If Asian women are world-famous for having "white fever" and hating Asian men, what happens when they have a son who looks Asian? I happen. This is the blog of a Dartmouth educated Eurasian son of a racist, conservative, underemployed, conspiracy theorist white man and a Hong Kong woman who had "white fever," documenting the immense damage and abuse done over 20 years of living under one of the most hateful, racist pairings on Earth.
These are among my last posts on this website, and I call them the “Holy Grail” because they’re the first and last thing you need to read on half Asian people; or on understanding that couple that makes you vaguely uncomfortable; or on understanding that weird half Asian friend you have;or because you have a twinge of disgust when seeing Amy Chua; and I hope they are as vicious as I think they are.
Asian women repeatedly have demonstrated two interesting behavioral patterns:
Hoping that their children pass as white. 1, 2, 3. (Or look at the spammer in the comments for this behavior in real time).
Treat Asian-passing Eurasian males with Asian mothers with the same hostility they display for Asian men.
I have experienced this first hand. I look Asian enough that Asian women have insulted me to my face, time after time. Keep in mind that even listing “Asian” on dating profiles, or saying you are half Asian – is enough to make most Asian American and white women treat you terribly – now imagine having your own mother as “one of those women.”
Over time there have been posts on Reddit demonstrating over, and over, that Asian women view Half Asian men with the same repulsion and distain as full Asians. It’s a tragedy that these women will, in ten years, raise half Asian sons.
As you read this, remind yourself that ten, twenty years ago, these women also existed, and have by now given birth to millions of half Asian sons – many of whom are coming of age right now.
Congratulations, monsters. You gave birth to… monsters.
It seems that everywhere I look – I see stories more like mine. Whenever I look up half Asian celebrities with white dads, more often than not these guys’ fathers are nowhere around.
Sometimes it’s the other way around with the Asian mother bailing (very common). My home was filled with violence after my mother – who married my white father in order to rebel, and to feel like she “made it” with a white man – realized that he was just a balding guy who was too paranoid of the world ending to make money (seriously) and would eat entire bags of chips at one time (which she hated).
The reason for this is largely because the relationships between white men / Asian women is largely based on hate and status, not love.
What happens is this; the man is blinded by his desire for sex and companionship, and fails to realize that a woman being with him largely because he is white – in order to give her Eurasian babies (and thus to make her life feel meaningful and to boost her status) – and fails to realize that Asian women are some of the most vicious and cruel people in the world; so once the children are born, she will start to become extremely verbally abusive, like my mother.
Wouldn’t it make more sense for a woman to prefer her own race? White women do. So why don’t Asian women? Why is it that Asian women – and only Asian women – are desperate to remove their Asianness?
The majority of WMAW marriages aren’t high class. Many like my parents are somewhere in the middle. There’re a lot of trashy girls who just sleep their way through every white guy they find; others date only rich white men; others latch onto the first tall white guy that they can find. Mine was more about a woman latching onto a white man in an attempt to integrate into her new home.
My parents had a broken marriage. The reason for this is obvious – my mother was a hateful, callous, bitter person who wanted a white man because she felt insecure with her appearance and because she felt a white man would give her that “rebellious” edge that she wanted, plus she wanted to be able to feel integrated and “successful” having a tall, skinny, redhaired man at her side.
The big problem with this is that she didn’t actually love him – she loved what he represented. Integration. Status. Rebellion. Whiteness. The big problem was that my father was from a redneck state; he had grown up literally in the woods, and was one of those guys who had “an affinity for nature,” hated the big cities, and had extremely outdated views and agoraphobic behavior – making Asian culture, and Asian women, with their famed introversion – an ideal choice.
If you don’t believe me – ask any Asian woman in a relationship with a white man what she thinks of Asian culture and Asian men – she will respond with HATE.
Hate is not love.
So ten years later – she realized that her “marriage” was nothing but one based on hatred, fetishization, or trying to chase that impossible dream of having a white man, a European man, that represented everything she could dream of – and one child with incredible emotional problems who looked very Asian, and another child, who looked nothing like her – who she essentially emotionally abandoned.
