Being Half Asian is Essentially an Impossible to Navigate Pyramid Scheme pushed by Asian women and White men

Do you want to understand Asian people? Then go right to their source: their own children, and since so many of the modern incarnations of Asian people in the west are multiracial, let me explain what we have to go through.

Literally, go seek out any mixed family and see how the mother suddenly tries to push her kids into Asian activities (I was pushed into learning Mandarin, doing Kumon, Taekwondo), see how her toddlers openly express disdain for anything Asian, look at how the mothers all seem to hyphenate their names in a last minute push to reclaim Asian identities, yet the fathers all look the same. The majority of our fathers are white.

If you don’t believe me: just leave your house and see for yourself.

The entire thing is largely an exercise in irony.

Let me explain. Do you recall the philosophical statement made on the first season of True Detective? That “time is a flat circle?” I don’t recall the actual origin of the statement but we’ll work with that.

Asian women, in the present, actively create a miserable environment for Asian men, and make it so that identifying as Asian is essentially romantic and social suicide. Literally ask any Asian woman about this and she will admit to have attempted to cause as much pain as possible to an Asian man in her youth through her words and actions.

She will claim it is about feminism, yet any deep digging and pressure will reveal something that they themselves – and only themselves – know behind closed doors – that they are simply not attracted to Asian men, they fetishize white features (tall noses, and light colored eyes) or worse, that they inherently recognize that white men provide a better chance at societal acceptance. (The last part, i.e., about social acceptance, I have noticed after moving to Asia and realizing that the majority of Asian women actually do not date white men because of their low social standing here; hence feminism has nothing to do with it, as any intelligent woman would recognize that there are good and bad within each race).

The feminism part comes as a convenient way to dispel criticism for their non-attraction to Asian men, wherein it is easier to blame Asian men for being bitter; but any group would be bitter if they were told they were essentially genetically, romantically, socially worthless.

When an Asian woman gets older and has a child (like Deanna Fei), the majority of the time the child will endure racism. She will try to teach the child to be proud of his or her heritage, all the while doing this surrounded by Asian women also married to white men.

These white men are completely unable to understand why a half Asian child would be romantically and socially spurned by men and women alike; after all, it never occurred to him that his partner was with him specifically because he was white, and even if he did, he was getting laid.

So in actuality unmarried Asian women in the present create an environment hostile to their half Asian children in the future – all the while passively attempting to claim ownership of hapas. Time is a flat circle; all events happen at once.

The irony is immense. Just incredibly, incredibly immense. 

All of my Chinese New Year events growing up were filled with white men looming over their Asian wives and girlfriends… And yet I was supposed to have developed a subconscious appreciation for my Asian side? Is this why I cut my hair short for years to avoid its black texture and color from coming out?

If anything Asian mothers have no right to tell their children that they feel guilty about us not wanting to embrace our Asian side. These mothers created the atmosphere – in their past and present – that deliberately penalized Asian blood.

What’s even worse is that being Eurasian is actually so emotionally and psychologically traumatizing for so many different reasons that even I can’t understand (being subconsciously castrated is one, wanting badly to be white but failing is another), that…

When Eurasians do act out in horrible ways, it’s not our white side that gets blamed. It’s our Asian side! Despite Asian men having almost zero bearing in our real lives; aside from my uncles who I saw once a year at Chinese New Year, I was raised entirely by my white father.

So even then, even in our darkest hour, our own collective motherhood is against us. And they know this is true, and like anyone else, they attempt to control the discussion, justify their actions while minimizing any blame and responsibility for creating an atmosphere (so, so, so many Asian women act like this) wherein their own sons are confused, don’t know why their confused – all because their mothers could not admit they were simply more attracted to white men. 

Just imagine the sense of betrayal looking Asian and seeing Asian women like your mother reject people who look like you en masse. It no longer has to do with feminism – it has to do with open 1960’s style racism and then being told by them that “we are not entitled to love, life, or happiness.” Even black, Latina, and other minority women are fully aware of this – hence the divide between Asian feminists and other feminist groups.

