If Asian women are world-famous for having "white fever" and hating Asian men, what happens when they have a son who looks Asian? I happen. This is the blog of a Dartmouth educated Eurasian son of a racist, conservative, underemployed, conspiracy theorist white man and a Hong Kong woman who had "white fever," documenting the immense damage and abuse done over 20 years of living under one of the most hateful, racist pairings on Earth. Former Neo-Nazi, former extreme racist, and yes, half Asian.
I don’t really pass judgement other than to voice my own mental issues.
My mother was Chinese from Hong Kong and had underwent such extreme body modification (like which Rachel seems to have) in order to “appear white.” I cannot explain the psychology of this well, but my suspicion is that she (my mother) was deeply mentally ill and so traumatized by the fact that she was not white that she altered her entire appearance to the point that my young brain actually did not register that she was Asian – think heavy red lip stick, eyelid surgery, heavy hair dyeing.
My father was also a very, very, very paleoconservative white man who believed in 1950’s era traditionalism, which I have voiced many times. He hates gays, hates liberals, hates Jews, and lives in a fantasy world of HAM radio, Holocaust denial, and old books.
As far as White male / Asian women being progressive – is that really even an issue in this current age?
Let it be know – Asian women and white men literally dream of having white babies. Asian women are replacement white women for racist white men fed up with white women’s “behavior;” Asian women are so self hating at a core level that they will even take up a White Nationalist identity in order to “fit in.”
What’s truly scary to me is that I am so familiar with mental illness that I’m very afraid for the Hapa children of couples like these – especially when they come up against real racism – i.e., every day racism, where some random redneck says “you look Asian” to her son or daughter – and that will cause an implosion.
Another case you might be interested in (if you’re following the topic) is Marcus Epstein.
Arrested in ’07 for assaulting a black woman on the street. White father, Asian mother.
Epstein works for both MSNBC columnist Pat Buchanan, who has a long history of anti-immigrant extremism and white nationalism, and his sister Angela “Bay” Buchanan, who once called for a revolution to end immigration. Epstein is executive director of Pat Buchanan’s group, The American Cause. In addition, he serves as executive director of the immigrant-bashing Team America PAC, which was founded by Bay Buchanan and former Congressman Tom Tancredo, for whom Epstein wrote speeches during his recent presidential bid.
It seems that during the early evening hours of July 7, 2007, Epstein was walking near the intersection of Jefferson and M Street Northwest, in Washington, D.C., in a mild to severe state of intoxication. A friend of his later told the Secret Service that Epstein had been drinking. Apparently, Epstein was making offensive comments about non-whites, and decided to express himself more dramatically by calling an African-American woman passing by a “nigger” and then attempted to karate chop her in the head. He was briefly detained by the woman’s husband, but escaped, only to be taken into custody minutes later by a Secret Service officer who witnessed the altercation.
Marcus was half-Korean through his mother.
If you want the low down for what’s really going on, I summed it up here:
A lot of Eurasians are essentially just raised as substitute white men, by white fathers whose extreme right wing views were not reasonable enough to get the real thing they wanted: white women. Even worse is that self-hatred for ones appearance is almost completely unique to Asians – for whatever reason (probably because they are unique in being so physically different from other races) – seem to dislike their dark features, have an obsession with light skin, and big eyes, both culturally and within Asian American domestic culture. I cut my hair very short for years to maintain its lighter brown color, and to avoid its oily, thick texture. But more importantly is that most Eurasians are raised by white men.
I.e., when a white man has views that are way too “traditional” for the average white woman, he will leverage his race and his status (i.e., green card) to get an Asian woman, thus finding a partner who is complicit in his “traditionalist” oftentimes white-supremacist views.
It is possible for white men to harbor white nationalist views yet pair up with Asian women. Dylan Roof expressed admiration for Asians. Hitler was well known for viewing Asians as honorary Aryans. The creator of a massive Neo-Nazi website said: “Second, following from the key word there – “marriage” – the men who involve themselves with Asian women are looking for a serious and traditional relationship. Women who go with Blacks and Latinos are looking for excitement.”
So in other words, if a man is a White Supremacist, it’s fine to sleep with Asian women as they are seen to defer to White men. The kids are raised to be either substitute whites or “honorary Aryans,” or worse, “superior Eurasians.”
