If Asian women are world-famous for having "white fever" and hating Asian men, what happens when they have a son who looks Asian? I happen. This is the blog of a Dartmouth educated Eurasian son of a racist, conservative, underemployed, conspiracy theorist white man and a Hong Kong woman who had "white fever," documenting the immense damage and abuse done over 20 years of living under one of the most hateful, racist pairings on Earth. Former Neo-Nazi, former extreme racist, and yes, half Asian.
When a white man and an Asian woman have a child – the child is an Asian man, or at best bears the same “effeminate qualities” that Asian women hate.
There is no half and half on this. Society sees you as Asian – and you see yourself as Asian, yet your mother herself expressed explicit sexual preference against Asian men.
Her “preference” reflected the preference on the whole of Asian women, white women, and virtually every other kind of woman out there. Asian women know this is true – they admit it behind closed doors that they are not attracted to Asian men.
So now, your son is Asian. Welcome to a world of extreme depression at the biological reality. Just wait until he gets shot down by Asian women and white women with “sorry, I don’t do / like Asian guys.”
Looking through Youtube I saw a number of videos and channels with half-Asian male figures. It is extremely obvious that all three of them possess “gay” mannerisms. I am not cherry picking. Just go on Youtube yourself and search “half Asian.” About half will be gay, the other half won’t look that Asian or will be extremely good looking, hence appearing on Youtube in the first place.
I fully support gay people and cast no judgment on them.
What I do suggest is happening is that half Asian women are seen by society as a lot more desirable than half Asian men. It’s no secret that women like “manly” men and by no coincidence Asian men are not seen as manly.
Half Asian men, as a result, go crazy like me, commit suicide, become violent, pass entirely as white (very rare) and settle down with an average looking Asian or white girl, or become gay, if they weren’t gay already. Half Asian women obviously marry white men the majority of the time, leaving half Asian men in the dust.
Gay half Asians are essentially just as valuable to white men as half Asian women. Straight half Asian men have a hard time even just surviving – especially when their Asian side is so harshly looked down upon, so many of them hype up their white side to no avail.
I have a theory that because of the anti-Asian male nature of the parents’ relationship, a lot of half Asian men become extremely confused sexually and start to undergo psychological pressure that may or may not shape their sexuality to be “feminine” like the mothers.
See for yourself. I am not actually cherry picking. This is what happens when you look up “half Asian” on Youtube. An INORDINATE amount of them seem to have these mannerisms or are perpetually single while their Hapa costars are dating white men.
The above host is small boned, clearly Asian looking, and obviously gay or bisexual.
Questionably gay as well, in his mannerisms and method of speaking.
The bigger question is why 90% of them have White fathers and Asian mothers.
Some would say porn stars are sex workers – but doing porn, for millions to see, is a particular form of self destruction. It’s a global losing of face. Nobody really likes being the child of a white-worshipping, depraved fetish couple, so obviously the children suffer.
The short answer: White men + Asian women is a white supremacist, loaded and lopsided relationship. Even the “good” WMAF pairings try to ignore the disparity and write our identity for us and forbid us from talking about how Asian women have an easy time in White countries while Asian men don’t. That’s not even mentioning the bad WMAF, based on a fetish.
The long answer: From what I’ve heard and seen, Eurasian / half-Asian pornstars outnumber full Asian pornstars, which is insane considering our small numbers. My guess as to why this is happening is largely because half Asians feel deep anger at both their parents and themselves; we hate that our fathers are generally racist assholes; we hate that our mothers try to push us as being whiter, superior, eugenic children and use us to fulfill their twisted agendas; we hate that our Asian mothers try to control us with devastating psychological mind games where our race is something they both view as a commodity, and as something they resent (being lowly Asian women, themselves). The situation is duplicitous and disgusting, even if the parents don’t mean it. The relationship itself is so loaded and so self-assuring and smug in itself (“my children will be beautiful Eurasian superhumans”) that oftentimes self-destruction is the only way to get away from such cringey people. Or even, the only way to fight back and reclaim our power and autonomy.