We don’t have any books to help us, we don’t have any outlet other than saying; oh, well, yeah, then I guess Asian men are really undesirable, so then, I’d better identify as white as I can, or spend the rest of my life lonely, and since feminists say that I am not entitled to anything – well, certainly that must be true; I am worthless.

It’s much worse than being a tragic mulatto. It’s ten times worse, and eventually the chickens will come home to roost.

For my readers: please try to understand the horror of being a half Asian born into a pairing that is deeply, deeply, unfathomably racist at its core, and yet trying to navigate this without going berserk somewhere down the line. And even if it’s not racist, it’s at best a biological paradox where Asian women despise the thought of touching an Asian male physically – and yet their own sons are half-Asian and supposed to accept this.

It’s essentially biological slavery.

It’s a scheme. A very, very vicious scheme that only the most depraved Asian women would allow to exist.

With that being said, there are plenty of aware Asian women out there who understand this basic principal. The problem is that they’re not the ones having Hapa kids by the millions.

Like My Dad, Bobby Fischer, the famous Chess Champion, Was an Anti-Semite Holocaust Denier and Married to not one, but two Asian women.

I’ve mentioned this several times on my blog. If you don’t believe me, my dad has adamantly denied the Holocaust, has made comments about Jews being the anti-Christ incarnate, loved HAM radio and conspiracy theory radio shows, etc. He also has virtually no friends, etc.

Doing research today it turned out that Bobby Fischer, probably the most famous chess champion of all time, was also married to a Philipino woman and to a Japanese woman.

Is this coincidental? Is it coincidental that the majority of the time when you find a white man with a “passion” for Asian woman, he generally has conservative viewpoints, i.e., hates Islam, the Islamic takeover of Europe, hates western women, hates feminism, blacks, “mudsharks” (i.e., women who sleep with black men), and overall tends towards the right (as broad as the term is)?

Obviously not all white men involved with Asian women are like that, but this is a nice little tidbit that I think can help explain the imbalance.

From Fischer’s Wikipedia biography:

Fischer made numerous anti-Jewish statements and professed a general hatred for Jews since at least the early 1960s.[270][501] Jan Hein Donner wrote that at the time of Bled 1961, “He idolized Hitler and read everything about him that he could lay his hands on. He also championed a brand of anti-semitism that could only be thought up by a mind completely cut off from reality”.[236] Donner took Fischer to a war museum, which “left a great impression, since [Fischer] is not an evil person, and afterwards he was more restrained in his remarks—to me, at least.”[236]

Although Fischer described his mother as Jewish in a 1962 interview,[270] he later denied his Jewish ancestry.[33] In 1984, Fischer denied being a Jew in a letter to the Encyclopaedia Judaica, insisting that they remove his name and accusing them of “fraudulently misrepresenting me to be a Jew […] to promote your religion”.[502]

From the 1980s on, Fischer’s comments about Jews were a major theme in his public and private remarks.[503] He openly denied the Holocaust, and called the United States “a farce controlled by dirty, hook-nosed, circumcised Jew bastards”. [504] Between 1999 and 2006, Fischer’s primary means of communicating with the public was radio interviews. He participated in at least 34 such broadcasts, mostly with radio stations in the Philippines, but also in Hungary, Iceland, Colombia, and Russia. In 1999, he gave a radio call-in interview to a station in Budapest, Hungary, during which he described himself as the “victim of an international Jewish conspiracy”. In another radio interview, Fischer said that it became clear to him in 1977, after reading The Secret World Government by Count Cherep-Spiridovich, that Jewish agencies were targeting him.[505] Fischer’s sudden reemergence was apparently triggered when some of his belongings, which had been stored in a Pasadena, California storage unit, were sold by the landlord who claimed it was in response to nonpayment of rent.[506]

