If Asian women are world-famous for having "white fever" and hating Asian men, what happens when they have a son who looks Asian? I happen. This is the blog of a Dartmouth educated Eurasian son of a racist, conservative, underemployed, conspiracy theorist white man and a Hong Kong woman who had "white fever," documenting the immense damage and abuse done over 20 years of living under one of the most hateful, racist pairings on Earth. Former Neo-Nazi, former extreme racist, and yes, half Asian.
Asian women, who constantly talk about how inferior Asian men are – in real time, for half Asian sonswho aren’t even theirs to hear. So even the “so called” good couples still have children who are exposed to millions of these women. The question is – why would any half Asian be proud to be Asian as a result, or even worse, look ANYTHING like an Asian male? And many, many half Asians look TOTALLY Asian.
White men, especially the ones who are into Asian women. They just love to bash Asian men to make themselves feel bigger with Asian women. (Remember, it’s uniquely white men that are raising half Asian sons, so the children will try to live up to the father’s ethnicity).
So the question is why do half Asian sons try to play down their Asian heritage? I did this for ten years, and went practically insane as I looked more and more Asian. Again, I bullied full Asians, never grew my hair out longer than a couple weeks to avoid it being too dark, and when seeing my black hair fall on the barber’s smock I became almost instantly depressed.
I’ve listed dozens of cases, but I think this sums it up.
Elliot Rodger: “How could an ugly Asian attract the attention of a white girl, while a beautiful Eurasian like myself never had any attention from them? I thought with rage. I glared at them for a bit, and then decided I had been insulted enough. I angrily walked toward them and bumped the Asian guy aside, trying to act cocky and arrogant to both the boy and the girl.”
Daniel Holtzclaw: “How does that white dick taste?”
John Hamilton: “I’m Scottish below the belt.”
What are these women going to do when a woman – even an Asian woman – says the same thing to their son? This has been said verbatim to me, and other half Asian men I know:
“I don’t date Asian guys.”
And you wonder why half Asians with Asian mothers have literally produced nothing of merit, ever?
Despite having a mother who beat the shit out of me every day for twelve years and haunted my dreams for another fifteen – not once, not even once, did I ever feel the need to degrade or humiliate Asian women, for twenty three years – until I started this blog.
And chances are, like my mother, she married a white guy for integration and said horrible things to Asian men in her life.
I’m far less Asian passing than this boy, and I’ve dealt with covert racism my entire life – even worse, with a back drop of extreme infighting in my family, since my mother was miserable her entire life since she didn’t actually like herself.
My question for Asian women is, behind the cover of whatever feminism or lies that they are willing to push forth about their preference for white men – what stops a child from learning the truth?
They act like they’re the first women to give birth to Hapa sons. Actually, they’ve been doing that since the 60’s. And where are the Hapa sons now? Presidents? CEO’s? They don’t exist. Vast majority of us look very Asian.
To white guys reading this: congratulations on giving up your white privilege so that you could finally feel like a man. Enjoy the next 50 years – you’re really going to need the luck.
Elliot Rodger, De Grood, Nojan Sullivan were just the beginning.
It seems that the worst marital horror stories seem to involve White men and Asian women. Not only because of the depraved, fetishistic nature of it – but because of the amount of miscommunication, deep seated mistrust, and bizarre quality of the males involved.
I.e., Asian women, having very low standards for white males while living in Western countries, will gladly marry mentally unstable, unattractive or even violent white men n an attempt to properly integrate. Ironically – these are the men that go after Asian women largely because they are easy as long as you are white.
What seems to have been the case here is that his children looked Asian.
White men – oftentimes so racist as they want a submissive Asian woman, a replacement white woman – but wind up getting kids who look 100% Asian, react in unpredictable ways. Even worse is that Asian women (like my mother) seem to only value one quality – WHITENESS – for the purpose of integration and avoiding ethnic marginalization – so the relationship severely lacks proper foundation, which I’m sure Mr. Kerr realized after a while. Some Reddit comments on this sum it up. They talk about various aspects:
From the idea of White men being perturbed by the idea of his wife cheating on him with his “competition” – i.e., lowly Asian men, to his wife cheating on him with another white guy (since it’s not him she “loves”, but his whiteness).
