Hanna (PoisonIvyLul), the psychopath who is manipulating men into suicide and abuse, is WMAF Hapa

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Explaining the behavior of Eurasians – which seem to be increasingly present in global news stories, with 100% allocation to the children of White men and Asian women – is very difficult to properly verbalize unless you lived it. The common theme seems to be rage, power, sex, racism, and a need to control. 

I think it’s also important to note that none of this applies to the children of Asian men and white women – who though far from perfect – have almost never produced anything so bad as the people we see nowadays. I don’t think they’ve produced anything bad at all. They’ve produced good things, normal things, while people like me and Hanna are running around like maniacs self destructing. Why?

Asian man + White woman = normal, equal couple, and probably better than normal due to the atypical masculinity found in Asian male culture. Unbeknownst to me when I started blogging – I wasn’t even aware until this year that women were actually attracted to Asian men.

White man + Asian woman = so many different elements at work.

The best way that I can explain what Hanna is and was doing is to surmise that she is the daughter of a beta, racist white guy – the kind that goes specifically for Asian women out of his entitlement, and need to control, and an Asian woman who marries specifically white for the intent of having white babies*, and to raise her status within society; of course, this isn’t merely as simple as that, and the psychosexual nature of these relationships must be considered, where the Asian woman subjects herself to the worst kinds of white men imaginable, and even encourages her daughter to also marry white – because by and large, many Asian women are truly anti-feminist, and even anti-women, with their main goal by and large to integrate and to obtain power. As I said, Asian women feel begrudged that formerly being high status in Asian society, wish to be high status in Western society – and so will do anything to obtain it, including encouraging their own daughters to submit to an insanely racist society.

In my case, my father was an incredibly dysfunctional white man, and my mother tolerated it for the purpose, by and large, of having non-Asian children; the stipulation for my entire life was that I survive merely by being white, and she failed to consider the role that having a loser father would instill in my brain. I.e., I was never prepared to deal with the real world and raised to rely solely on my “whitened” looks (which thank God, helped me survive my first eighteen years with good socialization).

But society is still racist – and Hanna still felt that. Look at how many people on her Twitter were calling her “chink” and “go back to China.” She’s half-Asian, but still viewed as 100% Asian, like many of us are. And as beautiful and as kind as we are, we still deal with such horrible people as parents. So what better way to fight back than to control.

Asian women want control when they marry white men, and white men want control when they marry Asian women. So naturally, the children inherit this. I certainly did when I tried to figure out who and why I was and singlehandedly changed the landscape of identity politics in two years. 

So anyways, Hanna decided to take control – to fight back against both racism, which her mother encouraged by being a geisha slave to white supremacy and white men – and to take back her own autonomy, by controlling the lives of men.

Beta men like her father, the kind who feel entitled to Asian women and feel that despite being such monumental losers, Asian women are still willing to submit to them.

Another thing I’d like to point out is that half Asians oftentimes feel extreme resentment against the roles that we are expected to play, oftentimes encouraged by our parents; i.e., if the father sees Asian women as being traditional, submissive geishas, the daughters will rebel – especially when the mothers encourage the daughters to continue this role of submission to white men. ‘Tis complicated.

Something important to note: the most famous figure in some fetish called “financial domination”  was Eurasian.


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* I say “white babies” because I am not sure if Asian women really want white babies, or Eurasian babies. Asian women feel less pretty than white women, for sure. This is acknowledged. They feel inferior to white people. However, they also seem to react negatively to Asian looking Hapas as well. They don’t seem to acknowledge that Asian people can be very beautiful as well, even more so than white people. Hanna was very pretty as well as looking totally Asian. Her self esteem must have been afronted by her mother – who insisted that she submit to whiteness, something that Hanna probably didn’t want. This was my case, too. I always felt more beautiful than whites, hence my incredible anger at being encouraged to submit to them – by Asian women. Regardless, there is also the issue of Eurasian children oftentimes being far more beautiful than the mother – but also resembling full Asians, so the resentment can be both compounded as well as confused.

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Another Hapa / Half Asian murderer; this time female, February 12th, 2016

Link here.

Another one, bringing this year’s total tally up to 5, for 2016 alone; that is 5 incidents involving mixed race Asians in 2016 alone.

