guys couldn’t stack up as a real father the minute they decided to go Asian, anyways.

Kate is full of crap. I’ve had 2 long term Chinese female partners, both of whom were I was seriously involved with and had kids. I was/am absolutely considerate; when I tried to get them their favourite juice or snack, suddenly it was inadequate or their taste had changed, they would constantly nag, belittle and even argue rampantly in public no matter how much I would try to ignore them or voice my concerns about it. They’d even argue with me about buying them the wrong kind of juice etc. I’d spend and do spend a fortune on them for birthdays (nothing less than jewellery) yet often get nothing in return, not even a card, same when I would buy them gifts on behalf of my children for them on mothers day, not even a card from them on fathers day. My first partner kidnapped my oldest child and took him overseas without my knowledge or consent, he was 2 weeks short of turning one and I never saw him until after his second birthday. My second partner is so reliant on her mother and insists her idiotic mater stays with us allowing her to interfere with the raising of our sons detrimentally under the ruse of being here to help baby sit. Babysit? I come home to find my 2yr old son running around with kitchen knives and scissors under her supervision while she shakes my infant son violently to sleep. It must be normal to shake babies to sleep in China. Neither my ex nor my current partner would stand up to their parents in the cause of reason. I’ve been told by both my ex and current Chinese partner that love is silly and has no place in a relationship, that love is a luxury and intimacy is scarce. Unless you are willing to completely submit, and kowtow to a Chinese woman you will always be at odds and it is likely the relationship won’t last. They are a completely different culture to the west with different values which are their way, often completely opposed to western values. When they have money, they will laud it over you, and if you are honest with them, they won’t respect it and expect you to give them nearly all you have. The first time I was in China with my current partner she got annoyed over something trivial, very annoyed; I was annoyed it was so trivial and couldn’t wait until we got home in private. She completely abandoned me in a totally alien place with no knowledge of Mandarin or any money and didn’t even apologise even until now over 2 years later. She’s done it more than once. Both my ex and current partner are/were violent and would attack with scissors or hit me with stools, and I’m the bastard if I disarm them and they fall over as a result. Both of them have deliberately drawn blood on me, I never did on them. Be warned, beauty is skin deep, madness cuts to the bone. Chinese women come from a different culture where human empathy and compassion aren’t always necessarily the driving purpose of their interest in you.

White Nationalist Richard Spencer and his Asian girlfriends; LOL when people say white guys who like Asian girls aren’t racist

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This article was just published today on MotherJones.com. Nearly two years after I started writing this blog.

It’s long, and it’s devoted to Richard Spencer, a white nationalist – and a famous one.

One bit stood out – his love of Asian girls.

Let me put this as bluntly as I can.

I am not jealous. I am in fact turned off by Asian women and their behavior, and have been for most of my life; when I was young I flat out avoided Asian women because I was afraid they would like me only because I was half White. Such was their reputation. I also find their behavior more or less repugnant, how cold and calculating so many of them are. I have had fulfilling relationships with non-Asian women, however I sabotaged almost all of them because of my self hatred and low self esteem… given to me by, you guessed it, women in my own family.

I was also an extreme racist. My father is one of the most predominant, outspoken extreme-right / homophobic men in his state; so far so that we have received death threats. He is not on Richard Spencer’s level but he is notorious enough. And yeah, he was married to a Chinese woman.

I fucking lol @ the girls who date white men thinking that white men aren’t racist. LOL.

If anything the guys that DON’T date Asian women are less racist than the ones who do.

If my dad was actually a man and didn’t believe in Holohoax theories and hollow earth and wasn’t friends with Mel Gibson’s dad, I sincerely believe I’d be a white man right now.

I’d actually might even be half black now, if my dad had actually been less racist, LOL. Or even half Egyptian, or half Mexican. Maybe then I could have had a normal life.

I used to fanatically believe exactly what Richard believed; that race meant something. This was largely out of my insecurity – I couldn’t understand why white girls would turn me down, for example, in favor of black guys, saying “I don’t like Asian guys.” Naturally, all the women in my family were married to White men, so I assumed that being Asian was a death sentence. But I also couldn’t understand why father like my men, who I assumed were good, were being rejected by white women, despite white and and white women having such beautiful features. I assumed at the time they were beautiful, even though I didn’t have them. Then at around 26 I realized that my dad was a huge, and I mean HUGE, antisocial racist outlier.

Either way, I became a huge racist, I lost all my friends – you know the rest. All because I’m half Asian, I apparently look Asian enough to garner discrimination, my father was a racist loser, and my mother a white worshipper.