Fischer’s library contained anti-semitic and racist literature such as Mein Kampf, The Protocols of the Elders of Zion, and The White Man’s Bible and Nature’s Eternal Religion by Ben Klassen, founder of the World Church of the Creator.[507][508] A notebook written by Fischer contains sentiments such as “8/24/99 Death to the Jews. Just kill the Motherfuckers!” and “12/13/99 It’s time to start randomly killing Jews”.[509] Despite his views, Fischer remained on good terms with Jewish chess players.[510]

A notebook written by Fischer contains sentiments such as “8/24/99 Death to the Jews. Just kill the Motherfuckers!” and “12/13/99 It’s time to start randomly killing Jews”

The Most Blatant, Obvious Fact That No One Wants to Even Come Close to Acknowledging

It’s the same empty rhetoric over and over. I’m imsane. I’m stupid. I’m insecure. I don’t get laid. I don’t lift weights. I whine too much.

So answer the fucking question:

If an Asian woman likes a white man because she feels he’s superior in ANY WAY to an Asian man, and a white man is with her knowing this, and even himself feeling superior over Asian men…

What happens to the son?

It’s such a simple question. It’s literally so fucking incredibly simple. 

No insults, just: Answer. The. Question.

Provide a suitable answer and I’ll take this site off the website, remove it from Google listings, and stop it from becoming the number one site devoted to Eurasian issues on the planet.

 

Why Politics Mean Nothing to a Eurasian

Why do Asian women love white men? Is it because Asian men are unattractive? Is it because Asian men are patriarchal assholes?

The answer is that it doesn’t matter; the outcome is the same. A Eurasian male. Having children and giving them a good life goes well beyond being able to have mutual attraction and having sex; and even if the mutual attraction is structured as such because of biological or political reasons, the fact remains that the child is still stuck with the outcome of being an Eurasian male (and more often than not, an ASIAN LOOKING MALE) born to a man and woman who cared little for the issues of Asian men. 

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The Relationship between White Men and Asian Women is based on petty lies

To this day, my father still believes that my mother loved him and was a good person; he tried to show me their love letters stuffed in plastic bins in the basement of some refurbished farm house in some shit redneck state. This was despite the fact that, during my talk last month with my aunt, who is some kind of CFA or VIP at a top investment back, admitted that they “should never have gotten married.” I sat down with an Asian woman (married to a Chinese man) who employs a thousand people, and told her to her face, that my mother and father got married for fetishes; and when prompted she *told me, her nephew* that white men who marry Asian women “do so because they want to feel powerful.”

She also told me that my mother weighed around 70(!) pounds when she appeared in mid-July, on Central Park West, to meet my other aunt, to literally complain about my father. I think the story goes like this: my father had somehow quit his job or denied some kind of benefit 1-2 years before my mother died. I don’t remember exactly (though it’s only been a month) and she was sick at the time, and she had been in such distress that she called my other aunt (also married to a white male) to meet outside Central Park, and was wearing a down winter coat in July(!). My aunt was shocked to see her. Within a year my mother was dead… the story goes was that she was crying profusely on her death bed, begging my aunt to not allow my father to take me back to his state and also begging her family to take care of us, my brother and I. How she loved us so much.

All for a white man. All for a white man. All for a white man.

And thus this is how the story goes:

My mother approached my father during one of her language classes in university. By no surprise he was 6’3″, redhaired, and I guess unknown to her, borderline Aspergers. She valued his race. Of course she did.

“There’s no way she could have know what he was like,” you’ll say. Of course not. But if she had married a Chinese man, she could have know exactly what the guy was going to be like. Or at least had a general idea.

So she married a white man on the principal that he was white. And my father fell for petty lie number one: that it was for his person, not his race.

So for white men reading this; you essentially married a woman whose only interest in you was on the basis that you are white. “No it wasn’t.” Petty lie number one. “Oh, Asian men are controlling, Asian men are misogynistic.” Yet all the white men they marry and sleep with are 6’2″+ and they can’t keep their mouths shut about how physically inferior Asian men are behind closed doors.

