The Truth about being a “Beautiful Half-Asian Hapa Baby”

Some random observations:

  • When you have a son, your privilege as a blue-eyed white male is thrown out the door.

Whereas, if your partner were constantly complimenting your blue eyes, your son will not be able to leverage his blue eyes in order to secure a mate. He will instead have to rely on different factors, and since the number of women, including Asian women, who openly favor Asian men, is much lower, this will be damaging to his emotional well-being. For every Asian woman who deliberately rejected Asian men, so forth will your Eurasian son be rejected. My clash with my monumental ego and narcissism, years back, where I was literally obsessed with my looks, sent me into a rage when I was rejected by a white woman for being Asian (I’ve mentioned this many times before).

  • On “beautiful Hapa babies.”

This is by and large a lie. All babies are universally cute, but this does not translate to being an attractive male. A desire for a beautiful baby is essentially on par with having a pet; hence you see many divorced Asian women (divorced largely because of their insane behavior, like my mother’s, wherein the child is part of a fantasy) using their children as status symbols. My mother constantly showed me off to her siblings and mentioned my tall nose and deep eyes whereas ostracizing my father, but again, this does not translate to necessary success in the future; it is borderline narcissism wherein the love for the child is not love per se, but love as long as [qualifications] exist.

If you do a youtube search for “half asian babies” you will find a number bragging about how their children have blue eyes; despite this being impossible, the idea that such white worship is prevalent is extremely, extremely troublesome.

My case was unusual. My mother seemed to like my brother more than me despite him being black haired, black eyed. She Tiger Mommed him more than me, but less cruelly; I began to think that it was because I was either born via C-section or because I didn’t look like her, or even some kind of resentment towards me. My memory doesn’t go back that far so I can’t figure out the reason for this yet.

On “beauty;” In fact, any person who will want to make the distinction (i.e., a person who doesn’t like Asians) will not differentiate between full Asian and half, even if you don’t look Asian. Go on any website discussing white looking Eurasians like Adam Smith or Cary Fukunaga, and the comments are there.

  • I’ve come across many Hapas who complained of feeling embarrassed while walking with their parents. I have experienced this too, but moreso, more when walking with my father (as my mother is dead).

Regardless of their intentions, (and I know my parents’ were bad), the assumptions made that my father was an Asiaphile, a loser, or couldn’t get a white woman are there. In my case, they were true, but I don’t think most people bother to differentiate when it’s so common. Obviously, there will be exceptions to this rule, particularly among less intelligent Hapas, like my brother. 

  • It’s frankly impossible for a Eurasian to not notice the interracial imbalance unless they come from entirely white states.

I think many Eurasians that you meet on the street, especially the tall, good looking ones, tend to favor White women (if they can) out of a subconscious rejection of the “white-fever” and “yellow-fever” they are associated with by extension, in any major American city. Another thing could be their rejection of their Asian side, as it is obvious to them that looking Asian is frankly a death sentence. Part of me thinks that Eurasian women do this too, mostly out of a repugnance for their own mothers… if you go read some of the comments on this blog, there are a ton of Eurasian girls complaining about emotional abuse from their mothers.

 

News Article from 200 describes a Half-Asian Son of a Korean woman as having “never accepted his Asian ancestry and wished his mother dead for having had him.”

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How about this news article from 2000?

Original here:

“The inherent evil of Woldt is not in question – his own mother is Korean and apparently Woldt never accepted his Asian ancestry and wished his mother dead for having had him.”

More here:

So… another Eurasian who snapped due to a combination of being raised under a white-worshipping Asian mother and a patronizing white father who tries to raise us as being white.

People don’t recognize that the world might see Woldt as white – but he doesn’t. And even worse is that people can smell the Asian blood on you, and will humiliate it for you. I’ve had women straight up tell me “you have an Asian body,” “I don’t date Asian men,” etc.

Explain to me, dear reader, right, now how Asian women that adamantly refuse Asian men, fail to instill pride in their own children in their Asian appearance (and even if they did attempt to, their actions still prove louder than their words) are going to raise productive citizens.

“Oh but white guys have problems too.” White guys have problems and also don’t deal with debilitating sexual stereotypes. Let’s be honest.

This site is well on its way to being the largest half-Asian website in the world, and yet nobody has attempted to shut me down at all with lucid arguments.

 

The Truth about Tiger Moms (Amy Chua), and Why Asian Women Who Marry White Men are the Most Status Driven

 

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Ever wonder why Amy Chua demonstrates next to no affection or affinity to her husband in photographs?

