If Asian women are world-famous for having "white fever" and hating Asian men, what happens when they have a son who looks Asian? What happens when Asian women say "no Asian men," and Half Asian sons hear the same? I happen. This is the blog of a Dartmouth educated Eurasian son of a racist, Nazi-sympathizing, Holocaust denying, homophobic conservative, underemployed, conspiracy theorist white man and a Hong Kong woman who had "white fever," documenting the immense damage and abuse done over 20 years of living under one of the most hateful, racist pairings on Earth. Former Neo-Nazi, former extreme racist, and yes, half Asian.
Any Asian woman reading this will know this is true. Some, who like Asian men, will read this and agree. Some, who like white men, will read this and get angry, but they know it’s true. For some reason, black women agree almost 100% of the time.
Asian women love an image.
My mother is Chinese and my father tall, blue eyed, bearded, white, with a strong jaw, a large physique, hairy arms.
But they didn’t love each other, and they never did; all they did was fight; all she did was nag him; insult him, degrade him, over, and over, and over. She used him to make herself feel better compared to her Asian peers and siblings. To feel like she was just as good as those blonde girls she saw in catalogues. White guys will deny this till the end of time but they don’t understand Asian culture. How cutthroat it is to one up your sisters, your peers, your friends. If you get a white husband you can do that. Better yet a tall, light haired husband.
My parents had no friends; none of my mothers’ sisters have friends because they are extremely bitter, nagging, abusive people who constantly hit, slap, punch and insult their white husbands – every one of whom would be considered a less attractive, meek, white man, definitely the type who is unable to get white women.
I am a Eurasian son of a tall white guy and a cutthroat, soulless Asian woman so I have no reason to lie other than to voice my outright disgust for some Asian women and white men, and my embarrassment belonging to this demographic.
I don’t like Asian women. I in fact, hate how they openly support white supremacy and support white men who use them as a means to reaffirm white superiority – while laughing at Asian looking Hapa men on the street.
Asian women see that they have high value in the eyes of people like my father. All they have to do is play a game, market themselves as being traditional, subservient and get their “white lover.”
Conservative white men who are “sick” of the “liberated” behavior of white women. “Liberated” behavior pretty much just means: white women won’t be with me because white women have too high standards. They don’t like my meek behavior.
Asian women have high standards too.
But to them, a white guy is just a way to circumvent their search for a high standards Asian guy, and “white men” are just a step up, because they’re white. They have blonde hair. This is better than any Asian guy.
Asian women feel better about this. They feel like they’ve “made it.”
But they don’t love the man. They present an image of their marriage to the outside world but inside their homes they nag the shit out of the guy, they bully him, they pressure him to put on a show for their friends. Asian women are bottom of the barrel, mass-produced, white-worshipping trash and yet they expect their own children not to notice.
Look at the photo of my parents. My dad staring blankly at the table while the sisters chatted away. He was an accessory, a means to an end, that’s all. Why is it when you see Chinese women married to white guys, the child is shown off like a handbag – the husband nowhere to be seen? Why is it when you see these couples in public, between the bouts of PDA that makes everyone uncomfortable, they seem miserable?
They will have sex with him a few times but only as long as he keeps up the image.
Look at how many Asian women love taking trips to London and Paris, taking pictures of the buildings. This is just an image. Nothing else. The white man makes them feel like they’re just as good as the Parisian buildings, the Parisian street scenes they’ve seen in movies.
Years ago my mother took a trip to Paris, and she brought along her sister. Her sister, also, was conveniently married to a white man, and a tall one (divorced now). My dad stayed back in the office.
Their third sister was not married to a white guy. She is now a VP at a very large, very powerful investment bank and owns some of the top tier property in New York. Her husband is Chinese. She’s a devout Christian as well and arguably the prettiest in the family.
My mother? She died, she essentially willed herself to death, years after becoming so irate at my father for failing to match up with the “American dream.” He made only $40,000 a year. He was going bald. He couldn’t afford to take her on trips to Paris anymore. He even refused to live in Manhattan for fear of Jews and blacks, the place my mother loved.
