I think the single most horrifying thing about being Eurasian –
Is that I would not want to be fully Asian. As much as I was raised, by my mother, no doubt, to be extremely proud to be Chinese, and to honor the accomplishments of China, I would not trade place with a fully Chinese person.
Because I would then be at the mercy of women like her – and millions like her – who would essentially turn their back on me, and the community; even if they were “supportive” of the Chinese community their breeding with White males exclusively says more on the relative worth of community versus personal interest in better, more durable genes, if not children more fit for survival in America.
What a terrifying existential dilemma. I can only imagine what runs through the minds of children that are told, from birth, that they are better because they are whiter.
It took me twenty five years to realize that it was okay to look Asian – and even then I still am not one hundred percent sure that I would want to go all the way. And I think that my long refusal to identify as Asian partially had to do with the fact that Asian men are routinely abandoned by women, and society. As if my abandonment were not enough, I’m not sure I would have been able to weather it to the degree that I did, had I looked fully Asian.
I highly, highly, highly question why the interracial dating disparity is so large… and I would hope that most Hapas would do so as well to at least make these women reconsider what exactly it is they are doing, and what it implies (namely the defeat of the Asian male, in brute terms), and how that applies to the son. I mean, a son surely will, at one point in his life, notice that Asian women seem to overtly favor white males.
I guess, ultimately, these will be the monsters that American racism created. Not to be quaint, but we really do make our own beds as a society, don’t we?