Asian women like white men because they are an alternative to being Asian. They want to fit in. They want status. They somehow just hate being Asian so much that being white is their only outlet. The problem here is that the men they attract – well, there are a certain group of men who know that Asian women worship whiteness, and value them for worshipping whiteness. So in a way, extremely racist white men tend to love Asian women, and vice versa.

It’s funny because Asian girls want to marry white men to “rebel,” but white men tend to like Asian women because white women are too rebellious. Either way, just look at how the kids have turned out, and that’s all you really have to know.

Asian women seem to have forgotten that their children are still Asian men, in the eyes of society.

Juju Chang’s children look 110% Asian despite only being half

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What’s crazy is that Asian women deliberately marry for power and integration and status.  None of the women in my family are feminists; they’re all just controlling women who marry / date white men for power. They’ve said this so many times. Asian men are a butt of jokes, a laughing stock in the US. Do these kids look any percent white? Maybe 10%? They are 100% Asian in the eyes of non-Asians.

When I was 20 years old, I encountered daily, DAILY, comments about how I looked Asian, how I shouldn’t wear glasses because I looked Asian, all while all the Chinese women FOBS in my university were literally sleeping with the same men who were saying this to me. Of course – how do you think that affected my self esteem? Enough that I dropped out of school.

After all, my mom wanted a white dude, and here are all these people calling me Asian. Like, Asian, as in 100% Asian, like, I’m only half, but I’m still Asian.

Makes me wonder if Juju and her husband decided to have three children because they were hoping for a girl, or less Asian looking ones, deep down. Only she knows, deep in her brain.

That’s called karma.

If Asian women want white men for the power – where are the powerful kids? If Asian women love to show off how much power they have by traipsing around with white guys – don’t they realize that they’re creating an atmosphere that ruins our lives?

And don’t list a handful of 50 year old white-passing Eurasians that magically were able to survive and marry white women – racism in my era and the current one is ten times worse.

🔥Jon on the Bachelorette proves how f*cked up Hapa males are

On national TV, on the premier of the Bachelorette, the only half Asian contestant (who is a late 20’s, single permavirgin it looks like) there immediately made a joke about Asian small dicks. He didn’t even get past the first Rose Ceremony or whatever that is. I didn’t watch it – I just heard about this through the grapevine.

He said two things: “I’m Scottish from the waist down;” and “I am not wearing any panties.”

Like most half Asians – Jon here has a white father, since Asian women love white men and hate Asian men. Jon looks very Asian.

Let me clue you in here – many half Asians, including myself, will attempt to disparage and distance themselves as far as they can from their Asian heritage, in an attempt to gain acceptance, or in my case, to get laid. I used to bully full Asians. I used to say horrible things about Asian people – that was until my friends started to remind me that I was Asian myself. 

When a white girl turned me down because I was Asian, and then went on to sleep with a black guy, I started to try as hard as I could to be white. Attempted to dye my hair, considered wearing contacts, lost weight to look whiter. I even started to be interested in white nationalism – even though my first girlfriend was black.

After all – our own mothers are living proof that nobody wants Asian men, and even if we can make it past the formative years of our lives (ages 0-20) without killing ourselves, our self-hatred will linger with us our entire lives. Hence Daniel Holtzclaw raping black women and saying “how does that white dick taste,” and Elliot Rodger massacring three full Asian roommates while saying that black boys did not deserve white girls. Again, half Asian children are just an afterthought to the global desire for white male partners expressed by Asian women. So nobody knew what was going to happen.

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A half Asian girl named Jen Kang @shoesandshiz actually commented on Jon, on Twitter, saying this. Keep in mind these are the same women who go on to raise half Asian sons – so is Jon’s behavior surprising? Is Elliot Rodger’s behavior surprising?

In its very mild form you will have guys like this on national TV. In its extreme form you will have mass murderers who weren’t able to put two and two together.

We learn our white supremacy from our fathers, and mothers. No half Asian with an Asian father would humiliate himself on TV like that. His joke actually so successfully demeans himself that he was eliminated before the show even started – if his Asian appearance hadn’t disqualified him already.

(I would even go so far as to say that Jon here might even be gay and went on TV just for exposure. I don’t think any straight guy would hate and humiliate himself that much. Again, I do believe that WM/AW pairings are so emasculating that they affect the minds of the Asian looking children so severely to the point of forcing us into “effeminate” roles.)

I learned early on that mentioning my Asian heritage at all was a fast track to getting sidelined, so the fact he makes a point of it means that he probably hates Asian men (like Elliot Rodger) – and nobody hates Asian men more than Hapa girls, or those who share their tastes. I.e. gay Hapa males, or even worse – Hapa males who want to differentiate themselves.

All of these people are inextricably linked.

http://abc.go.com/shows/the-bachelorette/video/most-recent/VDKA0_egvqpvr8

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