When my dad went to go visit his family in his country bumpkin small town, my mother would scream about how she hated it, how she hated that small little town, where there were no street lights. She would beg to go back to Manhattan.
It wasn’t love. She only “stuck” with him as long as he provided an image. After all – she wanted a white man, so any white man could have done.
I’m surprised she didn’t cheat, to get what she wanted. And at the very end, right before she died, she hated him so much for not providing her the life she thought she could get with a 6’2″ or 6’3″ white guy, like she saw in the movies. Like many insane Asian women, she threatened to kill herself in front of me, and my brother; by holding a butcher’s knife to her arm. She would drive our car up to 100 mph on the highway and threaten to crash. She would throw knives at the wall and whisper in my ear before bed about how worthless my father was.
My wife does not like white men. She is Asian. The reason for this is as follows: she has told me that she wants “security.” She wants a quiet life where she can just raise her babies and enjoy a quiet existence. Very different from those women who dream of living abroad and mingling with white people to feel as if they’re better than their peers.
And now, as their son, I’m perpetually stuck in between. Being proud to be Asian is just ridiculous at this point. To this date, I still remember the horror of feeling so completely alone around white people, seeing Asian woman after Asian woman throwing herself at white guys. I had to actually go off to an Asian country to die, due to my self-hatred; a self-hatred instilled in me by the people around me, in my own family.
And now and then when I feel “proud” to be Asian I just think back to that moment that I realized that I was completely abandoned by the same people who are creating people just like me. Any pride just slips away. I was robbed of a life because my mother had a fetish – that she had to marry a white man, raise me in a racist country; a white man, just because he was white, and turned out to be (since most white men prefer white women) a loser, and left my brother and I with nothing; no bed to sleep on, no roof over our heads, a father who didn’t work, and Asian looks to be humiliated and rejected over, and over, and over.
Now imagine having your own mother being one of those women who casually gave into white men who humiliated men who look like you.
White men and Asian women will see you on the street and just assume you are another Asian male – and they will look at you with disgust (I get this all the time). Asian women will often do the “scowl” face at me while with their white partners – proving that white men / Asian women couples are about seething hatred, not love. The fact that my parents’ marriage was so violent confirms that there was no love there.
These are the same people who go onto raise us. Hateful, bitter, racist white men – since white men love humiliating Asian men in order to increase their access to Asian women. Literally – the entire premise of WM/AW is that Asian men are not men – and we, their sons, look totally Asian.
For this reason half Asian men tend to just wind up being even bigger failures than full Asian males. For this reason despite everything white men / Asian women can’t name any grandly successful biracial Asian men who look Asian.
“Dad, I get called a chink at school.” Oh, son, I don’t know what to do about that.
“Mom, a girl told me she doesn’t like Asian guys.” Oh, son, neither do I.
Now you wonder why Half Asians have rates of criminality that almost rival and even surpass rates of black kids from the ghetto?
Asian feminists (like Celeste Ng and Deanna Fei) love white men because of their supposed progressive qualities.
It seems as if anti-progressive white men seem to love Asian women even more for their anti-progressive qualities.
Ultimately the two groups look exactly the same, and to us, their children, there really doesn’t seem to be any difference worth mentioning. I find it insanely ironic that Asian women seem to champion left-wing causes and leap into the arms of white males while white males like my father sought out Asian women precisely because they were not as left-wing.
One Nation is an extreme far right, nationalistic, closed borders Australian political party, by the way. Like my dad, who is an extreme rightist, he married an Asian woman simply because she provided the white skin, the values and “family oriented” behavior that he believed white women lost. People also seem to forget that Asian women happily take up the mantle of extreme right wing politics.
Anti-black, anti-gay, anti-liberal and generally pro-white. Asian culture in itself is almost inherently pro white in its beauty standards, its culture of emulating whiteness and hyping up Europeans.
White men and Asian women aren’t friends to other minorities, no way, no how.
It’s not a coincidence that the White man and Asian woman pairing is the most common interracial pairing in the world – and might eventually outnumber White man / White woman couples.
It’s no coincidence that I am one of millions upon millions upon millions of Eurasians with white fathers and none from the other way around.
The reason for this?