Not to mention, of course, the tremendous confusion and self-image issues that come with being half Asian, which I’ve described before, and given the very nuanced nature of Asian self hatred (something no other race has) it definitely manifests in us.
Below is the list (as far as I know). The pornstars with Asian fathers are listed in bold. You can thank /r/Hapas for helping out.
Amai Liu (American / Asian / Hawaiian)
Angel Valentine (Filipina / Spanish)
Asia Carrera – Japanese/German
Ava Devine – Chinese/Italian/Spanish
Coco Velvett (Asian / Italian)
Eva Lovia (Japanese/White (Spanish))
Jade Hsu – Korean/white
Katsuni – French/Vietnamese
Kianna Dior – Korean/Canadian
Kira Kener – Norwegian/Vietnamese
Kira Sinn 1/2 Filipina, 1/2 Caucasian
London Keyes – Japanese/white
Mai Ly (Chinese / French-German)
May Li (Kelly Baltazar)
Mena Li / Mena Mason
Michelle Maylene – Filipino/French/Hawaiian
Reina Lee (Brazilian / Australian)
Roxy Jezel – English/Thai (Her father is Thai)
Ryaan Reynolds (Filipino mom, Creole Dad)
Sakura Scott (Japanese mom / American father)
Sasha Yung is a Filipina / Caucasian (admitted to being molested?)
Soolin Kelter ( aka Devin Lee, Jessica Kelter ) is a scorching hot Chinese / Austrian
Tera Patrick – Thai/English/Dutch WMAF
Tia Tanaka – French/Vietnamese
Emily Parker (Japanese / English / Spanish)
Kimora Klein (Black father / Asian mom?)
Taryn Kemp (birthplace, Thailand, so take a wild guess)
Alex Dane (this one is an oldie, and a sad story, as it says she was born in the Philippines. Can anyone say “left behind spawn of a hooker and a sexpat?”)
This is the second public suicide of a half-Asian in one month.
Imagine if something was true: i.e., that half-Asians are born from Asian women who believed Asian men to be inferior, that integration was integral to a life of happiness, and give birth to half Asian sons who get bullied, consistently reminded by their own immediate families of their low self worth, and yet people refused to admit this could potentially be disastrous for their young sons because it would mean they had to deprive themselves of pleasure. How predictable.
White father, Chinese mother. Posted on March 23rd, 2016.
“I hate my father, he’s a really, really bad person.”
“My Shanghainese family are extremely selfish.”
Father is obviously nowhere in the picture.
The girl calls herself “little princess,” yet this is probably a name given to her by the Asian women in her family, who obviously see a Eurasian child and being the monumental, soulless egotists that some Asian women are, deem her a princess – because she’s half white.
But no – they also remind her that she’s not Chinese.
Despite the fact that she looks very Asian, like most Eurasian children do. This confusion – being treated as Asian by white people, dropped off completely alone in a racist white country, and then told she’s not actually Chinese causes her immense internal pain.
Again, egotistical, sociopathic Asian women (especially from big cities) whose only goal is to gain status and integration with their white (and ALWAYS white husbands) are responsible for throwing another Eurasian down the well.
What the HELL are we supposed to do? Why do we have this horror foisted onto us?
Then there’s her dad. Obviously he’s not there. Why? Because like most Eurasians, our fathers were bottom of the barrel losers who couldn’t get white women, picked up a white worshipping Asian woman in order to pad their egos and take the easy way out of being celibate, and found out down the line that their mothers were vicious, petty people who used white men to increase their social status, to integrate into “superior white / European culture” with its beautiful accents and beautiful Parisian buildings and its afternoon tea culture, and more likely these men were incredibly racist against Asians and didn’t want the responsibility of raising a half Asian child.