Every. Single. One. Of. My. Aunts’. Or. Cousins’. Boyfriends. Or. Husbands. Is. Some. Variation. Of. A. Social. Conservative. One is even a teacher in Harlem who has… strong views about this shit.
I’m telling you guys this from experience as a Hapa. Read these words carefully. If you want to go down the rabbit hole there’s a whole different kind of hell down there, in WMAW relationships. You just never considered it because it didn’t behoove you to think about it.
Since people are winding up here chasing down the inevitable source of Daniel Holtzclaw and Elliot Rodger’s racism, let me clue you in, since a lot of Asian women are finger pointing at Asian men for being racist. (I suggest you listen and stick around too, because my story is Amy Chua tier and I am 100% willing to pull back the curtain on these kinds of relationships, and probably am going to get a target on my back as a result).
By the way, the best way to ever win an argument is to lie. Children do it naturally, and most people, when cornered, will lie, too, as we see Asian women / white men doing now.We can expect to see a lot of this come out of the anti-Asian camp. Whether or not Asians are racist is up for grabs, but to say that white male / Asian women relationships are less racist? Lie.
None of the stuff in this blog is a lie. It’s actually frighteningly accurate and I am jeopardizing being literally cut off by my family by writing this.
Anyways, I made this comment this summer on Reddit as evidence of how backwards white males in relationships with Asian women are. I realize I had never posted it here because I had been worried about him realizing this happened on that date (Father’s Day).
Several comments about how he wished life would go back to how it was in the 50’s
References to seeing parts of the US state we are currently in, to get an idea how it was “before it all changed.”
Said: “When the new order comes, we will hang all the drug dealers. Just watch.” Everyone cringed at the dinner table and went silent with jaws open. He said it in total seriousness. “The new order.”
How life was much better in medieval times and how older art was all about celebrating the human spirit and modern art is all spiritually degenerating (true or not, the way he said it was exactly what a Nazi art-burner would say).
Several brutal comments about a woman with a mustache working as a Woman’s Studies professor at a local college
Several comments about black people; i.e., “I don’t go near there, there are a lot of… you knows.” (Before looking at me for approval).
Convenient, that he married an Asian woman, as they are well known for disliking black males and purported cultural “traditionalism”, and my brother spent the entire afternoon and evening lying in bed in the other bedroom (we were visiting a relative’s house), refusing to come out and communicate with other people, instead lying in bed and staring at the ceiling (he’s 32).
To add to this I might have to add that my mother also did not like black people. While driving through black neighborhoods she would say hysterically (I mean the bad, raging kind, not the funny kind) racist things about certain peoples’ manner of dress indicating that they were infected with AIDS.
My father also is a Holocaust denier, Hitler admirer, savagely, savagely hates Jews (even more than blacks), but I’ll leave it at that. If you want more details just leave a comment.
For whatever reason, Asian women seem to openly bash Asian men for any myriad amount of cultural wrongs, but I have a suspicion that these same cultural wrongs get overlooked when the man performing them has blue eyes. Trips to my Chinese family’s place would be like a holiday away from Nazi Youth camp.
I’ve said it before and will say it again: a lot of Eurasians are essentially just raised as substitute white men, by white fathers whose views were not reasonable enough to get the real thing they wanted: white women.
Anyone who has ever spent a significant time around Asian women realizes that there are more than a handful who have nothing but vitriolic and vile hatred in their hearts for Asian men. This probably has something to do with their failure to find them attractive (for physical reasons) so they essentially treat them as antagonists.
As if this were not problematic enough, these same women eventually go on to marry white men, and produce half-Asian children. These half-Asian children are exposed to the following elements:
Vitriol from Asian women
Massively unbalanced interracial dating
Constant attacks on Asianness by Asian women in relations with white men (the same ones who date white men yet still have to make the inferiority of Asian men well known)
The fact that they themselves naturally require a healthy identity in order to function yet Asian maleness was categorically attacked from the beginning; making healthy identity impossible.
A nihilistic sense of self worth where their entire usefulness is dictated by how Asian or un-Asian they look.
This in turn is producing millions of unhealthy Hapa children.