 

 

  • By definition most women should prefer their own men. It’s well known that white women prefer their own men.
  • Asian women that prefer white men exclusively are necessarily damaged people, as it would imply that they are superficial, status-driven, or racist enough to disqualify an entire race of men. If a woman was truly capable of love, she would not disqualify a man on his race. This doesn’t need any logical argument to prove; most white men ignore this because it feels good to be valued, period, let alone valued for ones race. 
  • White men condemn White female feminism, yet turn to Asian female feminism and careerism as a means to get laid, completely ignoring the Asian woman’s character flaws as long as it implies that he is valued. My father, for example, is very anti-feminist, but failed to ever criticize my mother for her insane careerism and obsession with money (she went to my aunt, weighing 70 pounds, wearing a winter coat on a July day, next to Central Park, saying that she planned to kill herself because my father had relinquished his job and refused a pay upgrade because he believed it to be against Christ’s teachings; or something like that).
  • If an Asian woman only likes white men, this would necessitate that the primary quality is the man’s race, and this would make her standards (especially post marriage) incredibly fickle, as she could easily trade in her man for a better white man (hence my mother’s annoyance with my father failing to live up to the expectations of the American Prince lifestyle she wanted).
  • Asian women also will marry white men for the status of having a white partner, bragging rights for a Hapa baby, for a green card, for access to a Western country, or because they simply do not want an Asian man, or as a means of rebellion, or because they suffered past abuse (my mother was beaten by her father). None of these indicate a genuine love; not a single one would imply a real love. 
  • Asian women, then, that marry white men, tend to be Tiger Moms, as the value and bragging rights of having a Hapa child, also mean that she places immense value in her child as a representation of her own personal success, and since she married a white man as a stepping stone to her own personal success, will Tiger Mom her children as a means to ensure both immediate success in the present, and success in the future. In other words, a woman who marries a white man for the “status” will probably be a Tiger Mom (not that it makes any difference from an Asian woman that marries a white man for a fetish).
  • White men are also very much aware of these imbalances and are happy to take advantage of it, telling themselves that any Hapa child they have would be “different” despite having no basis for comparison, and despite beating down thoughts in the back of their head that Asian men might possibly suffer from racism.
  • After the marriage the woman will become standoffish, bitter, and sexless, and obsessive about money (see: Amy Chua), since the white male was merely a pathway to finding acceptance and validation in the white world, and the white man’s presence merely a precipitate to her ultimate goals.
  • Despite white men adamantly disagreeing with this website, there are very few of them that would ever willingly admit that they are A) in sexless marriages, B) divorced, C) married to someone with clear character flaws, D) married to abusive Tiger Moms, E) having been cheated on, F) or otherwise in non-loving relationships (despite their mental protests). 

Of course, it never occurred to White males that a decent woman wouldn’t have thrown herself at a white man. It took me 25 years to realize this about my mother, after myself having married a woman who preferred Chinese men and was extremely, extremely normal compared to the women in my family. But hey, I could be making this all up, right?

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What a loving couple looks like… in hell.

Hapa Thought Exercise

Let’s say you did not know your mother and father.

Let’s also say, for this thought exercise, that you were fully Asian. Or as a Hapa, that you looked fully Asian.

In a time of trouble, i.e., a climate of extreme racism, violence against Asians, mass lynchings, extreme anti-Asian propaganda, yellow peril, war with China or North Korea after 2016 elections, etc.

Would your parents (as strangers) have cared about you? Would your mother (as a stranger) have sympathized with you? Would they have reached out to you as an Asian male? Would they have attempted to bolster the community?

This is actually a legitimate question we all as Hapas need to ask ourselves.

I expect most of you to answer: no

To most of the questions. Wake up call, Hapa kiddos.

You Know the Best Thing about Being A Hapa (Asian feminists please respond)

Knowing that if I looked Asian like my brother; I’d have gotten bullied worse than people thinking I’m a Russian thug.

Knowing that if I got bullied I could expect my own mother would be blowing and rewarding my own bullies while I’m putting a gun to my head. Thanks parents! What do you say to that, Asian feminists?

The more I learn about Chinese culture, the more I surround myself with everyday people who care about me, who never once abused me for not looking like them, who fed me and gave me a roof over my head, the more I realize what monsters racists and people like my own mother and women in my family are.

The more I realize that I had been free of racism my entire life – yet my very own brother was not – makes me instantly lose virtually any lingering respect not only for her – but every other woman in my family that was once dear to me. This happened literally within days of coming to this realization.

