🔥Racist white men LOVE Asian women❗️❗️❗️ (Vital Post; updated)

 

Here are some brief examples, there are hundreds of thousands of these guys. Asian women are famous for being highly valued by racist white men, who view them as the antithesis to white female feminism, race traitors, and liberalism. Asian women are well known for loving blue eyes and blonde haired men – simply because they are white, and this means a higher status life – so white men capitalize on this. Asian culture also puts a high premium on integration and status, and marrying a white person = status, and integration.

I.e., White women are viewed as not operating in accordance with the white man’s motives; so, whereby, Asian women, by virtue of wanting whiter children, and to escape the Gilded Ghetto / Model Minority second class citizenship, are very pro-white, and moreso, pro white-male. White men can escape “emasculation” by non-white men and white women, by “taking the power back” with Asian women, who want whiter children, and hate Asianness.

They oftentimes, as a result, marry men like my father; antisocial, prickly, racist and extremely conservative, physically unattractive white men, and whether they intend to stay with these men after childbirth is still something I’m not sure of, given that many Japanese women kidnap their children back to Japan, and my mother, for example, started severely chastising and alienating my father after my brother and I were born.

In fact the entire gist of White male / Asian women relationships is that those white men with physical defects / mental defects have a better chance at getting a woman – than he would within his own race. Sounds un-PC, but people have died as a result.

Example 1.

This particular guy, Nigel Wise, is in the English Defense League.

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Example 2.

The creator of a massive Neo-Nazi website said: “Second, following from the key word there – “marriage” – the men who involve themselves with Asian women are looking for a serious and traditional relationship.  Women who go with Blacks and Latinos are looking for excitement.” 

Example 3.

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John Derbyshire, white nationalist. Some of the things he has said.

Example 4.

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The director of One Nation in Queensland has an Asian wife.

Example 5.

Can I still fuck East Asian girls and be a WN?

Example 6.

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Ranking Aryan Nation member/current inmate Jimmy Maxwell. “My first wife and mother of my children is even half Korean”. Several of his Quapa kids have drugs and legal problems. One is incarcerated for murder.

Example 7. 

White guy from a few months back, married to an Asian woman, saying that a white woman who was burned to death deserved it for sleeping with a black male – hence being a “mud shark.”

Example 8.

White nationalist Youtube is married to a Taiwanese woman.

Here’s a link to one of his YouTube videos in which he talks about the importance of preserving the white race through white nationalism (without mixing with Slavs and Mediterranean Peoples).

Example 9.

New Zealander politician and head of National Party, Don Brash, criticized for his views on race relations in New Zealand. “Don Brash doesn’t seem racist. He’s married to an Asian woman.” [Also has a hapa son]

Archive.

Example 10.

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[2015] Republican running for New Jersey Assembly finds himself in hotwater for writing book containing hate speech against women and minorities. “I’m not a homophobe, I’m not anti-Semitic, not anti-Asian… My wife is Asian. My son is Korean.”

Example 11.

 

“Irish man arrested for causing havoc and racially abusing Muslims. Says he did it because he fears for his hapa son’s future. He “finds it difficult to be labelled a racist” as his wife is Thai.”

Example 12.

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Neo-Nazi white supremacist Brian Ruhe has a Thai wife

Example 13.

Founder of North Carolina Ku Klux Klan branch, high-profile white nationalist and murderer of several Jewish people was married to a Hawaiian women and had a hapa son.

Example 14.

[2014] White Nationalists march in Australia. When one is asked if the march is racist he replies, “My girlfriend is a Chinese woman.”

Example 15.

Internet comment: White People better wake the fuck up… These liberal motherfuckers want a race war their going to get it one day… My wife is Chinese…


Why do racist white men like Asian women? My dad is a Holocaust denier and has said that gays should be hanged, among other things, such as the fact that New York City is overrun by blacks, and Jews.

