If Asian women are world-famous for having "white fever" and hating Asian men, what happens when they have a son who looks Asian? What happens when Asian women say "no Asian men," and Half Asian sons hear the same? I happen. This is the blog of a Dartmouth educated Eurasian son of a racist, Nazi-sympathizing, Holocaust denying, homophobic conservative, underemployed, conspiracy theorist white man and a Hong Kong woman who had "white fever," documenting the immense damage and abuse done over 20 years of living under one of the most hateful, racist pairings on Earth. Former Neo-Nazi, former extreme racist, and yes, half Asian.
Asian women, who constantly talk about how inferior Asian men are – in real time, for half Asian sonswho aren’t even theirs to hear. So even the “so called” good couples still have children who are exposed to millions of these women. The question is – why would any half Asian be proud to be Asian as a result, or even worse, look ANYTHING like an Asian male? And many, many half Asians look TOTALLY Asian.
White men, especially the ones who are into Asian women. They just love to bash Asian men to make themselves feel bigger with Asian women. (Remember, it’s uniquely white men that are raising half Asian sons, so the children will try to live up to the father’s ethnicity).
So the question is why do half Asian sons try to play down their Asian heritage? I did this for ten years, and went practically insane as I looked more and more Asian. Again, I bullied full Asians, never grew my hair out longer than a couple weeks to avoid it being too dark, and when seeing my black hair fall on the barber’s smock I became almost instantly depressed.
I’ve listed dozens of cases, but I think this sums it up.
Elliot Rodger: “How could an ugly Asian attract the attention of a white girl, while a beautiful Eurasian like myself never had any attention from them? I thought with rage. I glared at them for a bit, and then decided I had been insulted enough. I angrily walked toward them and bumped the Asian guy aside, trying to act cocky and arrogant to both the boy and the girl.”
Daniel Holtzclaw: “How does that white dick taste?”
John Hamilton: “I’m Scottish below the belt.”
What are these women going to do when a woman – even an Asian woman – says the same thing to their son? This has been said verbatim to me, and other half Asian men I know:
“I don’t date Asian guys.”
And you wonder why half Asians with Asian mothers have literally produced nothing of merit, ever?
Despite having a mother who beat the shit out of me every day for twelve years and haunted my dreams for another fifteen – not once, not even once, did I ever feel the need to degrade or humiliate Asian women, for twenty three years – until I started this blog.
The bigger question is why 90% of them have White fathers and Asian mothers.
Some would say porn stars are sex workers – but doing porn, for millions to see, is a particular form of self destruction. It’s a global losing of face. Nobody really likes being the child of a white-worshipping, depraved fetish couple, so obviously the children suffer.
The short answer: White men + Asian women is a white supremacist, loaded and lopsided relationship. Even the “good” WMAF pairings try to ignore the disparity and write our identity for us and forbid us from talking about how Asian women have an easy time in White countries while Asian men don’t. That’s not even mentioning the bad WMAF, based on a fetish.
The long answer: From what I’ve heard and seen, Eurasian / half-Asian pornstars outnumber full Asian pornstars, which is insane considering our small numbers. My guess as to why this is happening is largely because half Asians feel deep anger at both their parents and themselves; we hate that our fathers are generally racist assholes; we hate that our mothers try to push us as being whiter, superior, eugenic children and use us to fulfill their twisted agendas; we hate that our Asian mothers try to control us with devastating psychological mind games where our race is something they both view as a commodity, and as something they resent (being lowly Asian women, themselves). The situation is duplicitous and disgusting, even if the parents don’t mean it. The relationship itself is so loaded and so self-assuring and smug in itself (“my children will be beautiful Eurasian superhumans”) that oftentimes self-destruction is the only way to get away from such cringey people. Or even, the only way to fight back and reclaim our power and autonomy.
Not to mention, of course, the tremendous confusion and self-image issues that come with being half Asian, which I’ve described before, and given the very nuanced nature of Asian self hatred (something no other race has) it definitely manifests in us.
Below is the list (as far as I know). The pornstars with Asian fathers are listed in bold. You can thank /r/Hapas for helping out.