White men and Asian women pairings are uniformly, and I mean uniformly, based on race and racism – the “submissive Asian woman” (submissive just means easy sex as long as you’re a white guy) and the White male. I am the son of a Chinese woman and a white man who fit this bill, and I’m not alone. There is a forum filled with thousands of us saying the same thing.
Look at the idealization of the Asian man as evidenced by the pictures on this young woman’s wall. She wants to return to Asia, to have an Asian man – a rejected Asian man – in her life in place of the sickness that her mother sought out, not giving a single FUCK about the emotional or mental wellbeing of her children.
Then there is the dressing and haircut to distance herself as far as possible from the Asian woman, the object of the father’s fetishization. Instead she seeks to replace the white male as sexual predator, the object of her intense hatred, with an Asian male – in herself. Seen it before. The product of an insane status climbing Chinese woman and an abusive, petty, and likely racist white male. If you think about how crazy the white man / Asian woman fetish dynamic is – wouldn’t you at least think that its effect on the children – having never been written about – would be HUGE?
White men and Asian women are breeding a new race of incredibly damaged, fucked up children.
And it is not our fault – we are Asian looking children born exclusively to white, racist fathers; delusional, egotistical and narcissistic Asian mothers who believe any white man is more valuable than any Asian man, and completely rejected from both sides while being told that we’re special, unique, and beautiful – even when we’re not.
Imagine if this girl was in fact a boy – what would his life be like?
Everyone on this website has been warned…. if you think about the intense fetishization and dynamics of White males / Asian women relationships, just think about the tremendous burden onto the children. Just think about it.
This is the top half-Asian website in the world. Deal with it.
I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged, meek, conspiracy theorist male – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.
If you don’t think this website is valid – go to Reddit.com/r/hapas, which received 9 million views in 2 years, and 1.1 million views in the first month of 2017. Also – find half Asians with Asian fathers and compare their behavior to those with Asian mothers.
Imagine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?
In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall (6’3″, skinny), red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white; their entire marriage was violent, loveless, and calculating.
This man was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture).
I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including almost all of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men (the majority of whom are racists, Republicans, or short and or meek), and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade.
My parents’ relationship was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself with a butcher knife in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.
When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian (scowling at me on the street, or smirking), and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal.
Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women,hate my Asian side,so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissectingWhite male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.
I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood.
I highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went.
I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.
I think it’s time to admit that half-Asian sons have a problem before this gets worse, and it is getting worse; this brings the tally of half Asians to make national news in 2016, to 6.
All of them with white fathers. Let me reiterate: there were 6 half-Asians in the news in the year 2016, alone.
It is February 26th, meaning we are 57 days into the year 2016, and there have been 6 major incidents that have made national news.
Six out of six of these incidents involved half Asian children with white fathers.
Six out of six.
There will be more incidents this year involving half Asians.
They will be uniformly young, more or less in Elliot Rodger’s age bracket.
All of them will have white fathers.
Read this here, on this website: each and every one of them will have a white father.
These are not black criminals committing terrible crimes; these are the sons of white men and Asian women – the supposed master-race of beautiful, talented Eurasians.
Do I need to get into why, again?
Read the blog:
the collision between race fetishism, emasculation, white supremacy, self-hatred, mental illness, cultural and racial confusion, racial bullying, isolation at being mixed race, the Asian mother bad-mouthing Asian men, lack of Asian friendships, lack of Hapa friendships, the white father’s racism, the sexual dynamics between mother and father, the colonialism, the lack of resemblance to ones own parents, and depression are routine in Hapas. Not rare, but routine.
It’s farcical how Asian women intend to instill in us a proper sense of value and self worth when our entire existence is based on how inferior the genes of Asian males are, yet we by and large resemble Asian males.
Listen to me very, very carefully. Read the following words next as if they were written by the Queen mother herself:
I know exactly what I’m talking about when I say that being mixed race is much, much more traumatic than our parents could ever realize, and we have almost no outlet and no resources at all.
The mental illness evident on the early pages of this blog are proof enough that something is amiss, not just in me – but the half-Asian demographic at large.