Robert Kerr, 39, struck as his two sons slept upstairs in their Glasgow home, going on to make himself a hot drink while his wife Xin Xin lay dead
A lecturer fatally stabbed his wife to death 76 times after wrongly believing he was not the father of their children.
Robert Kerr attacked Xin Xin Liu, 39, at their home in the suburb of Newton Mearns, near Glasgow.
Kerr, also 39, killed his wife while his two sons slept upstairs.
The court heard how he then went on to make himself a hot drink while Xin Xin lay dead.
A judge heard how the mum suffered more than 70 wounds during the horrific killing in April this year.
Kerr today faced a murder allegation as he appeared at the High Court in Glasgow.
Prosecutors however accepted his guilty plea to the reduced plea of culpable homicide on the grounds of his diminished responsibility.
Kerr was suffering from “an abnormality of the mind” at the time of the fatal attack, the court heard.
This is his first offence, and he will return to the dock in November.
A group of Xin Xin’s relatives were in court today, with some weeping as the graphic details of her death were revealed.
The mum had moved to Scotland from China around 15 years ago to study law at Aberdeen University.
It was there she met Kerr, who was doing a computer course. They went on to get married in 2003.
Kerr was latterly a lecturer at West College Scotland in Paisley while Xin Xin was training to be a translator.
They were described as a “quiet and private couple”, but, in early April this year – weeks before the killing – Kerr had contacted his GP complaining of stress in respect of “work and personal issues”.
Kerr added he was suffering from anxiety, insomnia and spoke about “paranoid feelings”.
But just four days prior to the attack Kerr spoke to a nurse and said he had been feeling much better and appeared to be sounding “chirpier”.
It changed on April 26 when Kerr – wearing a dressing gown – fatally attacked Xin Xin as their children slept.
Just before midnight, he then dialled 999 and admitted: “I have just killed my wife. I murdered her in a stabbing frenzy.”
He went on to state there was “blood all over the place”.
Police discovered Xin Xin lying on the kitchen floor with a knife still in her body.
After being held, Kerr then told officers: “I found out tonight they were not mine.”
Jane Farquharson, prosecuting, said he had “suspicions” that a friend was the dad of his children.
Miss Farquharson told the court: “A paternity test recently carried out…has since confirmed that Robert Kerr is the biological father.”
A number of blood-stained items were found at the couple’s house including a milk carton.
The advocate depute said: “Kerr has since admitted that he had made himself a hot drink after this incident.”
A post mortem later revealed Xin Xin had suffered a total of approximately 76 wounds.
Asian women know my blog is 100% correct. They know their sons will look Asian, no matter what – and that it is fundamental to not create an environment that will hurt them.
However, the ones that do know this and don’t care just hope for a daughter. Example 1.Example 2. The ones that know this and care just sit by in desperation. Nobody knows Asian women better than Asian women.
As I’ve said – Asian women nowadays even go so far as to attack half Asian men as being no different from full Asians. They are literally attacking their own sons ten years before they are born. Expect more Elliot Rodgers. This is the soundest warning you’ve ever heard; black people, white women, other Asian women, Latinos, Muslims – be very aware of this.
By the way, in 18 months we’ve amassed such a large collection of information that it’s no longer viable to just store it on Reddit. I will try to post as much of it as I can on HalfAsian.org – if people are looking to explore this topic more… I’m aware that there are ethnographers, black activists, even white nationalists, or just people interested in why their friends behave a certain way, reading on this subject, so you’re free to take what you want from there.
Because of the nature of WMAW – Its politics, its conservative nature, the weird, grabbish quality the white males lord over their children, the fact that these kids are being abandoned in droves by their racist white fathers. – I think it’s fair to point out that the hapa children of white men – without proper intervention from EVERYONE – are going to prove to be a national security risk.