It coincides with the rise of feminism, and the rise of higher standards among White women, whereas now – average white men like my father see and saw Asian women as being a proper substitute for white women. They get the “white skin,” and the sex and affection that white women don’t want to give average white men.
Asian women, to my father, were seen as being filial, family oriented, and traditional, and less promiscuous. My father is socially conservative, has nothing but vicious shit to say about current modern Western civilization, how the west has fallen.
In fact, it might not even seem this way to the white men, but as they are exposed to more and more Asian women, they just find Asian women easier to obtain than white women – for whatever goddamn reason. And, well, Asian women are the closet thing, “plus they don’t have the attitude.”
Also because of my father’s fear of black men and his countless comments about them, Asian women are well known for avoiding black men.
So essentially the Asian woman is “The White Man From the 1950’s” wet dream – literally.
I recall my grandmother said of my father: “your father doesn’t realize that the 50’s are never coming back.”
A good example of my father’s behavior: refusing to watch movies made after the 40’s, refusing to see any movie that features a single curse in it, refusing to read any and all books written after 1850 or so (the Flappers were too much for him, I guess), believing the Jews run Hollywood, etc., etc.
Now, for the Asian woman, in finding a white man she finds herself the ability to integrate into her new home – a land she finds superior to her old one. After all, Europe, in the Asian woman’s mind, is exactly what she sees in movies, on TV, and the European man is an image she can latch onto.
Rather than settling for an average Asian man, she can settle for an average white man, milk him for money, and enjoy a white lifestyle. She gets to say she has a white husband, and Hapa kids, but don’t get it twisted: she doesn’t love her husband, never loved him, and never will love him. If any white guy reads this just ask her if she would love you if you were Asian. Is that true love? Ich don’t think so.
(Some Asian women, for whatever reason, like my mother, are almost completely soulless. These white guys don’t seem to realize that if a woman is dating outside of her race exclusively she’s probably mentally deranged or completely amoral.)
A “white lifestyle” is essentially identical to the one that used to be occupied by the white soccer mom, who for some reason, in the minds of white men like my father (i.e., most white men), became unattainable or unmanageable back then.
Essentially the Asian woman gets to pair off with the white man – and they both get something out of it. The white man gets his “traditional” Asian wife (which essentially means less promiscuous, even though knowing my Asian American cousins this is far from the truth, but with my mother, she certainly was less promiscuous and didn’t have sex with my father at all).
The Asian woman gets her “white dream life”, whiter children, her fantasy of being white and supplanting the white woman at the white man’s side. It’s not about love at all. It’s about an image: the New American Gothic. They try to give off a vibe of being happy but they’re not. After marriage my mother just completely berated my father for failing to match up with what she expected – a European Prince.
These people are NOT – and I repeat – NOT FRIENDS to other minorities. They have nothing in common with other minorities.
WM/AW is pushed as progressive. IT IS NOT. My mother and father would fill my head with stories about black people saying that I should avoid them based on what kind of clothing they were wearing because this meant that… wait for it…. they were diseased.
Essentially WM/AW is the textbook 1950’s picket house fence marriage all over again.
Never, ever, ever, rely on a Hapa son of a White man and an Asian woman to be socially responsible, ever. As I said, I tried my damndest to be as white as possible when I was younger. I even considered dyeing my hair, I posted on extremely racist white websites, I made a black girl cry by dropping the word “nigga” to one of my white friends… but I’ll get into this later.
I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man – a literal brown haired, hazel eyed dream Hapa boy – born to a mentally ill, violent, Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged, meek, rapidly balding, hyper-racist, hyper-conservative conspiracy theorist male who was an “Asiaphile” who wanted a “traditional, chaste Asian wife who wouldn’t sleep with black men” – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism (ironically from Asian women in my own family and white “friends” who actually liked Asian women because they were easy) and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world and being raised to be superior, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, deeply mentally disturbed, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and to this day still unable to undo the damage that the Eurasian myths and family’s racism did to me, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, are gay, permavirgins, or leverage their half-whiteness to Asian women, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.
If you don’t think this website is valid – go to Reddit.com/r/hapas, which received 13.5 million views in 2 years, and 2 million views in the last two months. Also – find half Asians with Asian fathers and compare their behavior to those with Asian mothers.
