I say this because several hapas have been messaging me asking me to write more, and since I have an over active mind and the talent of being very emotive, I’ll share some more thoughts.
The recent plane crash caused by the murder / suicide of the copilot in Germany made me think about the egotism of men; I wouldn’t say it’s only a White thing, since all men are capable of immense egotism. I’m willing to venture a guess by his appearance and say that the copilot was probably spurned by women and likely single. Whether or not this has to do with his physical appearance or otherwise is up for debate, but I do notice that the men who get involved with Asian women often feel slighted by western (re: white) society.
I do notice (only by observation) that the better looking white men are pretty keenly aware of asian female “hypergamy” and “white fever” and weigh that against their options with a white woman. The ones who wind up with asian women have a tendency towards being either racist (a negative with white women), unattractive, short, or extremely conservative and antisocial. This probably leads them to feel they deserve to be either worshipped for their race or at least be reciprocated sexually for simply being white – I.e., for simply existing. How do I know this? Because at one point I doddled in white nationalism and felt, too, that I was being spurned unfairly. This never really amounted to anything and eventually I got over it, but I did realize that mentality came from my western upbringing, one which promises too much, and delivers very little in the end. It’s also a very racist culture.
Combined with the father’s bigotry (often times manifested in an animosity towards Asian men, to feel superior to whom he fucks Asian women) as well as the mother’s tolerance of this, reveals a very tragic reality to the Eurasian. Personality does not matter; kindness, does not matter; anti-racism does not matter; in fact, nothing matters. He is merely the result of cold, brutal evolution at the expense of everything else including the emotional health of the child, and for this reason the son is destroyed at birth.
If you do have a Eurasian son, please just abort him. I say that with sincerity. Of course no one will ever really care and the world will keep on spinning while people keep on smiling believing that it’s fine; it’s not, and it’s something only the Eurasian male is aware of. It sounds quite brutal, but isn’t it the reality?
I mean – we can pretend for ages that the reasons are something that they’re not, but simply observing, and even observing, for example, Chinese people, seeing how many of them do not take care of their appearance and are real quite obsessed with money at a core level, you almost begin to think that our mothers were justified; but what freedom is that? At the end of the day, are we not still Asian men? What should we take pride in – in being somehow freed from full Asiandom? To enter, by the skin of our teeth, white society that would never really accept us if we were full? To enter into a society that is brutally racist and cutthroat – or turn back to our Asian side that is just as cutthroat and over which we lord an advantage, wagered against ourselves?
Being Hapa really is tragic, in the same vein as being a mulatto must be. I guess at the end of the day this blog is less about being Eurasian, but more about the tragedy of life and my dislike of those either ignorant or privileged enough to deny it.
Sometimes I do think that the Japanese herbivore men have it right – they voluntarily deny the next generation the curse of life. If they suffer so much – why force it upon a child? If a white man suffers so much, why force it upon a mixed race child whose mother was something that, in all likelihood, had hate in her heart?