If you know of a half Asian kid growing up in the middle of Arkansas or New Hampshire, keep an eye on him; even, feel sorry for him. Trust me on this. I’ve been through it. Been through the rejection for my Asian blood – even though I didn’t think I was Asian. The anger at my black hair. The anger at my Asian features.
Imagine this: Asian women are known for “worshipping” white males, they are known for hating and laughing at Asian guys, Asian guys are seen as weak bitches with small penises, society hates you and constantly torments you for being a weak bitch with a small penis – and then these racist white men and Asian women (who hate Asian men even more) give birth to Asian looking sons…. with white fathers?
Even worse is these white daddies tell their sons “it’s all in your head, take responsibility for your actions” when their sons get humiliated at school, rejected by women; they raise them in uniformly white areas, with no biracial or Asian friends. Their mothers, being privileged as hell because white America / Europe loves Asian women, can’t possibly fathom that her totally Asian looking son has issues – nor does she care.
Half Asians are the ONLY group of non-white people being raised exclusively by White fathers – so while their mothers think that “they are white” because white men treat Asian women like they are white, the children are not. Everything these children will do in the future will reflect the fact that Asian woman explicitly support the idea that whiteness is superior to Asianness.
Just let that sink in for a minute.
Asian women – who by all extents are highly valued by white men for their perceived submissiveness to whiteness – literally dream of pairing up with “superior” white men, raise them in an environment that hates Asians, and then their kids look totally Asian. Does that make sense?
The United States Health Department itself released data almost 13 years ago stating that mixed-race Asians (I’m guessing the vast majority have Asian mothers) are around ~84% more likely to commit suicide than mono-racials of any group.
Oh, b-b-b-b-ut my son won’t be like that! I’m a good father! My son will have high self esteem since I’m an expert on looking like an Asian male!
Here’s more for you. These are actual peer reviewed, funded studies backing up everything I say on this website.
The reason why Eurasians are at high risk for suicide?
White, privileged fathers unable to properly guide children in navigating a white supremacist society (let’s face it – even racists know that white supremacy is real)
The half-Asian son / daughter still looks Asian but faces discrimination from society and has no outlet for it
Racial bullying… uncaring parents (the Asian mother has high sex value in society, essentially she gets her white partner, the privilege that comes with it, and doesn’t want to be stressed at her own son’s lack of it)
The entitled Asian mother used her vagina to her advantage in getting a white partner to raise her stature or survive, with zero concern for how this reflects on the child, who is constantly reminded that he’s Asian and that “of course [his] mother is the Asian one.”
The half-Asian son looks Asian, and is repeatedly reminded that he is inferior to full whites by his own mother
Sociopathic Tiger Mom who belittles Asian blood and submissively plays up whiteness
Callous parenting by both parties, telling their children to “suck it up.”
Insane degree of fetishization, white worship, Asian-inferiority, race-playism, sexualized racism (i.e., Oriental vagina, white dominant penis) affecting the mindset of the child… the male child becomes the enemy of the parents, either reminding the privileged mother of her Asian blood, or of the men she feels superior to, or the daughter being mistaken for the father’s girlfriend.
Self hatred; i.e., the child wishes they were white for simplicity or convenience purposes
I’ll keep it short. One of my readers apparently emailed her, or someone else, my cartoon. STOP DOING THAT SHIT. You are diluting our voices by doing that.
The cartoon, by the way – is more or less true. At least once in her son’s life is he going to hear “I don’t date Asian guys.” He will probably hear this from Asian women. The irony being that since most men prefer women like his mother – this will especially hurt. I know it did me. Except the first time want that bad. The tenth time it happened was enough to suck my life blood out.