Then I, the son, and my brother, was born. And we were told, from birth, that it’s all about embracing Chinese / Asian culture. Petty lie number two. Culture became irrelevant as soon as the father’s physical characteristics were the number one deciding factor. How dare this woman tell me that I am Chinese when she betrayed everything Chinese in taking a white man into her bed.

We were also encouraged to study hard and make a lot of money and play violin and avoid video games and parties; but why? My father didn’t make a lot of money. In fact, it became apparent as I entered high school and college that being white was the key to having sex, having girls, having love, even. Petty lie number three.

My mother set the precedent for us; she said that being white was all that matters; even if she didn’t say it directly.

Petty lie number four: The marriage was a loving one. It never was about love. It was about genes. It was about height and fair coloration and race. It was about race entirely from the beginning. And when the fantasy started to fade, when this 40 year old woman realized she had married an illogical loser who valued his own fantasy and romance about life and God and meaning, decided to give up his job, in order to escape whatever soul-sucking thing he felt was sucking his soul, she started to go nuts. She showed up in Manhattan wearing a fur coat in July, weighing less than a child. This woman from a family of multimillionaires. She hadn’t married her prince Charming. She had married a human being, the same white human being that white women never wanted.

It was a lie from the beginning and I expect any white male in a sexless marriage to a cold, conniving Asian woman, with two slacker or “weird” Asian male sons (despite them pretending they’re well adjusted for their white daddies), to be able to relate.

“Oh, but my white husband and I are not like that. My Asian wife and I are not like that.”

And I reply with: how would you know? You’ve been lying to each other from the beginning.

Hapas, are White Males Superior?

No?

Then why did my, your, and every other Hapa you know’s mother have children with a white male (withstanding the small percentage of Hapas here with Asian fathers).

Does that make you inferior, or superior, as the son of two people who both rewarded and leveraged white supremacy, in order to have sex, procreate, and create you?

Or do you take pride in being the “best of both worlds,” when really all we are is the “best possible outcome of Asian women and white men exclusively having kids?”

What exactly made your parents different?

Am I a Fully Asian Man?

So a lot of people have contrarily been claiming that I am either Asian, or fully White (which makes even less sense).

The truth is I don’t think I could mentally handle being fully Asian. I admit that I am partially biased after moving to China in an attempt to work and start a new life, under the assumption that I would be accepted.

When I first arrived in China, I was oddly enough in a phase where I believed that I was white – I thought literally by some divine miracle that I had managed to be totally white despite having an Asian mother. (I mean that I really believed this. I thought God had somehow “chosen” me; i.e., mental illness).

It was then later that I was constantly called “laowai”, and viewed as being a foreigner that I became self conscious; after that, I became more and more aware of the fact that as I got older, I looked more and more Asian, and when I photographed pictures, I looked Asian. When I gelled my hair – people would mistake me for fully Chinese, or at least “you look like a Chinese” (in broken English).

It then dawned on me why for so long I had attempted to hide my heritage and if indeed I was privileged – but yet not privileged as the blue eyed / blond haired men that are fabled to run around Asia getting thousands of lays.

It then dawned on me that the combination of all of these factors found their root in having a mother who was just like the Asian women I saw around me who chased foreigners; my insecurity and flirtation with white supremacy all stemmed from a deep seated self hatred and from the lack of having parents who were able to instill proper self esteem in me, and even if they had the subconscious micro aggressions that I as a Hapa receive from White males and Asian women around me are a constant reminded of exactly who I am, and who I am not.

Frankly it DOES NOT MAKE SENSE that a Hapa child can have healthy development since these relationships are so common and often times so vile; and I challenge anyone to really answer the question why these relationships are so common and how the children born from them are able to be raised by two people so diametrically opposed to their own self interests.

On The Reality of Being Mixed Race

Being mixed race actually sucks a huge amount, and I believe this relates back to the primitive urges and desires and psyche that exists in every last human being, regardless if we admit this or not. But more importantly, in the real world, being mixed is simply the result of two young people idealizing the other’s culture and appearance, and having kids, who are then excluded from economic, social and romantic opportunities that both parents found easily because of their privilege (White men and Asian women are extremely privileged in society).