Or maybe I should just be proud to be Asian? Or which is it? Proud to not be fully Asian? Proud that my own brother faces discrimination while I coast by in life?

Proud that people whom I could otherwise look like get painted why a wide brush while people who look like me (non-Asian) get a pass from virtually all generalizations about the controlling nature of Asian men? I’m expected to sit here, knowing my 6’2″ white father is a monumental racist and conservative while I’m expected to believe and accept that’s very single asian man I’ve met, the ones who took care of me when I was deathly ill and alone in Beijing, the ones who earn four hundred dollars a month and live four to a room while I can make several times that just by virtue of showing up with my white last name?

I’m supposed to believe and accept that women in my own family adopted white last names, were married to or are married to white males, all tall, of course, and that I need to accept that this is because of some severe cultural flaw in Asian society, but only Asian men, the same men with whom I share minor superficial features?

I’m supposed to merely accept, while my adoptive family in Beijing are making dumplings right in front of me, all of then with smiles and concern for each other, who took care of me and gave me a roof over my head when there wasn’t a single person who ever gave a damn about me, when I was on the brink of suicide, and ESPECIALLY not my brother, and would definitely have given less a damn about me had I been born with oriental eyes?

As a mixed race person who looks predominantly white – I say right now that there are levels of privilege in society. White males have amazing privilege, as I have experienced and written about before. Guess who has next? It used to be white women – until they went off on their own and made enemies with the white global male powers; so now it’s Asian women, sidled up with the white male “patriarchy” as if it’s a default.

Asian women are privileged. They don’t get called gook and chink on the street. My brother did. My friends and my family did. But I never did. But my children will. From a Hapa: you’re all filthy liars. All of you. Maybe you can convince yourself you’re doing some kind of good. But your children will pay for your sins.

It’s quite simple, as I’ve reiterated over, and over, and over again: a non-white male, in western society, will be demeaned almost constantly for his race – and this includes your very own child. He will then try to either hide or take pride in his heritage – but he will find it next to impossible to take pride in his heritage when his own mother sought to demean it and destroy it by proxy of a white male. And you wonder why Hapas are so troubled?

I have yet to find even a single WORD coming from Asian women about the realities of their Eurasian sons, only until after they have children and come to terms with the realities and fruition of their terrible actions, and out of some perverse kind of guilt try to redact what they did by imposing their own views on Hapas. But nobody can be a Hapa but a Hapa – and to be a Hapa is to form your own opinions of your parents; and by going outside and viewing the reality of race relations in the West it’s virtually impossible to form a positive opinion of an Asian woman and a white male, including our own parents.

Go kiss your mothers, Eurasian dipshits


Particularly the ones who look Asian. Is it any wonder why Eurasians born from White males and Asian women dominate the charts when it comes to mental illness?

How is a Eurasian son supposed to take pride in his heritage when that same very heritage was routinely insulted and ostracized by his mother and Asian women like her in the present day?

(Oh, but not all Asian women – but enough to this is such a common trope with such a frequency that it is surprising to even ME when a British, American, Australian or Canadian-Asian woman has anything positive to say about Asian men – until her son is born). “Oh, but it’s not about the race, it’s about the culture” – which is why the white guy is almost always tall. I’m writing this as a Eurasian who looks predominantly white – and here I am, against the great liberal movement instilled on me against White Supremacy (taught to me for four years at my university), unable to take pride in my Asian heritage because I know for a FACT that it’s a dead-end to a love life (I went nearly a decade denying I was Asian).

I am not Asian, per se, but I am not white – and I take absolutely no pride in claiming either as that would merely imply that my parents, and by extent, white supremacy won. Obviously, most men “love” their mothers – their mothers love them too, since the process of childbirth forms an unconditional bond. But this love is merely the result of biological bonding and to deny the very fact that our own mothers spent decades spitting the most vile vitriol is enough to undo that bond.

It doesn’t make sense that a Eurasian child can be healthy when he is expected to be raised under the banner of Asian female submission to (and deliberate selection) of white masculinity (i.e., tall, fair skinned white men). He’s a man of color born to a woman who spread her legs for a white man. IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE AND IT WILL NEVER MAKE SENSE. The internet is filled with blogs (Grace Hwang Lynch, Deanna Fei, Dorcas Cheng-Tozun) written by Asian women who express anything from pangs of guilt to slight concerns about: A) How their sons either will be received in the white western community that Asian women spread their legs so easily for acceptance into. B) How their sons feel emotionally distant. So, what, are we supposed to go thanking our white daddy for impregnating our Asian mothers and making us whiter? Is that supposed to make us healthy?