When I was around twelve, and my mother was on her death bed, she begged all of my Asian family to take me – to take me away from my father, and to remove any vestige of custody or connection I and my father had, I guess, being her last attempt at “kidnapping” me, to take me away from a man she never really loved, but only used, but realized was literally incapable of being a good father or a good man. And like a regretful Asian mother would do, she gave me a “Chinese” middle name that would help me recognize that I was Asian – but why do that, if Asian males weren’t good enough?
So my parents, like most of the Eurasian people I know – come from broken homes, since our mothers, being hot blooded Asian women, just couldn’t stand that the guys they were married were white guys who for some reason couldn’t get white women, or for some reason just had this weird entitlement to Asian women (extreme racism, need to dominate and control).
The biggest problem is that most of the time, we their children, aren’t able to fully integrate thanks to the perpetual foreigner stereotype and hostility towards Asianness.
90% of WMAW marriages are based on lust, whirlwind fetish romances, etc., and the marriages inevitably disintegrate because of culture clashes – i.e., the Asian woman not realizing the white men who seek them out are generally lower quality, and the white man not realizing just how obsessed with status and money Asians are – or even worse, not realizing how rampant mental illness and race / status climbing is in Asian culture) – so you have tons of confused Eurasians coming from utterly devastated homesteads.
Broken homes + broken people = broken demographic. Enjoy what’s coming.
It’s a very far cry from the promised Eurasian takeover, or master race.
There is no Eurasian takeover. The vast majority of Eurasians look very Asian, and come from broken homes with no parental support, and hate filled households.
It seems even the opposite holds more weight, even if you believe in really nasty stereotypes; that Asian men only marry because of their money. That being said – a Eurasian child from a wealthy household, with two parents that are together – is better off than some bastard Eurasian with a self hating mother.
When a white man and an Asian woman have a child – the child is an Asian man, or at best bears the same “effeminate qualities” that Asian women hate.
There is no half and half on this. Society sees you as Asian – and you see yourself as Asian, yet your mother herself expressed explicit sexual preference against Asian men.
Her “preference” reflected the preference on the whole of Asian women, white women, and virtually every other kind of woman out there. Asian women know this is true – they admit it behind closed doors that they are not attracted to Asian men.
So now, your son is Asian. Welcome to a world of extreme depression at the biological reality. Just wait until he gets shot down by Asian women and white women with “sorry, I don’t do / like Asian guys.”
Looking through Youtube I saw a number of videos and channels with half-Asian male figures. It is extremely obvious that all three of them possess “gay” mannerisms. I am not cherry picking. Just go on Youtube yourself and search “half Asian.” About half will be gay, the other half won’t look that Asian or will be extremely good looking, hence appearing on Youtube in the first place.
I fully support gay people and cast no judgment on them.
What I do suggest is happening is that half Asian women are seen by society as a lot more desirable than half Asian men. It’s no secret that women like “manly” men and by no coincidence Asian men are not seen as manly.
Half Asian men, as a result, go crazy like me, commit suicide, become violent, pass entirely as white (very rare) and settle down with an average looking Asian or white girl, or become gay, if they weren’t gay already. Half Asian women obviously marry white men the majority of the time, leaving half Asian men in the dust.
Gay half Asians are essentially just as valuable to white men as half Asian women. Straight half Asian men have a hard time even just surviving – especially when their Asian side is so harshly looked down upon, so many of them hype up their white side to no avail.
I have a theory that because of the anti-Asian male nature of the parents’ relationship, a lot of half Asian men become extremely confused sexually and start to undergo psychological pressure that may or may not shape their sexuality to be “feminine” like the mothers.
See for yourself. I am not actually cherry picking. This is what happens when you look up “half Asian” on Youtube. An INORDINATE amount of them seem to have these mannerisms or are perpetually single while their Hapa costars are dating white men.
The above host is small boned, clearly Asian looking, and obviously gay or bisexual.