Simple:

As a white male; be extremely racist to the point nobody wants to be around you (my dad, who has no friends), and then go for the one race of women that will appreciate for – you guessed it – your whiteness. Asian women, in return, get white skin (a cultural value) and integration (personal value) and possibly fulfills a fetish for white men, regardless of the man’s beliefs.

The white man gets a “substitute” white woman – a white skinned woman with less attitude, and more proactive in her belief that whiteness is valuable. In a way, Asian women are even more pro-white than the average white woman. 

If you are a bottom of the barrel white guy who feels like white women are too high maintenance and yet still wants to be proud to be white, and feel honored for your white blood, find an Asian woman. Not Latina, not black, not middle Eastern, but Asian. Honorary Aryans.

Are Asian women more attractive than other races of women? Of course not. Their only appeal is that they are well known for being easier to obtain if you are white.

White men / Asian women is a tradeoff; Asian women get a white lifestyle, integration into “superior” white culture- white men get to feel valued for their race. Eurasians are raised as substitute white children.

 This also explains why many half Asian criminals have expressed white-supremacist views; by and large because they aim for “upward” integration, rather than choosing to identify with a “net-negative” – or, Asian men, who are rejected by society.

🔥Asian Women Don’t Love, Part 2.

Any Asian woman reading this will know this is true. Some, who like Asian men, will read this and agree. Some, who like white men, will read this and get angry, but they know it’s true. For some reason, black women agree almost 100% of the time.

Asian women love an image.

My mother is Chinese and my father tall, blue eyed, bearded, white, with a strong jaw, a large physique, hairy arms.

But they didn’t love each other, and they never did; all they did was fight; all she did was nag him; insult him, degrade him, over, and over, and over. She used him to make herself feel better compared to her Asian peers and siblings. To feel like she was just as good as those blonde girls she saw in catalogues. White guys will deny this till the end of time but they don’t understand Asian culture. How cutthroat it is to one up your sisters, your peers, your friends. If you get a white husband you can do that. Better yet a tall, light haired husband.

I am a Eurasian son of a tall white guy and a cutthroat, soulless Asian woman so I have no reason to lie other than to voice my outright disgust for some Asian women and white men, and my embarrassment belonging to this demographic.

Asian women see that they have high value in the eyes of people like my father. All they have to do is play a game, market themselves as being traditional, subservient and get their “white lover.”

Conservative white men who are “sick” of the “liberated” behavior of white women. “Liberated” behavior pretty much just means: white women won’t be with me because white women have too high standards. They don’t like my meek behavior. 

Asian women have high standards too. 

But to them, a white guy is just a way to circumvent their search for a high standards Asian guy, and “white men” are just a step up, because they’re white. They have blonde hair. This is better than any Asian guy.

Asian women feel better about this. They feel like they’ve “made it.”

But they don’t love the man. They present an image of their marriage to the outside world but inside their homes they nag the shit out of the guy, they bully him, they pressure him to put on a show for their friends. Asian women are bottom of the barrel, mass-produced, white-worshipping trash and yet they expect their own children not to notice.

Look at the photo of my parents. My dad staring blankly at the table while the sisters chatted away. He was an accessory, a means to an end, that’s all. Why is it when you see Chinese women married to white guys, the child is shown off like a handbag – the husband nowhere to be seen? Why is it when you see these couples in public, between the bouts of PDA that makes everyone uncomfortable, they seem miserable?

They will have sex with him a few times but only as long as he keeps up the image.

Look at how many Asian women love taking trips to London and Paris, taking pictures of the buildings. This is just an image. Nothing else. The white man makes them feel like they’re just as good as the Parisian buildings, the Parisian street scenes they’ve seen in movies.

Years ago my mother took a trip to Paris, and she brought along her sister. Her sister, also, was conveniently married to a white man, and a tall one (divorced now). My dad stayed back in the office.

Their third sister was not married to a white guy. She is now a VP at a very large, very powerful investment bank and owns some of the top tier property in New York. Her husband is Chinese. She’s a devout Christian as well and arguably the prettiest in the family.