I am Eurasian. I am not the white man who can take and pick any Asian woman he pleases. In order for me to develop a healthy identity – I must be proud of my Asian heritage. My mother, western culture, and Asian women around me made it very, very difficult to accept myself.
I am cream of the crop – highly educated.
At my very lowest, the feeling of being so alone, so aloof, undesirable, betrayed, self-hating and confused, that I can say with accuracy that I was not in control of myself anymore. I’d hate to say it – but Eurasians are completely unique in our situation as opposed to other mixes, and we, and I – at one point – posed a danger to ourselves and those around us.
My blog originated in 2014. In 2009 I was at the peak of my “crazy” behavior (i.e. losing 60 pounds in 3 months, having extreme body image issues as a man, and overall attempting to be white).
In 2009, people were already noticing this. If any of the readers here actually went out and met some Hapas, they would start noticing certain patterns.
Largely – it’s a difficult proposition to navigate the world as a half-Asian child, born under the conditions that white fathers were better than Asians. Look at it from this perspective.
Your half Asian son sees white women laughing at Asian men – then sees Asian women laughing at Asian men – and then sees his own mother married to a white man, and all her friends married to white men.
If my readers think that this line of thought is largely limited to me, or this blog, you’re sorely mistaken.
Any white fathers / Asian mothers who believed that they were truly innocent would be attempting to nip this in the bud now, rather than wait. But in actuality, this is the truth:
These people actually do believe that white men are superior – yet raise half Asian children. The probability of us being resentful of our parents, angry, mentally unbalanced or manic depressive is very, very high.
NEW YORK (CBSNewYork) — A suspect has been arrested and charged in the slashing of a man in the East Village this past weekend, and he has also been accused in another similar incident.
The suspect was identified as Francis Salud, 28. He is originally from Queens, but has been living in Lower Manhattan, police said.
Salud was charged with assault, police said.
Detectives had been investigating an attack on Anthony Smith, 30, on East 6th Street this past Saturday when they identified Salud as a person of interest.
He is already charged with slashing someone behind Bellevue Hospital Center back on Oct. 18, but he was out on bail this past weekend. Police said he slashed the victim on the left side of his body in that incident, and the victim required 73 stitches. The attack came from a dispute over a cigarette, 1010 WINS’ Al Jones reported.
This website will hopefully last for the next few decades. I leave it for whites, blacks, Hapas, and aware-Asians to realize exactly what kind of people are raising Hapas. I intend for it to ultimately be the number one search result for “half Asian issues.”
So far, criticism towards me has been: I’m crazy, I’m misogynistic and my problem isn’t my race, but my attitude.
I am the product of my parents; racist, vile people who got together on the principle of race. I was never destined to be a lovey-dovey person. I am exactly what comes out of an Asian woman who is dense enough to stereotype all Asian men the same way (they’re all violent, they’re all undesirable). Her genes are mine. And now this website will persist in exposing what happens when they reproduce.
I leave you with this quote:
And its the Hapa sons who face it head on. We’ve seen both side. The white men laughingly mocking how Asian men are less than men. And the Asian women who powerfully reinforce it by repeatedly stating that all they want in a man, is that he not be Asian. The fact that these 2 deviants are raising Half Asian sons, is a great tragedy. It is only getting worse.
It’s absolutely terrifying considering who is raising Half Asian sons. Not all, many are loving couples, but there are enough to have brought into the world a new massive demographic that will come of age in the next two decades.
If you knew any, you’d realize Asian women who only date White men are vicious people who make it well known to the world that they think Asian men are inferior. White men are well known for their hatred of Asian men, since even the lowest, shortest, bald eat white guy still outranks the best Asian guy in his mind.
What is happening is that half Asian sons are being born to people who are openly admitting that Asian men are inferior. If you think this won’t damage a child permanently, think again.
Ask any Asian woman with a white male what she thinks of Asian men and you will be terrified to realize she is raising an Asian looking son. Go ahead, I challenge you to do it.