I suggest this be read by both whites, Asians, and mixed race people. I will try to keep this objective.

I am quite resentful about certain things and while it is normal for people to be resentful I do imagine that life can be simplified when we maintain the status quo as defined by nature; despite it being good for ones ego to be validated by another race (of men or women) the effects on the child are well documented, yet completely ignored.

Most people really do believe that being a Hapa is some kind of blessing – but the people that say this are people who are not mixed, or people who went through periods of extreme confusion and stress to only come out of it with a renewed mentality.

In my case, I went through a period of having no stress (I was crazy, but didn’t pinpoint it to my race) – to arriving at the conclusion that being mixed absolutely sucks.

The myth of the “beautiful Hapa” was only engineered as a justification for people with trans-racial lust and fetishization. Note that the claim that all Hapas are beautiful and intelligent is extremely racist since it implies that they are better because they have white blood.

This blog has been up for quite a while and I don’t think I’ve ever received a proper response to the questions posed – namely how a male child is supposed to function when born under the conditions of power and imbalance between the races that favor the white male and disfavor the Asian male;

The only response I did receive was one that said that I should use my “white blood” to my advantage; ironically in doing so I could probably achieve more in life, but it would be a betrayal of myself, and the extreme nihilism of doing this won’t really ever make me able to get over my extreme distaste for my mother (long, long before I realized who she really was I had nightmares about her maybe two-three times a week for 10 years, and I was told by an old classmate that I was laughing at her funeral).

Some of the things I feel resentful about, as a WM/AW Hapa.

  • I feel resentful that I am considered “better” because of my white blood; I would rather face the full brunt of racism than have to live with the knowledge of being superior because of my whiteness.
  • I actually was not fully taught to deal with racism, it was only after entering my 20’s when my appearance became more Asian looking that I was faced with racism and unable to cope with it in a rational way.
  • I feel resentful that I am treated differently than how I would be treated were I fully Asian. I would prefer to be aware of people’s true feelings rather than be treated accordingly with my white features.
  • I feel resentful that I was lied to about success, when Asian women like my mother gladly sleep with losers like my father provided they are white.
  • I feel resentful, now having been to China, that I am excluded from a burgeoning economy and a culture of amazing advancement, simply because my mother had a fetish.
  • I feel resentful that people are naturally clannish;
  • In this regard I feel resentful that the culture my mother had the audacity to raise me in (Chinese), excludes me from employment, from social life, and from true inclusion, despite me considering myself culturally Chinese.
  • I feel resentful that my mother valued whiteness, which implies I have to betray half of myself to meet the acceptable standards of my own mother.
  • I feel resentful in being taught to be proud to be Chinese, yet only under the conditions that I had a white father.
  • I feel resentful that the women that I feel I have a natural bond with prefer white males (most men subconsciously prefer women who resemble their mothers); including my own parents.

You Know the Best Thing about Being A Hapa (Asian feminists please respond)

Knowing that if I looked Asian like my brother; I’d have gotten bullied worse than people thinking I’m a Russian thug.

Knowing that if I got bullied I could expect my own mother would be blowing and rewarding my own bullies while I’m putting a gun to my head. Thanks parents! What do you say to that, Asian feminists?

The more I learn about Chinese culture, the more I surround myself with everyday people who care about me, who never once abused me for not looking like them, who fed me and gave me a roof over my head, the more I realize what monsters racists and people like my own mother and women in my family are.

The more I realize that I had been free of racism my entire life – yet my very own brother was not – makes me instantly lose virtually any lingering respect not only for her – but every other woman in my family that was once dear to me. This happened literally within days of coming to this realization.

Or maybe I should just be proud to be Asian? Or which is it? Proud to not be fully Asian? Proud that my own brother faces discrimination while I coast by in life?