My mother? She died, she essentially willed herself to death, years after becoming so irate at my father for failing to match up with the “American dream.” He made only $40,000 a year. He was going bald. He couldn’t afford to take her on trips to Paris anymore. He even refused to live in Manhattan for fear of Jews and blacks, the place my mother loved.

When my dad went to go visit his family in his country bumpkin small town, my mother would scream about how she hated it, how she hated that small little town, where there were no street lights. She would beg to go back to Manhattan.

It wasn’t love. She only “stuck” with him as long as he provided an image. After all – she wanted a white man, so any white man could have done.

I’m surprised she didn’t cheat, to get what she wanted. And at the very end, right before she died, she hated him so much for not providing her the life she thought she could get with a 6’2″ or 6’3″ white guy, like she saw in the movies. Like many insane Asian women, she threatened to kill herself in front of me, and my brother; by holding a butcher’s knife to her arm. She would drive our car up to 100 mph on the highway and threaten to crash. She would throw knives at the wall and whisper in my ear before bed about how worthless my father was.

My wife does not like white men. She is Asian. The reason for this is as follows: she has told me that she wants “security.” She wants a quiet life where she can just raise her babies and enjoy a quiet existence. Very different from those women who dream of living abroad and mingling with white people to feel as if they’re better than their peers.

And now, as their son, I’m perpetually stuck in between. Being proud to be Asian is just ridiculous at this point. To this date, I still remember the horror of feeling so completely alone around white people, seeing Asian woman after Asian woman throwing herself at white guys. I had to actually go off to an Asian country to die, due to my self-hatred; a self-hatred instilled in me by the people around me, in my own family.

And now and then when I feel “proud” to be Asian I just think back to that moment that I realized that I was completely abandoned by the same people who are creating people just like me.  Any pride just slips away. I was robbed of a life because my mother had a fetish – that she had to marry a white man, raise me in a racist country; a white man, just because he was white, and turned out to be (since most white men prefer white women) a loser, and left my brother and I with nothing; no bed to sleep on, no roof over our heads, a father who didn’t work, and Asian looks to be humiliated and rejected over, and over, and over.

Asian woman admits her Hapa son still faces discrimination and racism even though she married a white guy

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And chances are, like my mother, she married a white guy for integration and said horrible things to Asian men in her life.

I’m far less Asian passing than this boy, and I’ve dealt with covert racism my entire life – even worse, with a back drop of extreme infighting in my family, since my mother was miserable her entire life since she didn’t actually like herself.

My question for Asian women is, behind the cover of whatever feminism or lies that they are willing to push forth about their preference for white men – what stops a child from learning the truth?

Nothing, really.

They act like they’re the first women to give birth to Hapa sons. Actually, they’ve been doing that since the 60’s. And where are the Hapa sons now? Presidents? CEO’s? They don’t exist. Vast majority of us look very Asian.

To white guys reading this: congratulations on giving up your white privilege so that you could finally feel like a man. Enjoy the next 50 years – you’re really going to need the luck.


Reddit comments:

No other interracial pairing exhibits the sick amount of casual racism and inferiority / superiority complexes as White males / Asian women.

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What it really is, is an attack on their own children, who by and large resemble Asian men.

No other racial pairing has this amount of sick behavior in it; no other interracial or monoracial pairing is based entirely on the principal of race.

 

Half Chinese girl unintentionally confirms everything I say about WMAW and their children

White father, Chinese mother. Posted on March 23rd, 2016.

“I hate my father, he’s a really, really bad person.”

“My Shanghainese family are extremely selfish.”

Father is obviously nowhere in the picture.

The girl calls herself “little princess,” yet this is probably a name given to her by the Asian women in her family, who obviously see a Eurasian child and being the monumental, soulless egotists that some Asian women are, deem her a princess – because she’s half white.

But no – they also remind her that she’s not Chinese.