They literally are creating a Catch-22 for their own sons, wherein they demonize Asianness, yet produce half-Asian sons, and then forbid them from complaining about being brutally reminded of their own inferiority (see the Esther Ku remark above or this one below):
Even more obvious is the fact that when Asian women are confronted with this, their usual arguments are “we owe Asian men nothing,” “it is not our duty to find Asian men attractive;” which are all true.
However, as these same women are going to give birth to sons and can offer nothing more than off-the-bat platitudes and a complete lack of concern for the mental state of CHILDREN, it is necessary to deduce that:
These women (and men) are literally the last people on earth suited for raising half Asian children, especially men. By being so adamantly opposed to introspection they are actually proving me right in implying they are not suitable for motherhood / fatherhood. A mother / father’s job is to care wholly for the wellbeing of her child, lest she produces a societal-detriment, which we are already filled to the brim with.
So what is happening now is that Asian women are attempting to level the blame onto half-Asian men in the present, in order to immunize themselves in the future from their own self blame, which will happen.
However, the real blame needs to be leveled on two parents, an Asian woman and white man (again, oftentimes a man, like my father, who enjoys feeling “superior” over rejected Asian men; or in many cases, just worshipped for his race unjustly whereas he feels white women failed to do so), who do not care for the mental health or spiritual wellbeing of their own sons, a demographic they are callously bringing into the world by the millions, a demographic that is destined to explode in what I call: The Hapacalypse.
We have already seen in two years such violent outbursts from Hapas, all with Asian mothers and white fathers. There will be more coming.
On this date, December 14th, 2015, remember that I, a Eurasian, specifically blamed the dynamic of White Men and Asian Women for creating a demographic of monsters.
I no longer am concerned with appealing to Asian women. I am concerned with appealing to you, my non-Asian readers, to recognize these people for what they are. This is not a “progressive” pairing. It is racism. Please, please, please recognize this before it is too late. Do I have to remind you about how my mother commented on my high nose, light eyes, repeatedly, while concurrently having a massive blowout at my father for harboring anti-semitic, Holocaust denying views?
Yes, I am Eurasian / Hapa / half-Asian, yes I am real, and no I won’t show my face right now out of fear for attack and retribution. This will happen eventually. But please, please, believe me.
It doesn’t matter how many Asian women deny this; by this blog even existing and popping up after virtually any “half-Asian” search (and within a few months it will be the number one search result), this becomes a problem for society as a whole, and ideally it will ruin the social lives and society’s view of these pairings rather than them being hoisted up as being progressive.
There is no “white-only” Asian woman on the PLANET who would admit to this being a plausible issue; but it doesn’t matter – all I have to do is sway public opinion to my side using reason and truthfulness, and then the whole roof will cave in. That means: appealing to non-Asians, blacks, whites, Hispanics, Muslims, etc. You all know well the adage of the “pen being more powerful than the sword.” You want world peace? Then dismantle the goddamned systems of power and hierarchies that exist in so called “free countries” and stop valuing your own selfish needs for five goddamned minutes.
So… another Eurasian who snapped due to a combination of being raised under a white-worshipping Asian mother and a patronizing white father who tries to raise us as being white.
People don’t recognize that the world might see Woldt as white – but he doesn’t. And even worse is that people can smell the Asian blood on you, and will humiliate it for you. I’ve had women straight up tell me “you have an Asian body,” “I don’t date Asian men,” etc.
Explain to me, dear reader, right, now how Asian women that adamantly refuse Asian men, fail to instill pride in their own children in their Asian appearance (and even if they did attempt to, their actions still prove louder than their words) are going to raise productive citizens.
“Oh but white guys have problems too.” White guys have problems and also don’t deal with debilitating sexual stereotypes. Let’s be honest.
This site is well on its way to being the largest half-Asian website in the world, and yet nobody has attempted to shut me down at all with lucid arguments.
The above picture describes my parents to an absolute T.
2016 update: I stopped, then started to continue to add people to this list because the news keeps aggregating and aggregating. 2016 has seen several national news stories featuring Eurasians – every single one with a white father and Asian mother.
Does anyone want to explain why virtually every single Eurasian / Hapa who commits a crime has a white father and an Asian mother?