In case you don’t know, Celeste is the rather famous author of a book called “Everything I Never Told You,” which was a bestseller some odd years ago. I’ve read some of it, save your money and buy Sharon Chang’s book, which is a lot more thoughtful on dealing with the WMAW apocalypse. Not surprisingly Sharon Chang, daughter of a white woman, actually is able to contribute something other than hysterical, poorly written keyboard tap-tap taps.
It’s funny because Celeste wears bright red lipstick like my mom did, uncanny.
In her book she describes a family with an Asian father that somehow manages to get his little daughter drowned in a lake. Surprisingly, Celeste is married to a white guy. A tall white guy. Gee what a surprise, my dad was also a tall white guy.
My family broken when my mom realized that her American dream was a tiny apartment with a neurotic white guy, while her brothers and sisters were making millions upon millions with their Chinese husbands / wives. But Sharon makes it so that Asian male / white women couples are broken when the reality is the opposite is producing nothing but failures and criminals.
Here’s what Celeste doesn’t seem to understand. By constantly refusing to acknowledge such a huge imbalance and keeping a gag order on us figuring out our identity on our terms (i.e., we all have white dads) she’s making it worse – especially for the non passing hapas.
1. Feminism aside, in the REAL world, most Asian women don’t care about feminism and just LOVE tall white guys and Western features and pink skin and most young Asian girls literally HATE Asian men. I hear this ten times a week. He’s gonna search “Asian women” and see women like his mom being marketed online to white men. He’s gonna go on PUA forums and see men bragging about banging 100 Asian girls in five years. Her son will hear it and BURN OUT.
2. Half Asians with Asian fathers seem to produce success after success, from Bond girls to NASA scientists to real estate developers. They’re everywhere. Hell even the sons of black men and white women have surpassed WMAW sons.
Don’t tell us what to do. We figured it out on our own.
The above movie “Chink,” from 2013, features a Eurasian male character played by a Eurasian actor Jason Tobin (white father, Asian mother), and features his obsession with white women, his hatred of his own blood and his murder of full Asian men. Why? Because this is the exact message Asian women send to their own sons.
Every single time an Asian woman says “ew, Asian men,” they by proxy attack the half-Asian male children of Asian women that said the same thing twenty years earlier. It’s a time loop that is going to cause more and more Eurasian suicides, mental illness, murderers and violence.
And if you think that Eurasian people don’t look Asian… Jason Tobin, the actor, looks fully Asian despite being half. So what will an Asian mother who “only dates” white men tell her own son who looks totally Asian?
I’d love to be proud, but it’s this insanely ironic.
Did you scratch your head wondering why this happened?
I’ll explain it in less than 300 words given my experiences. Frankly don’t listen to Asian women when they try to write the half Asian 混血儿 story for us. Don’t listen to anyone’s telling of the half-Asian experience other than the one found on this blog, because they’re frankly either lying or don’t want to admit it (ahem: Asian women).
It’s because being half Asian is just an excuse for Asian women having “white fever.” Half Asian men aren’t more attractive, white men (even the biggest losers like my dad) are more attractive, and half-Asian sons are just the “best case scenario” when a white man and an Asian woman have children.
Every time I try to look in the mirror and accept my black hair that sticks up straight, my dark eyes, my Chinese blood and my heritage, all I have to do is go outside.
I see thousands of Asian women throwing themselves at white men, talking awful shit about Asian guys on dating sites, and then I remind myself that I too have a western last name. I then think back to the times I was turned down by white AND Asian women for being half Asian.
Tell me: what pride would I take in being Asian? It’s so much easier to just identify as Russian or white or even Uzbek. Since white men are “so handsome,” why not just identify totally as white?
So whenever you hear or see Hapa mamas tearfully complaining about how their own little boys scream “I’m not Chinese!”, why the hell would we want to be part of a losing team?
Ever wonder why Nathan Adrian hardly ever talks about his Asian heritage?
Every wonder why Markiplier rarely talks about it either, despite him having a brother who looks totally Asian?
Every wonder why Markiplier is way more successful than his totally Asian looking brother?