Despite the fact that she looks very Asian, like most Eurasian children do. This confusion – being treated as Asian by white people, dropped off completely alone in a racist white country, and then told she’s not actually Chinese causes her immense internal pain.

Again, egotistical, sociopathic Asian women (especially from big cities) whose only goal is to gain status and integration with their white (and ALWAYS white husbands) are responsible for throwing another Eurasian down the well.

What the HELL are we supposed to do? Why do we have this horror foisted onto us?

Then there’s her dad. Obviously he’s not there. Why? Because like most Eurasians, our fathers were bottom of the barrel losers who couldn’t get white women, picked up a white worshipping Asian woman in order to pad their egos and take the easy way out of being celibate, and found out down the line that their mothers were vicious, petty people who used white men to increase their social status, to integrate into “superior white / European culture” with its beautiful accents and beautiful Parisian buildings and its afternoon tea culture, and more likely these men were incredibly racist against Asians and didn’t want the responsibility of raising a half Asian child.

White men and Asian women pairings are uniformly, and I mean uniformly, based on race and racism – the “submissive Asian woman” (submissive just means easy sex as long as you’re a white guy) and the White male. I am the son of a Chinese woman and a white man who fit this bill, and I’m not alone. There is a forum filled with thousands of us saying the same thing.

Look at the idealization of the Asian man as evidenced by the pictures on this young woman’s wall. She wants to return to Asia, to have an Asian man – a rejected Asian man – in her life in place of the sickness that her mother sought out, not giving a single FUCK about the emotional or mental wellbeing of her children.

Then there is the dressing and haircut to distance herself as far as possible from the Asian woman, the object of the father’s fetishization. Instead she seeks to replace the white male as sexual predator, the object of her intense hatred, with an Asian male – in herself. Seen it before. The product of an insane status climbing Chinese woman and an abusive, petty, and likely racist white male. If you think about how crazy the white man / Asian woman fetish dynamic is – wouldn’t you at least think that its effect on the children – having never been written about – would be HUGE?

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Where have I see the disassociation from WM/AW parents before? Oh wait, everywhere.

White men and Asian women are breeding a new race of incredibly damaged, fucked up children.

And it is not our fault – we are Asian looking children born exclusively to white, racist fathers; delusional, egotistical and narcissistic Asian mothers who believe any white man is more valuable than any Asian man, and completely rejected from both sides while being told that we’re special, unique, and beautiful – even when we’re not.

Imagine if this girl was in fact a boy – what would his life be like?

Everyone on this website has been warned…. if you think about the intense fetishization and dynamics of White males / Asian women relationships, just think about the tremendous burden onto the children. Just think about it.

This is the top half-Asian website in the world. Deal with it.

I’m going global with this.

 

🔥Why you should be very, very concerned about the behavior of half Asians with white fathers.

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Sex doesn’t care about racism.

Many Asian women want white men. Fair. Many white women only want white men. Also fair. But many half Asian sons look very Asian. And they have two parents who push a gag order on us. More often than not these couples are together out of a uniform hatred for Asian males. Nobody hates Asian men more than the white guys who love Asian women (or the white males who see Asian men as the only competition for the women that they can get, being autistic, ugly, short, emotionally damaged).

Now imagine this, times 10,000,000 across the world. There’s a bad thing coming.

There’s a reason why Half Asians with Asian dads grow up to be Bond girls and NASA scientists and economists, while half Asians with White dads grow up to shoot up – either schools, or drugs.

 

I’ll never let Asian women forget what they did to their half Asian sons

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Average beautiful “half Asian baby” all grown up.

Asian women right now make a big show of refusing to date Asian men because Asian men are ugly, unattractive, etc.

Then their kids are going to pop out full Asian looking. Don’t believe me, just Google anything related to half-Asian or Hapa issues. 

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Your little trips to the beach in Europe? Gone with your son. Ability to date whatever kind of woman you want? Gone with your son. Self esteem? Gone with your son. Ability to simply “exist” without being demeaned by white friends, made to feel like trash by Asian women? Gone with your son.