There are very specific issues with being the children of anti-feminist, racist, unattractive white men, and self hating Asian women who try as hard as they can to integrate and create white children. None of these apply to the children of Asian fathers. Almost every single part-Asian that people use to justify the superiority of Half Asians involves a Half Asian with an Asian father or grandfather (or both): Keanu Reeves, Dean Cain, Brandon Lee, and his father Bruce Lee. The reason why the sons and daughters of Asian men and white women fare better is simply because they are raised to not view whiteness as a superior entity; which both of my parents did, both of them being white supremacists.
Asian women specifically hate Asian men – and hope to create Eurasian children in order to raise their status; White men use Asian women as a means to get laid, provided that they are unable to do so with non-Asian women, whereby meaning that Eurasian childrens’ only value is to look as un-Asian as possible, meaning that Eurasian children are highly prone to mental illness, extremely racist parents, and broken homes.
Asian women are the ONLY race that explicitly goes out of their way to attack men of Asian appearance in an attempt to integrate and raise their own value. I do NOT like Asian women, firstly because they are physically unattractive, and also because their behavior is off-putting, controlling, hateful, calculating, and rude, as many others have noticed about them; they seem to pick lower status, unattractive white, and only white men, while Asian and Eurasian men will marry anyone, while Asian women only marry white males. Asian women will actually go out of their way to attack Eurasian men, as well, in a desperate attempt to bring Asian looking men down with them, and lower status, unattractive white men will use this as a ways to validate their whiteness – at the expense of anyone of Asian appearance, including Half Asian men. Asian women will attempt to control their Asian looking sons’ dating choices – pushing them towards Asian women; while white men who marry Asian women will act upon their insecurity and lack of control of their marriage, and lash out at Asian men, black men, and white women. Asian women are so unattractive that they pursue bottom of the barrel men of all races, putting Half Asian children in danger.
Even Kip Fulbeck, king of all Hapas, admitted that the Hapa male process of self-hatred is such a problem, that it should be a cause for concern.
Imagine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?
In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall (6’3″, skinny), red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white; their entire marriage was violent, loveless (father sleeping on the floor for fifteen years), and calculating.
This man (a semi-famous paleoconservative Homophobic activist on par with the Westboro Baptist Church) was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white or non-Asian woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, very racist against blacks, Hispanics and Muslims, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely over the top homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely distasteful of feminism, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture). His interest in Asian culture was largely dictated by his personality – in which he idealized Asian cultures as being more honorable and traditional, and mistook “white worship” (a cultural tick in which Asian women see themselves as less beautiful than white women and marry white men for status and integration), for “traditionalism” and “submissiveness.”
I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including five out of six of them in my own family, all of them, including my own parents divorced or separated – my mother being dead) throw themselves at white men (the majority of whom are racists, Republicans, or short and or meek), and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade.
My parents’ relationship, as was the case in every single one of my female relatives, was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself with a butcher knife in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.
The behavior of Asian women, in particular, is like nothing else on earth, to the point that you can see the majority of all stories about abusive parents on Reddit’s AsianParentStories sub – complain about the mothers, including the second generation Asian mothers – like Amy Chua – who metamorphosize into the Tiger Mothers that they hate, despite claiming to hate Asian men. Celeste Ng, a New York Times best-selling author, personally attacked me, after I pointed out that her book “Everything I Never Told You” was based on the broken WMAF families in her friends’ circle, yet she had written it about a family involving an Asian father. Asian women have proven themselves to be extremely hostile against non-Asian women, something out of their deep self-loathing and cultural proclivity towards integration and status, wherein love is secondary if not nonexistent in favor of maintaining status, face, and power over women who they view, deep down, as more beautiful than them. They will even go so far as to attack Asian male / non-Asian female couples, and force their Eurasian children (like me) to marry Asian, in an attempt to maintain an image of false superiority over non-Asian women; (e.g., that Asian women are the most beautiful, when they are not, and heavily rely on yellow fever and male desperation for their feeling of integration and desirability).