Amai Liu (American / Asian / Hawaiian)
Angel Valentine (Filipina / Spanish)
Asia Carrera – Japanese/German
Ava Devine – Chinese/Italian/Spanish
Coco Velvett (Asian / Italian)
Eva Lovia (Japanese/White (Spanish))
Jade Hsu – Korean/white
Katsuni – French/Vietnamese
Kianna Dior – Korean/Canadian
Kira Kener – Norwegian/Vietnamese
Kira Sinn 1/2 Filipina, 1/2 Caucasian
London Keyes – Japanese/white
Mai Ly (Chinese / French-German)
May Li (Kelly Baltazar)
Mena Li / Mena Mason
Michelle Maylene – Filipino/French/Hawaiian
Reina Lee (Brazilian / Australian)
Roxy Jezel – English/Thai (Her father is Thai)
Ryaan Reynolds (Filipino mom, Creole Dad)
Sakura Scott (Japanese mom / American father)
Sasha Yung is a Filipina / Caucasian (admitted to being molested?)
Soolin Kelter ( aka Devin Lee, Jessica Kelter ) is a scorching hot Chinese / Austrian
Tera Patrick – Thai/English/Dutch WMAF
Tia Tanaka – French/Vietnamese
Emily Parker (Japanese / English / Spanish)
Kimora Klein (Black father / Asian mom?)
Taryn Kemp (birthplace, Thailand, so take a wild guess)
Alex Dane (this one is an oldie, and a sad story, as it says she was born in the Philippines. Can anyone say “left behind spawn of a hooker and a sexpat?”)
Another one, bringing this year’s total tally up to 5, for 2016 alone; that is 5 incidents involving mixed race Asians in 2016 alone.
I’ve said it once, I’ll say it again: people underestimate the mental trauma and damage that growing up in a racist household will do to you. There’s almost no way I can really quantify it other than saying it’s a combination of many different factors. They also underestimate the trauma of cultural confusion / self-hatred / colonialism / poor-fathering / aloofness from the parents / mother’s maladapted comments on whiteness and white features / psychosexual underpinnings from your parents, and the general state of mental illness among Asian American women that is inherited by their children.
This is all leading up to another major incident involving a Hapa child that will be very, very, very, very bad, and hopefully this blog will be in place to explain exactly why these incidents are occurring at the rate they do.
Let me say, when you’re at a point that you are unable to look at your own reflection in the mirror because you feel white, but people still dig into you, trying to pin you as Asian… your mind is not in the right spot.
Dorothy Dutiel shot and killed her girlfriend May Kieu before Kieu could break up with her. Dutiel then turned the gun on herself, committing suicide. The two girls were 15-year-old sophomores at Independence High School in Glendale, Arizona. The horror unfolded there just before 8 a.m. on February 10. The couple had known each other since the 5th grade and begun dating in the 8th when Dutiel says she, “was too scared to verbally ask her. So I wrote it on a sticky note and she said yes.”
Most of the time Asian women marry white men because they don’t like Asian men and have a physical preference for white men. Asian women also dislike being associated with the Asian “gilded Ghetto” monolith, and want to feel “included” into the majority culture – so they marry white men at rates unmatched by any other ethnic group.
There is no other race on earth that has this ingrained hatred of Asianness and their own men. Literally none.
Half Asian men resemble Asian men, 80-90% of the time.
In fact the majority of people don’t like Asian men.
Admit it: your wife / girlfriend is with you because she does not like Asian men. She is only attracted to tall white men.
They will say it’s because of behavior / feminism, but Asian male behavior (jealousy) is because Asian women don’t like the way Asian men look. Ask any Asian woman married to a white man and she’ll just say:
“I’m just not attracted to them.”
Asian women don’t like Asian men for the same reason MOST white women don’t like Asian men. They are Asian.
A half Asian son realizes this. He realizes that he is Asian too. It doesn’t matter how good looking he is, how talented, how intelligent – he will endure a lifetime of hearing “of course your mother is the Asian one,” and being perpetually second class in non-Asian society. He will endure jokes, endure racism, discrimination from society, see hundreds thousands of Asian women a year paired up with white men, face discrimination in dating, in work – and…
…his own parents will oftentimes be extremely racist against Asian men as well – yet he looks like an Asian guy.
Keep in mind, that Asian women are so world famous for hating their own men – that the men who like Asian women and want to be seen with one in public, are almost uniformly terrible people: racists, Neo-Nazis, White Nationalists, MRAs, MGTOWS, autists, abusive people – like my father.
In fact – it could be said, that unbeknownst to most whites, Asian women can be so extremely racist and pro-white and so “famously easy” for White men – that they tend to attract the worst white males.
So half Asians not only look Asian, but come from extremely hateful homes.
Along with the millions of Asian women around him disliking Asian men, his own mother does too.Every single Eurasian person with eyes looks around him and sees how Asian women act around white men, fawning, complimenting – and Asian mothers expect us to not notice.Can we please just drop the charade and admit this is true?