The reality is that most half Asians look totally Asian enough to realize that they’re disadvantaged. If your son looks EVEN A LITTLE BIT ASIAN, he is going to be treated like shit by society, and turned down by women, and reminded that his own mother had a fetish for white males. Even if he doesn’t look Asian he’s still going to suffer immense emotional distress growing up under a fetish couple. Society doesn’t see halves – they will seek to humiliate and denigrate your son for his Asian blood as long as he is alive. 

So for Ms. I Only Do White Guys, pray that you have a daughter. I really mean it. Or pray that I give up after a couple years instead of making this a lifelong endeavor. I spent the last twenty years in hell, twenty more is nothing to me.

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Majority of half Asian people look Asian, and will be indistinguishable from full Asians, when racists or racist women are looking to attack you or deny you for your race.

After these women have kids they start trying to teach their kids to be proud to be Asian, even though these kids are going to face the same shit from the younger versions of their Asian moms. Even worse is your sweet little Hapa baby boy is growing to grow up, hit his teens, and see Asian girls around him throwing themselves at white guys – and then you’re going to tell him that you’re different. He’ll try to ignore this website for some ten years, work on his personality, his career, everything else – but the day will come when he realizes that yes, his mom was one of those women, and no, looking like an Asian male is a death sentence. 

So this is for all you young Eurasians out there: your mother is one of those women. She was one of those women and is now.

Understand exactly what she is and treat her as such.

As for Asian women, read it and weep – you know it’s true. You don’t have kids? Oh, then, just remember these words when the day comes that you decide that you and that nice white boy you’ve been seeing are ready to have kids.

“Eurasian writer was right.” 

When you’re on the hospital bed ready to deliver.

Eurasian writer was right.”

I’m out.

 

Asian Mothers Pushing their Half-Asian Children into Television, Modeling, and Child Labor; On Modern Family’s Half-Asian ‎Aubrey Anderson-Emmons

I’ve seen a couple of these… in Asia there are a ton of mixed race babies on TV and in advertisements. The buck doesn’t stop there, now they’re doing it in America too.

I’ve noticed that this is way more prevalent with white fathers / Asian mother Eurasians, not the other way around. Liu Ye, the actor, has repeatedly said that he doesn’t want to put his gorgeous son into the spotlight despite being actually attractive. 

The reason for this is that there is a market for it. Asian mothers know they can “sell” their Eurasian babies’ faces, but we have significantly less value in the west, but in the Orient we are considered “novel” and unique looking.

This is typical of WMAW narcissist helicopter parents, who use their half-Asian “superior” babies as a means to pad their egos, by forcing us into acting roles or TV roles when we’re young. You need to understand Asian culture to get why…. Asian culture is extremely status-bent. Amy Chua’s Tiger Momming is a good example.

My mother (against the will of my father) would constantly drag me to recitals, performances, trying to get me to sign up for virtually every public event where I could be “shown off.” I hated it so much, to the extent that at this point and for the last ten years I’ve been trying to relive my stolen childhood, and at that age you practically have no free will at all, and this is just a way for Asian moms to show off that “they’ve made it” with their white husbands, their upgraded babies. You have to remember that Asian women are extremely status conscious – it’s almost at a genetic level – so having a “successful” child is the only way that they can feel validated, and what better way to validate yourself than to helicopter your kid and force them to succeed to prove to the world that you’re better.

In this case, the Asian woman wants to not only prove that she’s better than other Asians (with her multiracial baby) but better than monoracial whites (after all, she “stole” a white man), but ultimately her son is going to just face the harsh reality that most of the Eurasians he knows have white fathers. So essentially your half-Asian little boy grows up to just be a gook or a “chink with a small penis”… despite having a white father.

Being “Eurasian” is code word for “my mother, like most Asian women, believed white men superior.” Taeho’s hair coloration is identical to mine when I was his age. Light brown hair, light colored eyes. As you can see in my current photos my coloration is totally dark.