I’ve said it once, I’ll say it again: people underestimate the mental trauma and damage that growing up in a racist household will do to you. There’s almost no way I can really quantify it other than saying it’s a combination of many different factors. They also underestimate the trauma of cultural confusion / self-hatred / colonialism / poor-fathering / aloofness from the parents / mother’s maladapted comments on whiteness and white features / psychosexual underpinnings from your parents, and the general state of mental illness among Asian American women that is inherited by their children.

This is all leading up to another major incident involving a Hapa child that will be very, very, very, very bad, and hopefully this blog will be in place to explain exactly why these incidents are occurring at the rate they do.

Let me say, when you’re at a point that you are unable to look at your own reflection in the mirror because you feel white, but people still dig into you, trying to pin you as Asian… your mind is not in the right spot.

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Dorothy Dutiel shot and killed her girlfriend May Kieu before Kieu could break up with her. Dutiel then turned the gun on herself, committing suicide. The two girls were 15-year-old sophomores at Independence High School in Glendale, Arizona. The horror unfolded there just before 8 a.m. on February 10. The couple had known each other since the 5th grade and begun dating in the 8th when Dutiel says she, “was too scared to verbally ask her. So I wrote it on a sticky note and she said yes.”

On Racist White Men with Asian Women; Nicholas Folke

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Above is a picture of Nicholas Folke, founder of some kind of movement to oppose Chinese immigration and multiculturalism in Australia. He has a young Asian daughter. 

At this point I am just putting out these posts to fill the gaps in the search engines for these issues, hence the excessive tagging… for a long time coming. The point of this site is to exist for at least another decade, and my ultimate goal is to make this into the premier website on half-Asian issues, replace all previous discussion of half-Asian issues (e.g., the Kip Fulbeck Camp, Hapavoices, etc.) and so far everything is going according to plan.

I need to reiterate that my dad is racist. He very much hates black people; when buying a Christmas gift yesterday I had to avoid making a certain purchase because I didn’t want to buy a very well known brand owned by a very prominent rapper (now owned by Apple). I went with a lesser known brand because I knew he would never use the aforementioned “black brand.”

My father is also a Holocaust denier, constantly talks about the immigrant crisis in Syria, refers to black people as “the blacks,” so on and so forth. Luckily he’s not a Trump supporter as he believes that Trump is overcome with greed – an anti-Christian principle.

Luckily my dad was never racist against Asians, but apparently there are a lot of white men in relationships with Asian women who hate Asian men even worse. The potential blowback for this is massive.

Anyways, racist white men often times seek out Asian women. Why?

Simple, because:

A) Asian women are well known to defer to white men, rarely to black men.

B) Asian women are known for their “traditional values”; i.e., they love living in white countries, and are outspoken in their hatred for black people and are not notorious as white women (although this is a myth) for sleeping with black men.

C) Like Dylan Roof said, Asians are an “honorable race.” Hence their women are honorable women. The only basis for their “honor” would be their perceived value of whiteness.

D) White men with extreme racist views cannot attract white women; so they go for Asian women, who will forgive their views in exchange for whiter babies, (likely before summarily dropping their husbands, like mother did). The whiter babies will then be raised as white, like Marcus Epstein.

E) The largest irony is that Asians are seen as “genetically the most similar” to whites, (my dad has told me that “East and West are the same”), so the children have a much higher chance of looking white (or in my case, whitish), so it’s essentially killing two birds with one stone.

Do not fall for this! I will make sure this website dominates Google rankings from here on in to ensure that these crimes do not go unpunished! If you know people like this, cut them out of your life, but do not blame the children.

 

The Truth about being a “Beautiful Half-Asian Hapa Baby”

Some random observations:

  • When you have a son, your privilege as a blue-eyed white male is thrown out the door.

Whereas, if your partner were constantly complimenting your blue eyes, your son will not be able to leverage his blue eyes in order to secure a mate. He will instead have to rely on different factors, and since the number of women, including Asian women, who openly favor Asian men, is much lower, this will be damaging to his emotional well-being. For every Asian woman who deliberately rejected Asian men, so forth will your Eurasian son be rejected. My clash with my monumental ego and narcissism, years back, where I was literally obsessed with my looks, sent me into a rage when I was rejected by a white woman for being Asian (I’ve mentioned this many times before).

  • On “beautiful Hapa babies.”

This is by and large a lie. All babies are universally cute, but this does not translate to being an attractive male. A desire for a beautiful baby is essentially on par with having a pet; hence you see many divorced Asian women (divorced largely because of their insane behavior, like my mother’s, wherein the child is part of a fantasy) using their children as status symbols. My mother constantly showed me off to her siblings and mentioned my tall nose and deep eyes whereas ostracizing my father, but again, this does not translate to necessary success in the future; it is borderline narcissism wherein the love for the child is not love per se, but love as long as [qualifications] exist.