Proud that people whom I could otherwise look like get painted why a wide brush while people who look like me (non-Asian) get a pass from virtually all generalizations about the controlling nature of Asian men? I’m expected to sit here, knowing my 6’2″ white father is a monumental racist and conservative while I’m expected to believe and accept that’s very single asian man I’ve met, the ones who took care of me when I was deathly ill and alone in Beijing, the ones who earn four hundred dollars a month and live four to a room while I can make several times that just by virtue of showing up with my white last name?

I’m supposed to believe and accept that women in my own family adopted white last names, were married to or are married to white males, all tall, of course, and that I need to accept that this is because of some severe cultural flaw in Asian society, but only Asian men, the same men with whom I share minor superficial features?

I’m supposed to merely accept, while my adoptive family in Beijing are making dumplings right in front of me, all of then with smiles and concern for each other, who took care of me and gave me a roof over my head when there wasn’t a single person who ever gave a damn about me, when I was on the brink of suicide, and ESPECIALLY not my brother, and would definitely have given less a damn about me had I been born with oriental eyes?

As a mixed race person who looks predominantly white – I say right now that there are levels of privilege in society. White males have amazing privilege, as I have experienced and written about before. Guess who has next? It used to be white women – until they went off on their own and made enemies with the white global male powers; so now it’s Asian women, sidled up with the white male “patriarchy” as if it’s a default.

Asian women are privileged. They don’t get called gook and chink on the street. My brother did. My friends and my family did. But I never did. But my children will. From a Hapa: you’re all filthy liars. All of you. Maybe you can convince yourself you’re doing some kind of good. But your children will pay for your sins.

It’s quite simple, as I’ve reiterated over, and over, and over again: a non-white male, in western society, will be demeaned almost constantly for his race – and this includes your very own child. He will then try to either hide or take pride in his heritage – but he will find it next to impossible to take pride in his heritage when his own mother sought to demean it and destroy it by proxy of a white male. And you wonder why Hapas are so troubled?

I have yet to find even a single WORD coming from Asian women about the realities of their Eurasian sons, only until after they have children and come to terms with the realities and fruition of their terrible actions, and out of some perverse kind of guilt try to redact what they did by imposing their own views on Hapas. But nobody can be a Hapa but a Hapa – and to be a Hapa is to form your own opinions of your parents; and by going outside and viewing the reality of race relations in the West it’s virtually impossible to form a positive opinion of an Asian woman and a white male, including our own parents.

Question for the Reader: How can A Eurasian Male Ever Be Mentally Sound?

For every single instance that a white man laughs and humiliates an Asian man – a Eurasian man will hear it.

For every single instance that an Asian woman says horrible things about Asian men – a Eurasian man will hear it.

Ultimately these pairings will have children. Given the proliferation of these racist couplings, even against the number of couples that aren’t racist – it’s not even worth the benefit of the doubt to look on my parents fondly anymore.

I’d like someone out there to give me a genuinely reasonable and logically sound argument as to how and why a Eurasian son is supposed to develop healthy self esteem against the backdrop of extreme racism and the Asian women (and possibly his own mother) that support it. In all likelihood there is a 90% chance that the woman with white men were the exact same women who were extremely cruel, racist, and hostile to Asian men. What exactly is the Eurasian son supposed to be happy about? That his own mother literally jumped through hoops to be integrated into white society – to ignore virtually everything Asian about herself and the people around her – to treat Asian men like absolute shit, and to spit on her own culture? Just go outside – go outside in any major Western country and look at how Asian women act – THESE ARE YOUR FUTURE MOTHERS – THESE WERE OUR MOTHERS.

There are numerous cases of Asian women leaping the cause of Asian issues – but only after their sons are born. (Re: Deanna Fei).

If, by some off chance, there were a God and a devil, and by some off chance, I was whisked back in time to a point that I heard my mother say some awful things about Asian men (which she did) – and either God or the devil asked me if she deserved to burn for an eternity in hell – I would say yes.