When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian (scowling at me on the street, or smirking), and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. Several of my “friends,” who were engineers and nerdy, actually would take every opportunity to remind me of my Asianness, while sleeping with Asian women, as Asian women were all they could get. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal. My insanity grew more and more pervasive as I fantasized about cutting out my eyes to make them deeper, refused to look in the mirror for five years,
Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women in my Asian family,hate my Asian side,so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissectingWhite male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.
I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood.
I highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went. Hapa males in particular need special consideration due to the fact that we have zero privilege, and yet are raised by two people who want privilege without having to do any of the work.
I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.
I literally challenge anyone to tell me how people like this have not come to pose a threat to the entire livelihood of half Asian children worldwide – how, with this pairing producing a massively growing demographic, these children will come to any sort of pride in their appearance and heritage.
Let me be very clear on this:
Half Asians are unique in this regard. Our parents do not exist in spite of racism.
Even white racists might thing this is funny, but there are actual children being born from these pairings, children that will face monumental hurdles in escaping the Freudian psycho-sexual burdens hoisted onto them – and some of whom will actually pose a physical threat to others around them. There is nothing more compelling than the desire to want to escape ones own body, and this detachment, and overwhelming nihilism can be extremely dangerous.
And yet there are millions of these kids – many of them Asian in appearance (and in the real world people do not bother to distinguish between half and full), and my detractors have the nerve to criticize me for merely pointing this out?
How will these children be able to differentiate between “good” WM/AW couples and bad WM/AW couples? Eventually, the lines are extremely blurred. Not only will any Asian looking Eurasian be rejected by both Asian and white women alike (sensibly, as most Asian women prefer white men, particularly in Western countries), but he will be only a few clicks away from extreme racism displayed by white men interested in Asian women, Asian women interested in white men, and have this reaffirmed over, and over, and over, and over, and over, in real life, merely walking down the street.
The above Asian woman is willing to degrade and allow herself and her race to be degraded only for a few minutes – nay, a lifetime – of acceptance from a white man – any white man, even the most racist, vile white man on the planet. Yet will her children not be Asians? Will her children not recognize that their own mother was a literal slave to a racist?
I thank God every day that my father was an Asiaphile – had respect for Asian culture – but in what world could a man like this, and a woman who enables his behavior, ever be a suitable mother and father to a half Asian child?
In what world would this child grow up and recognize that identifying as Asian was a good thing? In what world would this child be proud to be product of such a sick dynamic, with white dominating Asian? And in what world would a male child settle comfortably into a healthy identity, and look in the mirror at his Asian looks and find solace in them?
This is exactly the reason why, if you meet many Eurasians, they harbor depression, image issues, are openly disdainful of their Asian side – and if you don’t believe me, ask any Eurasian, tell him he looks full Asian, or even that he looks Asian – and WATCH HIS REACTION.
Please do not blame future criminal behavior by Asian looking Hapas on Asians; please, please recognize the sociological forces going into their creation. Please, please recognize the trauma that goes into our birth; please stop treating WM/AW couples with kids’ gloves and confront their racist attitudes before more people get hurt.
This goes well beyond any tragic mulatto trope. We are bordering on the creation of permanently damaged “creatures” that should never have been born.
Story time. Anyone here who doesn’t know who I am… I’m a Eurasian with a Chinese mother and an American father, Ivy League educated, who flew to China with the intent to just live out the rest of my life in relative peace, and then die alone, via suicide or just naturally. If it wasn’t here, it would’ve been South America, Africa, or Central Asia. I pulled a Dave Chappelle essentially.
Let me preface that my Chinese family has many ultra sweet Chinese women that would never hurt a fly. I’m not being a misogynist or MRA or any bullshit slogans… Please. Other women know what other women are capable of. Even my wife and her mom are aware of this. Women are, after all, more intelligent than men.
But there are also a few to the point of being 50/50. And by bad people I mean the worst of the worst. This is for white guys who think Asian women are better partners than white women. And then I look at my mother and the others in her family I realize that again it’s almost a 50/50 split between sadists and normal, level headed women.
Anyways none of the women in my new Chinese (I.e., my wife’s) family married foreigners. The reason for this is probably because of poor language skills.