Questionably gay as well, in his mannerisms and method of speaking.
Because of the nature of WMAW – Its politics, its conservative nature, the weird, grabbish quality the white males lord over their children, the fact that these kids are being abandoned in droves by their racist white fathers. – I think it’s fair to point out that the hapa children of white men – without proper intervention from EVERYONE – are going to prove to be a national security risk.
This is the second public suicide of a half-Asian in one month.
Imagine if something was true: i.e., that half-Asians are born from Asian women who believed Asian men to be inferior, that integration was integral to a life of happiness, and give birth to half Asian sons who get bullied, consistently reminded by their own immediate families of their low self worth, and yet people refused to admit this could potentially be disastrous for their young sons because it would mean they had to deprive themselves of pleasure. How predictable.
All – and I mean ALL – of the good looking, successful Eurasian men on Instagram have Asian dads.
All the others are women (naturally) who have a much easier time in life being Eurasian women(link to a post written by a half-Asian girl about how she openly admits her life is easier that her brothers).
The other men, with Asian moms?
Gay, or single.
It makes sense actually.
People do not understand the psychological toll of growing up under a white man / Asian woman depraved fetish couple, yet looking even vaguely Asian. If you don’t believe me just go meet some Eurasians – most of us are born from bottom of the barrel white-worshipping trash and opportunistic white males, so we really are the product of our parents.
Don’t listen to WMAW couples when they try to defend themselves. Just watch how they act in public, ask the father about his political affiliations or see if he has MRA or MGTOW tendencies, look at how the Asian mom defers to the white man… it’s a recipe for disaster.
The above movie “Chink,” from 2013, features a Eurasian male character played by a Eurasian actor Jason Tobin (white father, Asian mother), and features his obsession with white women, his hatred of his own blood and his murder of full Asian men. Why? Because this is the exact message Asian women send to their own sons.
Every single time an Asian woman says “ew, Asian men,” they by proxy attack the half-Asian male children of Asian women that said the same thing twenty years earlier. It’s a time loop that is going to cause more and more Eurasian suicides, mental illness, murderers and violence.
And if you think that Eurasian people don’t look Asian… Jason Tobin, the actor, looks fully Asian despite being half. So what will an Asian mother who “only dates” white men tell her own son who looks totally Asian?
I’d love to be proud, but it’s this insanely ironic.
Did you scratch your head wondering why this happened?
I’ll explain it in less than 300 words given my experiences. Frankly don’t listen to Asian women when they try to write the half Asian 混血儿 story for us. Don’t listen to anyone’s telling of the half-Asian experience other than the one found on this blog, because they’re frankly either lying or don’t want to admit it (ahem: Asian women).
It’s because being half Asian is just an excuse for Asian women having “white fever.” Half Asian men aren’t more attractive, white men (even the biggest losers like my dad) are more attractive, and half-Asian sons are just the “best case scenario” when a white man and an Asian woman have children.
Every time I try to look in the mirror and accept my black hair that sticks up straight, my dark eyes, my Chinese blood and my heritage, all I have to do is go outside.
I see thousands of Asian women throwing themselves at white men, talking awful shit about Asian guys on dating sites, and then I remind myself that I too have a western last name. I then think back to the times I was turned down by white AND Asian women for being half Asian.
Tell me: what pride would I take in being Asian? It’s so much easier to just identify as Russian or white or even Uzbek. Since white men are “so handsome,” why not just identify totally as white?
So whenever you hear or see Hapa mamas tearfully complaining about how their own little boys scream “I’m not Chinese!”, why the hell would we want to be part of a losing team?
Ever wonder why Nathan Adrian hardly ever talks about his Asian heritage?
Every wonder why Markiplier rarely talks about it either, despite him having a brother who looks totally Asian?
Every wonder why Markiplier is way more successful than his totally Asian looking brother?
Because nobody wants to be on the losing team. Again, we’re on the fast track to producing another mass murderer, encouraging more half-Asian suicides, throwing half Asian children down an incredible well, and yet nobody is listening, and yes, this criminal is going to have a white father and an Asian mother, just like the last 15 of them.