If you do a youtube search for “half asian babies” you will find a number bragging about how their children have blue eyes; despite this being impossible, the idea that such white worship is prevalent is extremely, extremely troublesome.

My case was unusual. My mother seemed to like my brother more than me despite him being black haired, black eyed. She Tiger Mommed him more than me, but less cruelly; I began to think that it was because I was either born via C-section or because I didn’t look like her, or even some kind of resentment towards me. My memory doesn’t go back that far so I can’t figure out the reason for this yet.

On “beauty;” In fact, any person who will want to make the distinction (i.e., a person who doesn’t like Asians) will not differentiate between full Asian and half, even if you don’t look Asian. Go on any website discussing white looking Eurasians like Adam Smith or Cary Fukunaga, and the comments are there.

  • I’ve come across many Hapas who complained of feeling embarrassed while walking with their parents. I have experienced this too, but moreso, more when walking with my father (as my mother is dead).

Regardless of their intentions, (and I know my parents’ were bad), the assumptions made that my father was an Asiaphile, a loser, or couldn’t get a white woman are there. In my case, they were true, but I don’t think most people bother to differentiate when it’s so common. Obviously, there will be exceptions to this rule, particularly among less intelligent Hapas, like my brother. 

  • It’s frankly impossible for a Eurasian to not notice the interracial imbalance unless they come from entirely white states.

I think many Eurasians that you meet on the street, especially the tall, good looking ones, tend to favor White women (if they can) out of a subconscious rejection of the “white-fever” and “yellow-fever” they are associated with by extension, in any major American city. Another thing could be their rejection of their Asian side, as it is obvious to them that looking Asian is frankly a death sentence. Part of me thinks that Eurasian women do this too, mostly out of a repugnance for their own mothers… if you go read some of the comments on this blog, there are a ton of Eurasian girls complaining about emotional abuse from their mothers.

 

“My Parents Were Not Like That! They Were in Love!”

I’m sure they were, and I’m not being sarcastic. I mean it.

It’s convenient though that love appears to be so color-centric.

Was your mother escaping poverty? Was she too unattractive to find a decent Asian male? If so, yes, it may very well be, and is love.

My mother wasn’t. She deliberately sought out a white male. There are millions of these women and they don’t merely just pass along through life and die; they create children.

I had the privilege of seeing exactly what happens when a woman seeking the All American Prince Charming and the White Picket Fence lifestyle got stuck with a balding office worker and an eight hundred square foot apartment nowhere near a subway line.

Love no longer became a delusion of mine. Pray tell me – assuming white dad was no longer able to provide mom with the fantasy of whiteness and American inclusion – would she still love him?

Mine didn’t. In fact, love wasn’t even there when they first met, and there wasn’t enough money to keep the “love” balloon inflated for more than a few years.

Why Politics Mean Nothing to a Eurasian

Why do Asian women love white men? Is it because Asian men are unattractive? Is it because Asian men are patriarchal assholes?

The answer is that it doesn’t matter; the outcome is the same. A Eurasian male. Having children and giving them a good life goes well beyond being able to have mutual attraction and having sex; and even if the mutual attraction is structured as such because of biological or political reasons, the fact remains that the child is still stuck with the outcome of being an Eurasian male (and more often than not, an ASIAN LOOKING MALE) born to a man and woman who cared little for the issues of Asian men. 

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Breakdown of the Hapa Situation

(I just went through some of my drafts and noticed several posts that were stuck in limbo for months. I just published them now. More thought on the subject).

Breakdown of the Hapa Situation

Dating:

  • Asian women, belonging to a minority group, and also being naturally paired with one of the least physically / socially attractive groups of men, seek to date out, and are able to by virtue of their possession of female sexual organs that are naturally highly sought after by men regardless of the race / appearance of the possessor.
  • Asian women will chase white men because they are seen as A) exciting, B) exotic, C) less socially stringent / reserved, D) taller and better looking or E) because they want social acceptance.
  • Asian women will seek out white men – oftentimes the tallest and most pale / blonde partners available, sometimes for the status, but more likely so that they can have taller / whiter children.
  • On a purely evolutionary scale, this sounds perfectly reasonable. The downside is that we aren’t dogs, who merely accept their status as dogs because they are unable to consider otherwise.
  • The child, particularly if it is a boy, has a relatively high chance of looking Asian, exactly like the type of man his mom sought to emasculate. (I will discuss what happens if he does not)