How are half Asians supposed to somehow not notice that Asian women openly favor white men, that these couples are extremely narcissistic and have insanely eugenicist beliefs about their own children, and yet develop emotionally healthy?
If he looks Asian, then, well. Welcome to a life of bullying, confusion, resentment, depression, rejection from both sides, and perpetual low self esteem seeing Asian women like his mother paired up millions of times over with white men – yet he looks Asian.
He will be asked to take pride in the fact that his, and all his friends’ fathers are white, and asked to deal with the stereotypes of White men / Asian women and unable to distinguish between good and bad couplings. He will try to take pride in looking Asian but realizes that nobody, not his friends, not women, not his own mother, wants anything to do with an Asian male. He will be born into an anti-Asian society, look Asian, and recognize that even his own mother valued white men over him. It is the ultimate betrayal.
Asian women and white men will promise up and down that their sons are superior – largely because they have to make sure that their children truly believe they are superior in order to cover up for one of the most unbalanced interracial pairings – yet whites still view half-Asians as inferior.
I’m sorry. Please, please, please stop lying about this.
“But half Asian babies are cute.”
And half Asian babies become Asian men when they grow up. In fact most Asian women can’t tell the difference between a fully grown Asian male and a half Asian male. Sometimes half Asian men grow up to look Latino or Middle Eastern or in some cases Central Asian – which makes Asian women hate the children of other Asian women, for simply not being white.
“Half Asian men are hot.”
They’re not all hot, and people won’t care that they’re half. Besides, you believed white men hottest. You turned down hot Asian men for white men, so why would anyone want a hot half Asian man?
“I know hot half Asian men.”
Nope. You know men who pass as white. When you figure out how to guarantee your son is 6’3″, let me know. And after all, you wanted a white man, not a half Asian man. Either that, or you know the son of an Asian male and a white woman.
“I know Asian men with white girlfriends.”
You know one or two, while you know five times as many Asian women with white boyfriends.
It’s a yes or no question. Does your loved one hate Asian men? Yes, or no.
Will you son be Asian? Yes or no. Simple question.
To white male / Asian female lurkers: I don’t have to appeal to you. I have to appeal to the billions of people who were on the fence about you, but now will recognize you for the horrid people that you really are.
Your value as a Eurasian is how white you look.
White fathers believe that just showing up, wearing an aikido uniform, making friends with your sensei doesn’t mean you know what it’s like to be Asian.
White male obsession with Asian culture is actually an obsession with Asian women.
White men saying they’re good fathers isn’t enough in raising a child when your relationship is loaded to hell with century-old implications of power and race imbalance.
You’re an idiot if you think that children don’t pick up on mommy / daddy being a different race and a million other couples having the same appearance.
White male obsession with Asian women is 9 out of 10 times an obsession with the only women that feel would tolerate you for their faults. Physical or social.
Relationships between white men / Asian women is directly rooted in the race of the man and the hope for whiter babies (my mother dyed her hair, wore colored contacts, took a white last name).
Asian women practice open racism where white men have much higher value than the average Asian man; they then have the nerve to tell half-Asian children to be proud to be Asian.
Half Asian sons are being raised by women who deliberately support the idea that whiteness is superior. Don’t believe me? Go ask one.
White men directly enable and manipulate self-hatred and white-worship to get laid and try to raise their sons as “substitute white people” (my father did this).
Asian women marry out of a desire to rebel against their culture, or because white men are taller / more sexually attractive, yet try to claim the Hapa identity as theirs. They spent decades trying to define Eurasians as being “beautiful / intelligent / talented” as a cover for their open racism.
The Hapa identity is a fabrication used to justify the idea that white blood makes Asians better. Hapas are not beautiful – white blood makes us more beautiful.
The preference for White men is not rooted in Asian male behavior, but overarching desire for whiter children, and white men. Asian male anger / bitterness (the natural result of being discarded) is then used to further excuse preference for white men, creating a perpetual cycle.
Ask any Asian woman, behind closed doors, why she likes white men, and she will admit that “Asian men are not attractive;” yet their sons will be Asian men.
Eurasians will always be reminded of how White men are better than Asian men, across the board, simply by leaving the house; my individual experiences, multiply it by millions – to understand that half-Asians are being born into a climate that Asian women created, one that hates the Asian male appearance.
Saying “no Asians” is open racism that no half-Asian son, in his right mind, if he knew his mother said this same thing, could ever love her.
The “Hapa” myth of Eurasian beauty only rings true for a small percentage of men, the others who just look Asian.
A large number of Hapas pass successfully as white and don’t need to think about these things, which ideally was the ultimate objective of their parents, to be raised as “replacement white children.”