The white men who get with these women are bottom of the barrel white men (short, bald, ugly, or autistic) who use Asian female psychopathy to their advantage (my dad being an autistic loser who used my mother’s status climbing to his benefit in getting married, only to see her become gradually more and more insane). They know that these women turn down Asian men, yet they too raise Asian looking sons and make a mockery of Asian men. It’s not wonder Hapas as a whole are so screwed up.
The parents are parents of hatred, not of love. Hatred for white women, hatred of Asian men, hatred of Asian culture; biculturalism was an afterthought.
Being Hapa was just a myth, a slogan, made up by Asian women to give a name to the things they were creating with their hatred.
I leave you with this quote from another Hapa:
Its 2 things.
All other races of women have a strong preference for their own race. Asian women are the ONLY women not to, and so they stick out on this. They are unique. People keep trying to say they are not so different from other minority women. But the outmarriage stats speak for themselves. Asians are special, in a bad way.
If one Asian woman had a preference for white men, it wouldn’t necessarily mean anything. Like if an Indian woman had a fetish for Native American men. The problem is that its because so widespread, to the point that in some areas over half of Asian women outmarry, that its impossible not to see it as against Asian men.
Asian women in WMAF as a collective population, have made clear that Asian men are the least attractive race of males. But then the sons born of this marriage, are still considered Asian males.You know this is true, since you yourself are a 100% Asian-looking Hapa woman. Being an Asian-looking man, born out of a relationship that is anti-Asian male, is extremely traumatic. And thats what much of the suffering on **** is about.
No one has ever said AFs should be required to date AM. But all the Hapa angst you see on this subreddit, is the result of AFs making their choices so ruthlessly, without considering the consequences for the mental health of their own offspring.
This is just going to be a major case of “I told you so.” This has no precedent demographically ever.
At this point I am just putting out these posts to fill the gaps in the search engines for these issues, hence the excessive tagging… for a long time coming. The point of this site is to exist for at least another decade, and my ultimate goal is to make this into the premier website on half-Asian issues, replace all previous discussion of half-Asian issues (e.g., the Kip Fulbeck Camp, Hapavoices, etc.) and so far everything is going according to plan.
I need to reiterate that my dad is racist. He very much hates black people; when buying a Christmas gift yesterday I had to avoid making a certain purchase because I didn’t want to buy a very well known brand owned by a very prominent rapper (now owned by Apple). I went with a lesser known brand because I knew he would never use the aforementioned “black brand.”
My father is also a Holocaust denier, constantly talks about the immigrant crisis in Syria, refers to black people as “the blacks,” so on and so forth. Luckily he’s not a Trump supporter as he believes that Trump is overcome with greed – an anti-Christian principle.
Luckily my dad was never racist against Asians, but apparently there are a lot of white men in relationships with Asian women who hate Asian men even worse. The potential blowback for this is massive.
Anyways, racist white men often times seek out Asian women. Why?
A) Asian women are well known to defer to white men, rarely to black men.
B) Asian women are known for their “traditional values”; i.e., they love living in white countries, and are outspoken in their hatred for black people and are not notorious as white women (although this is a myth) for sleeping with black men.
C) Like Dylan Roof said, Asians are an “honorable race.” Hence their women are honorable women. The only basis for their “honor” would be their perceived value of whiteness.
D) White men with extreme racist views cannot attract white women; so they go for Asian women, who will forgive their views in exchange for whiter babies, (likely before summarily dropping their husbands, like mother did). The whiter babies will then be raised as white, like Marcus Epstein.
E) The largest irony is that Asians are seen as “genetically the most similar” to whites, (my dad has told me that “East and West are the same”), so the children have a much higher chance of looking white (or in my case, whitish), so it’s essentially killing two birds with one stone.
Do not fall for this! I will make sure this website dominates Google rankings from here on in to ensure that these crimes do not go unpunished! If you know people like this, cut them out of your life, but do not blame the children.