Marriage:

  • Shortly after marriage, the woman will become passive aggressive and controlling, as her marriage to her man was primarily based on his race and status; necessarily, many of the women who exclusively chase white men are also careerists or social butterflies who realize an Asian male partner would relegate them to a cultural ghetto.
  • Since the marriage was never based on love, but more so on the hatred of Asians and Asian features, the marriage itself relies heavily on the white man’s ability to provide a fantasy / ability to provide whiter kids or a complete erasure of Asianness.
  • Sexlessness is the rule in White male / Asian women marriages, despite sex being prevalent in the beginning in order to ensure marriage. My parents slept in separate bedrooms for fifteen years! My entire life!
  • Extreme nagging and concerns over money become more and more common; the white male never noticed these issues because he was happy to get laid. The white male must be able to provide the white male Prince Charming ideal or the marriage will dissolve into nagging!
  • Naturally, any sane Asian woman with reasonable demands and expectations for a life would have been happy with an Asian male in the first place, but no White man would EVER have considered this.

If the child looks Asian, then:

  • He will come to internalize the negative stereotypes associated with Asian males, and have no outward recourse to find solace in his identity, as his own mother oftentimes had spent her entire life living on her privilege of being a woman.
  • Often times the mother will be disappointed that the child doesn’t have “a tall nose, round eyes, white skin,” etc. Sound familiar?
  • The boy’s father will have little clue how to raise an Asian looking child and the claims for the child to “just be nice” will have no consequence, as Asian men, well known for being the nicest and most reliable of all men, were rejected by Asian women en masse, of which the mother was (regardless if she admits it or not) complicit in. (This isn’t “nice guy-ism” as I was a huge asshole growing up, look majority white, and have gotten laid as a result. I have also been turned down by women on merely hearing that I was half Asian).
  • The child will be begin to associate being unlovable with looking Asian, as his own mother, as do many Asian women, displayed much lower standards for white males as she had for Asian men.
  • The mother will sometimes level micro-aggressions against the child, as her fantasy of being white and being accepted into the white hegemony clashes violently with her possession of an Asian looking child, which, in some cases, would make her, in the wider “white world view”, just another asian woman with an Asian child.
  • She will then begin to negotiate, in her mind, her child’s appearance, comparing it to full Asians, and start plying the child to go into acting (see, Modern Family), or modeling, as a way to reinforce the myth that the Hapa is more beautiful than its full Asian counterparts.
  • The father may sometimes be emotionally distant from the child, or, lacking understanding of the situation, unsympathetic to racism.

What happens?

  • The son oftentimes will just look like an average Asian guy; when this happens, he will go to no ends to justify his parents’ relationship in his head despite these couples being so common. Obviously, his mother will call him handsome, as do most mothers, but society will treat him differently, and he will have a sharp and painful collision of respect for his mother who feeds him, and his anger at being treated like an Asian male by Asian women.
  • If the son is over 6’2″, generally he will be able to surmount these difficulties (generally).
  • If the son looks totally white, more often than not he will just ignore these issues.
  • If the son is gay (which seems to pretty common), or closeted, he will deny these issues since he can readily find sex and acceptance at the drop of the hat. I believe that Eurasians tend to be gay at an elevated rate because of the subconscious emasculation that happens in their brains.

Eurasian of the Year

How did the daughter of the VP of Goldman Sachs, from a family worth maybe hundreds of millions of dollars, who went to church and played piano, wind up taking a bus to New Jersey to appear in the worst, most notorious and possibly illegal rape themed pornography – for the grand sum payment of $200? 

Eurasians are a unique brand of crazy. It’s like we’re thrust into this world where we’re told to abide by our mother’s Confucian Tiger mom stringent controlling domineering bullshit – yet we’re also pretty keen on the reality of sexual dynamics and race, that we’re pretty much monkeys where vaginas (in our case, Asian vagina) goes to whoever’s in power, who is perceived as having the highest status, biggest dick, whatever. It’s pretty obvious that Asian women have low standards for white men and high for Asian men; otherwise the interracial gap wouldn’t be as bad.