The single largest mixed race demographic on earth – all uniformly born to white fathers (literally the last people on earth who understand what it’s like to be non-white) and Asian mothers (literally the last people on earth who care) – the only predictable factor among a million unpredictable social elements.
Could it maybe have to do with the fact that SOME of the people who get involved in these relationships present us with a highly politicized relationship involving the superiority of white men, passive aggressive myths about Eurasian beauty and abilities, and psychosexual microaggressions designed to demean Asian people? While my father never badmouthed Asian men – I can only imagine being the son of raceplayers, or women who make a show of their distaste for Asian blood. And I had it bad.
Not all, of course, but let’s be honest that there are many Asian women who chase white men out of a passionate hatred for Asian men, and there are white men who are happy to sleep with them, disrespect the hell out of their Asian partners, not thinking that their son will look totally Asian. From the Sarong Party Girls, to the LA valley girls who dye their hair… where does this all lead besides some of us being in a really bad place… and there are some incredible selfish white guys who get off on being worshipped for their whiteness and think that their children won’t have problems. Really? Really?
So, it dawned on me that Asian women intent on marrying white men would never stop. So I realized something; as someone coming from a background of a miserable household and a mother who married for race and status, and also married to a very sweet girl who told me she would never have dated me had I not been Chinese, I’m in a pretty good position to air the dirty laundry of the Tiger Moms and race climbers of the world; because now, I have the comparison.
From here on in I will literally use this blog as a platform to reveal the naked truth about a coupling that masquerades as colorblind and progressive yet is so common simply because it is neither colorblind, and is also regressive, reeking of colonialism, colorism, and a long history of white men being seen as the most desirable. Dishonorable? Unfilial? Who cares?
Ever wonder why Asian woman / white male couples look so unhappy compared to Asian / Asian couples? My parents were miserablefrom day one, and do you want to know why? Because the marriage was based on hate, not love.
(Yes, obviously there are exceptions. But the ones who marry for race, this should be pinpoint accurate).
I thought I would break this down fairly simply here.
The relationship is based on the whiteness of the male. Yes, this is true. I know this purely through observation, including my own parents. Sometimes the white male is “decent looking”, rarely “good looking,” and more common plain and even ugly. My father was also “coincidentally” approached by my mother during a language class, and he “coincidentally” was 6’3″ and white with blue eyes. On this basis, there is really nothing else ensuring the stability of the relationship other than the fantasy of having a white partner. The expectations are monumental.
Necessarily, a good, sane human being would not disqualify a person of her own race. I know this now given my experience with a woman who loves Chinese men, is traditionally attractive, comes from a stable, loving family, loves children, and harbors no mental issues; versus my own mother who deliberately sought out a white man and was extremely mentally deranged. A lot of white men will mistake overt affection for love, when the real end goal was to get a whiter baby (if you don’t believe me, just ask your Asian girlfriend / wife and examine her response and if it refers to “beautiful Hapas” or “beautiful babies”).
Mother comes from a history of abuse; her father beat her and her four siblings pretty badly. My wife was hugged constantly as a child and pampered to the high heavens.
While not unattractive, my mother was “decent,” with double eyelids, brown skin, and a square-jaw – not really the Chinese ideal. I suspect that having a white husband was a good way for her to one-up her siblings and her friends.
Mother comes from a family that is fairly obsessive about status and money; hence their immigration to the US during the mid-60’s and the almost bizarre infatuation with Ivy League schools.
If she was “innocent” in her love – would she not have sought out someone within her own culture or a male that was not stereotypically white? I ask this because white men oftentimes criticize white women who “only date black men,” yet when an Asian woman throws herself at a white male, this is excused and no indication of a character flaw.
Mother will change her last name to her husbands as a badge of her “integration”, yet in some cases (more common now) they will keep their Asian last names hyphenated (like my cousins) to maintain an image of being attached to their Asian side yet fully supportive of the supremacy of whiteness.
The relationship isn’t pure because unbeknownst to the male, the relationship is based on his race rather than any redeeming qualities. Obviously he doesn’t realize this, even years after the fact or after he has been divorced / nagged to death / cheated on. He enjoys getting sex at the beginning and feeling praised for his eye color / European features without realizing how this indicates a strong mental imbalance or superficiality in a woman; moreover, the guy can oftentimes get off on the fact that the woman has a “strong personality,” or is controlling and even relatively unstable; a good example is to notice the behavior of these couples in public, where oftentimes they seem emotionally distant or angry.