Because nobody wants to be on the losing team. Again, we’re on the fast track to producing another mass murderer, encouraging more half-Asian suicides, throwing half Asian children down an incredible well, and yet nobody is listening, and yes, this criminal is going to have a white father and an Asian mother, just like the last 15 of them.
I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged, meek, hyper-racist, conspiracy theorist male who was an “Asiaphile” – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, deeply mentally disturbed, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and to this day still unable to undo the damage that the Eurasian myths did to me, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.
If you don’t think this website is valid – go to Reddit.com/r/hapas, which received 11 million views in 2 years, and 2 million views in the last two months. Also – find half Asians with Asian fathers and compare their behavior to those with Asian mothers.
Imagine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?
In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall (6’3″, skinny), red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white; their entire marriage was violent, loveless, and calculating.
This man was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white or non-Asian woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, very racist against blacks, Hispanics and Muslims, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely distasteful of feminism, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture). His interest in Asian culture was largely dictated by his personality – in which he idealized Asian cultures as being more honorable and traditional, and mistook “white worship” (a cultural tick in which Asian women see themselves as less beautiful than white women), for “traditionalism” and “submissiveness.”
I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including five out of six of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men (the majority of whom are racists, Republicans, or short and or meek), and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade.
My parents’ relationship was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself with a butcher knife in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.
When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian (scowling at me on the street, or smirking), and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. Several of my “friends,” who were engineers and nerdy, actually would take every opportunity to remind me of my Asianness, while sleeping with Asian women, as Asian women were all they could get. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal.
Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women in my Asian family,hate my Asian side,so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissectingWhite male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.
I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood.
I highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went.
I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.
I think it’s time to admit that half-Asian sons have a problem before this gets worse, and it is getting worse; this brings the tally of half Asians to make national news in 2016, to 6.
All of them with white fathers. Let me reiterate: there were 6 half-Asians in the news in the year 2016, alone.
It is February 26th, meaning we are 57 days into the year 2016, and there have been 6 major incidents that have made national news.
Six out of six of these incidents involved half Asian children with white fathers.
Six out of six.
There will be more incidents this year involving half Asians.
They will be uniformly young, more or less in Elliot Rodger’s age bracket.
All of them will have white fathers.
Read this here, on this website: each and every one of them will have a white father.
These are not black criminals committing terrible crimes; these are the sons of white men and Asian women – the supposed master-race of beautiful, talented Eurasians.
Do I need to get into why, again?
Read the blog:
the collision between race fetishism, emasculation, white supremacy, self-hatred, mental illness, cultural and racial confusion, racial bullying, isolation at being mixed race, the Asian mother bad-mouthing Asian men, lack of Asian friendships, lack of Hapa friendships, the white father’s racism, the sexual dynamics between mother and father, the colonialism, the lack of resemblance to ones own parents, and depression are routine in Hapas. Not rare, but routine.
It’s farcical how Asian women intend to instill in us a proper sense of value and self worth when our entire existence is based on how inferior the genes of Asian males are, yet we by and large resemble Asian males.
Listen to me very, very carefully. Read the following words next as if they were written by the Queen mother herself:
I know exactly what I’m talking about when I say that being mixed race is much, much more traumatic than our parents could ever realize, and we have almost no outlet and no resources at all.
The mental illness evident on the early pages of this blog are proof enough that something is amiss, not just in me – but the half-Asian demographic at large.
I am Eurasian. I am not the white man who can take and pick any Asian woman he pleases. In order for me to develop a healthy identity – I must be proud of my Asian heritage. My mother, western culture, and Asian women around me made it very, very difficult to accept myself.
I am cream of the crop – highly educated.
At my very lowest, the feeling of being so alone, so aloof, undesirable, betrayed, self-hating and confused, that I can say with accuracy that I was not in control of myself anymore. I’d hate to say it – but Eurasians are completely unique in our situation as opposed to other mixes, and we, and I – at one point – posed a danger to ourselves and those around us.