We went to stay at my wife’s uncles place for the New Year. He’s a pretty gruff guy, from the northeast, but he’s usually very friendly and accommodating. He has some five or six brothers and sisters, and there were about fifteen-twenty people at his house. He has a mansion in a gated community on the edge of Beijing. They’re shittily built McMansions popular with foreigners. Big houses but shit compared to the quality of stuff you’d find in the downtown area.
About five o’clock in the morning two nights ago, two hours after I got hammered I went downstairs to sleep in the basement. And then I heard this uncle yelling. It was some of the craziest, most furious yelling I’ve ever heard. Like that scene in Django Unchained where he cut his hand on a glass while doing it. He was screaming in front of his entire family “fuck your mother’s cunt,” and pretty much every other curse word.
Neither my wife or I had ever seen anyone so angry. We discussed this last night and came to the realization that his family had problems. He never finished high school but got rich off of owning several successful pharmacies. He is also divorced and has two young adult children, a boy and a girl, and an infant daughter from his new wife.
My wife told me his story. Apparently his daughter, who is about 20 or 21, set him off. We said, oh, there’s nothing she could’ve done to set a man off like that. My wife said to me, you can’t judge her, you don’t know what she’s been through. I said has she watched her mother die? And she said no. And I said; then she has no basis for comparison.
But, this girl is grade A nuts. She spent four years, having come back from the US just two months ago, in California, on a mission to earn a degree. She failed out twice and came back empty handed. She also managed to spend 2 Million RMB in a two year period. This is approximately 320,000 dollars. To ensure more money she threatened her dad that she would prostitute herself in the US for income. And my wife suggested it seemed as if she already had an abortion based on her appearance (don’t ask me but apparently women have a sixth sense on this stuff).
My wife said that her uncle must have blown up at the fact that his daughter hates his new wife. His new wife and him have a child together; like him, she never finished high school. Pretty, but uneducated. Chews with her mouth open. I quite like her though. The daughter hates this woman and apparently was furious because her father had promised to never have a child again. But obviously it would have happened because he’s rich and there’s little you can do to avoid this when you’re rich.
Apparently (we found out last night from my mom in law) the daughter tried to smother the baby with a pillow. The uncle warned his new wife to never allow his own flesh and blood daughter around his infant child.
At this point I should mention that this daughter spent almost all night trying to ply me for where she could find a foreign boyfriend, and show off her god awful English skills to me.
The story gets juicier when we find out about her mother (the ex-wife of rich uncle). This woman was from southern China. Before she got married she had a child with another boy. When she was sixteen. She had married the poor sodwhile she was still married. She kept this fact a secret from her own husband for sixteen years. Sixteen years.
When he found out he wanted to kill her. Apparently towards the end of the marriage they were using such colorful language as “I want to put you in a meat grinder,” which is all familiar to my own parents.
Anyways; what struck out to me was last night out of the blue, my wife suggested that her cousin had inherited the insane gene from her mother. That she was deeply mentally ill to the point of attempting to murder a sleeping infant. But more so to the point that my wife said:
“They’re the kind of women that says they’re willing and ready to do anything to succeed. She inherited the DNA from her crazy mom.”
And there this girl was asking me about foreign men. And there was this behavior manifested time and time again in the women in my own family, including my own mother, including the flirtation with filicide, where she would drive me and my brother at 90 mph on the highway and threaten to crash.
If you really lack any kind of basic human empathy then you will enter relationships for the sake of your own gain, your own manipulative purposes, for race…. This seems now to me fully engrained in Chinese and maybe even Asian culture. No white guy would ever be able to fathom this because as men our egos are such that we ignore obvious signs, even when dealing with white women, that we are being manipulated. Again, not misogynist; I’m just pointing out that women are often a thousand miles ahead of men in terms of understanding how to play the game.
These types of women do not fucking care about their children. They do not care about anything but themselves. The angst of a few Hapas is nothing on their radar. They simply do not care. I guarantee you behind every Asian woman complaining about shitty upbringing has a battered father who just exploded one day thanks to abuse from his mom. Even the so called white women that white guys hate, like bottom of the barrel “mudsharks” like Stanley Ann Dunham that they can’t shut the fuck up about, care a thousand times more for the wellbeing of her children.