More reason to be proud of being born from two fetishists. I don’t really care if you’re spectacularly handsome or not – it’s still really weird to have a white father and an Asian mother that look exactly like a stereotype.
We’re using an iPhone English teaching app a lot around here – (I don’t teach, my wife does) – so I hear a lot of her conversations, as well as the recorded lessons that each teacher has automatically uploaded to his or her profile after she or he is done.
This one wasn’t surprising, and was a Chinese girl (teacher) talking with another Chinese girl.
“I met my boyfriend in London.” (Surprise surprise guy is blond).
“We fells in love.”
“I tell him to move to Beijing with me.”
“Our baby will be sooo beautiful.” (Narcissism, with absolutely zero concern for the mental wellbeing of a child raised by a white dude or the concerns of us in being raised by such overbearing fetishistic weirdos.)
“But I don’t want to have baby.” (Even more narcissism, white dude is just a handbag, secondary to her… dreams, or whatever).
“My boyfriend is soooo stupid.” (Classic insulting and belittling of the white guy*).
*The last bit is interesting. I see this a lot, even with my own mother’s utter disrespect and hatred of my father. Whenever I see White men / Asian women couples – despite them swearing to be in love – there is an air of hostility involved. I really don’t know why. It might be because of the dweebish behavior of the white guys who chase Asian women, hence she doesn’t respect him, or because of any myriad number of factors that make it not about love, since it’s really not – it’s more of a fantasy. The ultimate reason is probably because it’s a matrimony of hate. Hatred of Asian men. There is really no love involved here.
Keep in mind that when you’re an Asian woman seeking out a white guy and only a white guy – literally any white guy would do – so you grow resentful of him when he doesn’t match up to your needs (your needs being: providing a white looking baby, feeling like a white Princess, or even better, actually being white, which is impossible).
I’m actually surprised that my mother never cheated on my father, but I really have no idea about this as I would have been way too young to remember anyways.
In my family there are several Asian women (all well below average looking, but in a non-sexual way, like wearing sweatpants, sweatshirts, big teeth, big jaws, constantly screaming at their father or brother) who are ALL involved with white men.
Each and every one of these white guys has something wrong with them. One is 5’5″, and this extremely neurotic old school tri-state type guy who has Giuliani era conservative beliefs. Whenever he is in the car with his wife she is literally SCREAMING at him while she is driving. (Obviously she’s driving).
The other Asian women in the family are with these guys who are either extremely, extremely awkward and mousy, despite being tall and blond, making absolutely poor money, while another is this tall guy with a speech impediment.
When at family dinners and their husbands / boyfriends aren’t there, they literally are mouthing off on them constantly, and I mean constantly, about how pathetic they are. My guess is that since a lot of these men are Jewish or otherwise such low-self esteem having weirdos, they somehow get aroused by the abuse as it possibly reminds them of their mothers.
Just reminds me of how when I was younger my mother would come to my bedside and just absolutely tear into my father (who was sleeping on the couch) about how he was such a loser, ate entire bags of chips at one time, had several phobias (I won’t list them here for fear of being doxxed).
It really makes sense, because when you are so filled with hate for yourself you become incapable of loving another person – including your white husband.
I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged, meek, conspiracy theorist male – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.
If you don’t think this website is valid – go to Reddit.com/r/hapas, which received 9 million views in 2 years, and 1.1 million views in the first month of 2017. Also – find half Asians with Asian fathers and compare their behavior to those with Asian mothers.
Imagine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?
In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall (6’3″, skinny), red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white; their entire marriage was violent, loveless, and calculating.
This man was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture).
I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including almost all of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men (the majority of whom are racists, Republicans, or short and or meek), and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade.
My parents’ relationship was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself with a butcher knife in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.
When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian (scowling at me on the street, or smirking), and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal.
Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women,hate my Asian side,so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissectingWhite male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.
I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood.
I highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went.
I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.