Yesterday while out a woman asked me if I was Chinese but was curious why my skin was so light. Keep in mind that I looked way whiter than Taeho at his age and STILL have been shut down by Asian and white women in America.

It’s like when people say Eurasians can “model.” Uh, no we can’t. They will just find a better looking white or Asian man to model 9 out of 10 times – unless your kid looks like a mix between David Gandy and Hao Yunxiang you are not going to have a model son. If you want to be a professional model (not an Instagram “model”) you need classically handsome features. It has nothing to do with being Eurasian – yes, there are many good looking Eurasians but that means they have good looking parents and healthy developmental periods, rather than being forced into the corner to play violin.

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To date the only Eurasian model I can think of who has had a successful print and runway career was Simon Tham, whose father is Chinese.

The mystique of being good looking when you’re mixed race is largely a lie and depends wholly on your parents and even sometimes is completely random – most of us with Asian moms look like absolute dogshit, especially when we get older. Taeho has light hair color and light eyes now – but his features will become much darker as he ages – which happened to me, as you can see from my childhood photos. Meanwhile I’ve been called “gorgeous”, “stunning,” “dashing,” while my brother is in his 30’s and a virgin.

And it doesn’t matter – even if you are a 10/10 WMAW Eurasian male model, we still suffer from depression, isolation, aloofness from our parents, from growing up under a fetish couple and a white dad, and being constantly told “oh, of course it’s your father who is white.” And then we will get shot down by racist white women, and used by racist Asian women as both a weapon to prove that their white-worship is valid…

…like when I pass an Asian woman and a white man on the street and she looks me up and down and does the “wow” face, like “that’s what we can make.” It’s gotten to the point that I just tell people my dad is Chinese now to save myself the trouble, plus it’s a lot more fun.

Taeho speaks 4 languages, likely because he is being forced to, like most children of WMAW couples who want to raise their magical “Eurasian” children. My brother had a near perfect SAT, was in the top three in his very, very famous high school, played an instrument like a professional, and now is a virgin who can’t even speak in complete sentences because of his drug abuse.

I guarantee both these kids (‎Aubrey Anderson-Emmons and Taeho) will be burnt out in 10 years. Aubrey is guaranteed to have no career past her childhood.

On reddit someone said this:

‘Success’ = doing something good, from your own heart, with your own freewill. This guy is nothing more than a trained dog at a dogshow. He’s simply an accessory for their parents to show off their ‘superiority’ – another nutjob Amy Chua basically.

Speaking of which, tomorrow I’ll discuss the differences between AMWW and WMAW Eurasians in terms of behavior and looks. Spoiler: AMWW are better.

Sticky: Asian Women and White Men: Why the Mental Health of Hapa Sons and Daughters of White Men and Asian Women Needs to be Addressed, and Why You Should Reach Out to Hapa People.

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I changed the above picture for fear of doxxing. Use this blog as an example of how troubled Hapas can be, some worse than others. I wrote this essay about two years ago, at the peak of a very, very damaging breakdown. Since then, thanks to a supportive community and a (now large) group of Eurasians putting their brains together, I have transformed this blog into a rational discussion of the dangers of hatred, the reality of race relations even in romance, and even discovered the source of why I was so crazy; my older posts (if you go back to the beginning) can be used as a representation of the kind of damage that was done to my mind, and the kind of psychosis that can be found in mixed young men and women without proper intervention. If I hadn’t started this blog, I would likely now be dead or imprisoned, and ironically by writing I found the source of the very unsettling problems I had no more than two years ago; hence I won’t change the title. If you don’t believe that I am Hapa, continue reading. I try to present the issues as honestly as I can.

I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged male – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.

Iimage1-5magine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?

In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall, red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white.

This man was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture).

I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including almost all of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men, and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade. 

My parents’ relationship was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.

When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian, and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal.

Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going  and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women, hate my Asian side, so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissecting White male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.

I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood. 

highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went.

I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.

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