There are no white men in my story, yet there would be, were this America. This is merely an observation on the behavior that seems commonplace.
I might add that there is another Chinese woman married to my wife’s eldest male cousin. He’s a typical Chinese guy. Very beta, very hard working. His wife, when pregnant, starved herself to prevent her little girl from growing big. His wife also missed nearly every event together. The first New Years spent together she threatened him with divorce in front of the entire family; he then spent the evening weeping like a child in his room. Last night she didn’t show up. Not only that but it was her husband’s birthday. She had in the past left the house and disappeared for a week at a time with no word of where she went.
The point of this story is that sexpats swear up and down western women are trash. Yet fail to realize that the trash of the east usually has its eyes on a white male. And now we have ten million hapas being raised by sociopaths and their narciccistic white husbands.
If anything I’ll encourage my son to marry black, Latina or white over Asian. There’s something deeply, deeply wrong with the culture that is irreparable.
And before we hear another happy go lucky hapa come in here talking about it’s not a big deal. If you look white shut the fuck up. Apparently I look white to these people and I recognize how privileged I am. I could turn my back on it all if I wanted.
After the first dozen times being called foreigner by these people the thought occurred to me to just walk away. But I wonder how many depraved sexpats take the white worship as a compliment. If anything it’s the gravest insult.
I just remembered that this cousin also asked me (she works at a very expensive car dealership) if I wanted to be a model for her company in some regards. She also said that I’m 2 inches too short but I would do facially.
I told her and her dad to their face that if they wanted a foreigner to show off, to go find a 100% white male to do the job because I’m just a mix. Not the real thing.
My blog originated in 2014. In 2009 I was at the peak of my “crazy” behavior (i.e. losing 60 pounds in 3 months, having extreme body image issues as a man, and overall attempting to be white).
In 2009, people were already noticing this. If any of the readers here actually went out and met some Hapas, they would start noticing certain patterns.
Largely – it’s a difficult proposition to navigate the world as a half-Asian child, born under the conditions that white fathers were better than Asians. Look at it from this perspective.
Your half Asian son sees white women laughing at Asian men – then sees Asian women laughing at Asian men – and then sees his own mother married to a white man, and all her friends married to white men.
If my readers think that this line of thought is largely limited to me, or this blog, you’re sorely mistaken.
Any white fathers / Asian mothers who believed that they were truly innocent would be attempting to nip this in the bud now, rather than wait. But in actuality, this is the truth:
These people actually do believe that white men are superior – yet raise half Asian children. The probability of us being resentful of our parents, angry, mentally unbalanced or manic depressive is very, very high.
Miyoko Watai holds Bobby Fischer’s newly issued Iceland passport in Tokyo in this March 8, 2005 file photo. An Icelandic court said on Thursday Watai is the widow of Fischer and should inherit his estimated $2 million estate, which has been in dispute since his death in 2008. REUTERS/Files
I’ve mentioned this several times on my blog. If you don’t believe me, my dad has adamantly denied the Holocaust, has made comments about Jews being the anti-Christ incarnate, loved HAM radio and conspiracy theory radio shows, etc. He also has virtually no friends, etc.
Doing research today it turned out that Bobby Fischer, probably the most famous chess champion of all time, was also married to a Philipino woman and to a Japanese woman.
Is this coincidental? Is it coincidental that the majority of the time when you find a white man with a “passion” for Asian woman, he generally has conservative viewpoints, i.e., hates Islam, the Islamic takeover of Europe, hates western women, hates feminism, blacks, “mudsharks” (i.e., women who sleep with black men), and overall tends towards the right (as broad as the term is)?
Obviously not all white men involved with Asian women are like that, but this is a nice little tidbit that I think can help explain the imbalance.
From Fischer’s Wikipedia biography:
Fischer made numerous anti-Jewish statements and professed a general hatred for Jews since at least the early 1960s. Jan Hein Donner wrote that at the time of Bled 1961, “He idolized Hitler and read everything about him that he could lay his hands on. He also championed a brand of anti-semitism that could only be thought up by a mind completely cut off from reality”. Donner took Fischer to a war museum, which “left a great impression, since [Fischer] is not an evil person, and afterwards he was more restrained in his remarks—to me, at least.”