ALL Eurasians with white fathers and Asian mothers, at one point in their lives, question why virtually all of us have white fathers. Some Eurasians can make a joke out of it; “oh, my dad had yellow fever,” while some of us look straight up Asian and get shot down repeatedly for looking Asian. We endure a lifetime of Asian jokes – but we’re half white – and told by our callously privileged Asian mothers to suck it up. More often than not, we get the sense that our Asian mothers believe that we are some eugenic master race – that we are better – because we have white fathers (note, we don’t say white mothers, as white mothers of half Asian children don’t practice eugenics).

And we get told, by our mothers, to just go through the motions; play an instrument, do well in school, be a good little Asian student – but we’re mixed and we have a white dad lording over us, so essentially – we have the Asian life plan, but also the brutal reality of recognizing that white males always win out over Asian males. I myself had a meteoric rise – until I started learning that even Asian women viewed me as an asexual Eurasian.

The incentive to be a well performing Eurasian guy, when we are being told, from birth, that we are better because we are whiter, that our fathers were white – that being Asian itself has no merit, and that only with white blood are we suitable members of society; well, the incentive is very, very low.

I’m not even going to voice how badly it fucks us up growing up under the most loaded relationship on this rotten fucking planet – but just imagine for a second what it’s like.

That being said, ladies and gentlemen who come to my corner of the internet, here is my all-time favorite Hapa. I wish I could meet this girl in real life. She’s like my twin, in terms of her background, her potential, and her behavior.

Kelly Baltazar. Father is a nice little Vice President at Goldman Sachs – the bank, in case you haven’t heard of it. Not many more big boy players in New York City than this dude. Penthouses, three thousand dollar suits, Mercedes, marble columns in their apartment – I know all this because my family is pretty rich too, I’ve been around this kind of wealth (not my mom and dad, but the Chinese family that married Chinese).

Mommy is a real nice looking, controlling Asian mom. Dad probably thought he was getting a good deal; (he’s Jewish, but blue eyed and has that weak, nice guy but probably when he was younger was a stocky, cocky short pseudo-arrogant shmuck that white women ignore but Asian girls loved). Sounds familiar to my story, one of a meteoric rise and fall from grace, where I was Ivy League educated, had immense potential, well liked, popular, thousands of friends, good looking, tall, top of my class, and then was hit so hard in the face with racial reality and confusion that I self-imploded furiously. Our backgrounds, one of higher education, Tiger Momming, faux-morality shoveled into our faces (right down to the violin / piano in church), are dead on point.

That was until Kelly did Facial Abuse and got face-banged so hard until she threw up. On camera. She did this for $200 and joined literal hookers in New Jersey to be on a porn site that even other porn stars don’t want to be on. Don’t believe me, Google it. NSFW.

The psychopathy of having a fetish couple as parents; Tiger Momming; emotionally vapid white fathers – or even pedophiles or other deviants (since lots of these guys love Asian women) – cultural confusion, hatred at our own physical features, physical confusion – all of it is really, really bad.

Kelly, if you ever come across this, reach out to me, let’s work together. I see you’re rubbing shoulders with the rich and famous, partaking in some “culture.” We both know that you ain’t hiding what you did forever. Embrace it – you DESTROYED them. Everyone around you is such a feeble goddamn liar, pretending everything is alright, with their status, their flashy handbags, their educational titles – it means nothing to you. You let them know that there are consequences to doing what they did – it ain’t a victimless crime, and everything won’t be “all good,” any more. Your art really isn’t amazing but I could teach you some tricks, too, since I’m an artist too. I’m way too crazy to do anything else.

I’d give anything to have been a fly on the wall when your parents found out. I’d give anything for you to contact me. I actually, beneath all the sarcasm, actually admire you very much. That’s one hell of a family photo. Much better than the ones I’ve ever taken.

Kelly Baltazar singlehandedly destroyed the myth of the dutiful little Eurasian girl – and I will destroy that of the Eurasian boy. She is my hero.

September 2016 edit.

It came to my attention that Japan’s most famous porn star, Maria Ozawa – literally the most famous Japanese pornstar of all time – was from an Asian mother and white father.

In what seems to be an equivalent attempt to humiliate and demean her parents – Maria Ozawa came home to her parents’ house with 20 of her pornographic videos and attempted to have her parents watch them. 

http://ozawafan.blogspot.com/2011/05/something-you-might-not-know-about-her.html

  1. Her parents found out through a magazine or something and are strongly opposed to her doing AV to this day and her friends cut off all ties with her because of her decision to enter AV
  2. Maria Ozawa brought home 20 of her videos she’s starred in to show her parents and they told her to get the hell out.