If the relationship was not based on the whiteness of the male, then Asian women wouldn’t be dating them in such high numbers, and WMAW couples could sit down to dinner without seeing four-five other WMAW couples at a time.
Oftentimes the relationship is based off of “rebellion,” desire to “escape” Asian culture, a history of sex-abuse or sex-work, a history of familial violence, personality quirks, extremely vicious personalities (my cousins and aunts who are with white men are constantly verbally abusing their partners even when they are not there)or hygiene issues; out of all my mother’s siblings, there are two with really atrocious personalities and nagging health problems, my mother, and her “best friend” sister, who also was married and divorced twice to white men. Her other two sisters have been married to Asian men since the late 60’s. I recall one story of my friend back home who told me had hooked up with a Korean girl and that her feet smelled so bad he threw her out; given that I think I’m culturally predisposed to being disgusted by body odors and hygiene, these women seek to date out.
After a year or two of marriage (which comes with a demand for an extremely extravagant wedding and ridiculous demands; my cousin’s wedding, for example, cost $40k, while mine cost nothing), the woman begins to reveal her true colors, withholding sex and becoming increasingly naggy.
After the child is born she will stop paying attention to the husband, since he was merely an accessory for her during their dating phase, and start Tiger Momming the child and become obsessive about money. I noticed this immediately when looking through a photo-album of my childhood given to me as a gift last Christmas; after about 4-5 years, my mother deliberately distanced herself from my father, and in the pictures of them together, he would often be staring into space or off at the floor while she was talking with her siblings and Asian friends. Her demands for purchases become more and more extreme and she will start comparing herself with her sisters / friends for the lifestyle she feels she deserves
Since she wasn’t of the “best stock” to begin with (as arguably the best women wouldn’t discriminate on race), her gradual frustrations and mental problems showed through as I grew older, making my brother and I beat each other with coat hangers, forcing us to stand in the corner for hours playing the violin, pulling a knife on us and threatening to kill us and slit her wrist, driving the car up to 90 miles per hour with us in the back seat, threatening to kill us by driving into a lake or into the wall, etc. I had recurring dreams about her driving into water, until I began writing this blog, after which they promptly vanished.
Separate bedrooms / sexlessness was the norm for the entire relationship.
She would confide in me that my father was lazy, fat., etc; often telling me directly how he “would eat sugar directly out of the bag,” “couldn’t look anyone in the eye,” “would cover his face while eating to conceal his disgusting habits,” etc.
The combination of being extremely Tiger Mommy and the child’s cultural confusion in looking nothing like his father and witnessing perverse racial dynamics where an otherwise aloof and indifferent father exercises “domination” over an Asian woman yet himself is unable to provide proper guidance for an Asian looking child, leads the child to either lash out or demonstrate unusual and passive aggressive behavior. Combined with being rejected by full-Asians as well as by full-Whites means an extremely traumatizing experience.
Anyone who has ever met a Eurasian person with a white father will recognize this immediately. This manifests in certain ways, such as extreme insecurity, an over-inflated ego, unbearable personalities that seem rooted in deep issues, or other odd “ticks”.
The biggest insult is how these women (and their husbands) attempt to make their children “proud to be Asian,” by sending us to Karate classes, signing us up for Asian language classes (I was signed up for Chinese / Cantonese classes), taught how to use chopsticks at age 3, despite their younger peers creating the atmosphere of Asian hatred. I.e., Half-Asians go out in the world and see Asian women openly attacking Asian men – so where does our trust for our parents go?
Obviously most Hapas don’t want to admit that their mothers did in fact favor or use white males to their immediate advantage in securing a better life style / status / whiter children, since to do so would be to embrace a terrible kind of nihilism that was beyond anything else that the human mind can rationally absorb.
More funny is the anger that posts such as this generate from certain parties, usually because it’s absolutely spot on. I’ve been there, done that, so I know exactly what the mentality is. Whatever you do, do NOT blame Asian men for the behavior of Eurasians in the future!