Although Fischer described his mother as Jewish in a 1962 interview, he later denied his Jewish ancestry. In 1984, Fischer denied being a Jew in a letter to the Encyclopaedia Judaica, insisting that they remove his name and accusing them of “fraudulently misrepresenting me to be a Jew […] to promote your religion”.
From the 1980s on, Fischer’s comments about Jews were a major theme in his public and private remarks. He openly denied the Holocaust, and called the United States “a farce controlled by dirty, hook-nosed, circumcised Jew bastards”.  Between 1999 and 2006, Fischer’s primary means of communicating with the public was radio interviews. He participated in at least 34 such broadcasts, mostly with radio stations in the Philippines, but also in Hungary, Iceland, Colombia, and Russia. In 1999, he gave a radio call-in interview to a station in Budapest, Hungary, during which he described himself as the “victim of an international Jewish conspiracy”. In another radio interview, Fischer said that it became clear to him in 1977, after reading The Secret World Government by Count Cherep-Spiridovich, that Jewish agencies were targeting him. Fischer’s sudden reemergence was apparently triggered when some of his belongings, which had been stored in a Pasadena, California storage unit, were sold by the landlord who claimed it was in response to nonpayment of rent.
Fischer’s library contained anti-semitic and racist literature such as Mein Kampf, The Protocols of the Elders of Zion, and The White Man’s Bible and Nature’s Eternal Religion by Ben Klassen, founder of the World Church of the Creator.A notebook written by Fischer contains sentiments such as “8/24/99 Death to the Jews. Just kill the Motherfuckers!” and “12/13/99 It’s time to start randomly killing Jews”. Despite his views, Fischer remained on good terms with Jewish chess players.
A notebook written by Fischer contains sentiments such as “8/24/99 Death to the Jews. Just kill the Motherfuckers!” and “12/13/99 It’s time to start randomly killing Jews”
At this point I am just putting out these posts to fill the gaps in the search engines for these issues, hence the excessive tagging… for a long time coming. The point of this site is to exist for at least another decade, and my ultimate goal is to make this into the premier website on half-Asian issues, replace all previous discussion of half-Asian issues (e.g., the Kip Fulbeck Camp, Hapavoices, etc.) and so far everything is going according to plan.
I need to reiterate that my dad is racist. He very much hates black people; when buying a Christmas gift yesterday I had to avoid making a certain purchase because I didn’t want to buy a very well known brand owned by a very prominent rapper (now owned by Apple). I went with a lesser known brand because I knew he would never use the aforementioned “black brand.”
My father is also a Holocaust denier, constantly talks about the immigrant crisis in Syria, refers to black people as “the blacks,” so on and so forth. Luckily he’s not a Trump supporter as he believes that Trump is overcome with greed – an anti-Christian principle.
Luckily my dad was never racist against Asians, but apparently there are a lot of white men in relationships with Asian women who hate Asian men even worse. The potential blowback for this is massive.
Anyways, racist white men often times seek out Asian women. Why?
A) Asian women are well known to defer to white men, rarely to black men.
B) Asian women are known for their “traditional values”; i.e., they love living in white countries, and are outspoken in their hatred for black people and are not notorious as white women (although this is a myth) for sleeping with black men.
C) Like Dylan Roof said, Asians are an “honorable race.” Hence their women are honorable women. The only basis for their “honor” would be their perceived value of whiteness.
D) White men with extreme racist views cannot attract white women; so they go for Asian women, who will forgive their views in exchange for whiter babies, (likely before summarily dropping their husbands, like mother did). The whiter babies will then be raised as white, like Marcus Epstein.
E) The largest irony is that Asians are seen as “genetically the most similar” to whites, (my dad has told me that “East and West are the same”), so the children have a much higher chance of looking white (or in my case, whitish), so it’s essentially killing two birds with one stone.
Do not fall for this! I will make sure this website dominates Google rankings from here on in to ensure that these crimes do not go unpunished! If you know people like this, cut them out of your life, but do not blame the children.