Eurasian children will suffer if they look even vaguely Asian, and will be constantly reminded of their low social worth by other Asian woman / white male couples that are not their parents.
Asian women will lie to their teeth in order to prevent the truth getting out – that white men are just more sexually attractive.
They will lie to their own children and tell us that being Asian is a good thing when it is not a good thing to look anything like an Asian male.
Asian women are extremely privileged in White society and only after they have Asian looking kids do they try to prepare us for racism by teaching us about our heritage.
White men use Asian women for easy sex when White women fail to match their expectations of behavior, i.e., too slutty, sleeping with black men.
White men believe Asian women carry more “white values” than white women themselves.
At this point I am just putting out these posts to fill the gaps in the search engines for these issues, hence the excessive tagging… for a long time coming. The point of this site is to exist for at least another decade, and my ultimate goal is to make this into the premier website on half-Asian issues, replace all previous discussion of half-Asian issues (e.g., the Kip Fulbeck Camp, Hapavoices, etc.) and so far everything is going according to plan.
I need to reiterate that my dad is racist. He very much hates black people; when buying a Christmas gift yesterday I had to avoid making a certain purchase because I didn’t want to buy a very well known brand owned by a very prominent rapper (now owned by Apple). I went with a lesser known brand because I knew he would never use the aforementioned “black brand.”
My father is also a Holocaust denier, constantly talks about the immigrant crisis in Syria, refers to black people as “the blacks,” so on and so forth. Luckily he’s not a Trump supporter as he believes that Trump is overcome with greed – an anti-Christian principle.
Luckily my dad was never racist against Asians, but apparently there are a lot of white men in relationships with Asian women who hate Asian men even worse. The potential blowback for this is massive.
Anyways, racist white men often times seek out Asian women. Why?
A) Asian women are well known to defer to white men, rarely to black men.
B) Asian women are known for their “traditional values”; i.e., they love living in white countries, and are outspoken in their hatred for black people and are not notorious as white women (although this is a myth) for sleeping with black men.
C) Like Dylan Roof said, Asians are an “honorable race.” Hence their women are honorable women. The only basis for their “honor” would be their perceived value of whiteness.
D) White men with extreme racist views cannot attract white women; so they go for Asian women, who will forgive their views in exchange for whiter babies, (likely before summarily dropping their husbands, like mother did). The whiter babies will then be raised as white, like Marcus Epstein.
E) The largest irony is that Asians are seen as “genetically the most similar” to whites, (my dad has told me that “East and West are the same”), so the children have a much higher chance of looking white (or in my case, whitish), so it’s essentially killing two birds with one stone.
Do not fall for this! I will make sure this website dominates Google rankings from here on in to ensure that these crimes do not go unpunished! If you know people like this, cut them out of your life, but do not blame the children.
When you have a son, your privilege as a blue-eyed white male is thrown out the door.
Whereas, if your partner were constantly complimenting your blue eyes, your son will not be able to leverage his blue eyes in order to secure a mate. He will instead have to rely on different factors, and since the number of women, including Asian women, who openly favor Asian men, is much lower, this will be damaging to his emotional well-being. For every Asian woman who deliberately rejected Asian men, so forth will your Eurasian son be rejected. My clash with my monumental ego and narcissism, years back, where I was literally obsessed with my looks, sent me into a rage when I was rejected by a white woman for being Asian (I’ve mentioned this many times before).
On “beautiful Hapa babies.”
This is by and large a lie. All babies are universally cute, but this does not translate to being an attractive male. A desire for a beautiful baby is essentially on par with having a pet; hence you see many divorced Asian women (divorced largely because of their insane behavior, like my mother’s, wherein the child is part of a fantasy) using their children as status symbols. My mother constantly showed me off to her siblings and mentioned my tall nose and deep eyes whereas ostracizing my father, but again, this does not translate to necessary success in the future; it is borderline narcissism wherein the love for the child is not love per se, but love as long as [qualifications] exist.
If you do a youtube search for “half asian babies” you will find a number bragging about how their children have blue eyes; despite this being impossible, the idea that such white worship is prevalent is extremely, extremely troublesome.
My case was unusual. My mother seemed to like my brother more than me despite him being black haired, black eyed. She Tiger Mommed him more than me, but less cruelly; I began to think that it was because I was either born via C-section or because I didn’t look like her, or even some kind of resentment towards me. My memory doesn’t go back that far so I can’t figure out the reason for this yet.
On “beauty;” In fact, any person who will want to make the distinction (i.e., a person who doesn’t like Asians) will not differentiate between full Asian and half, even if you don’t look Asian. Go on any website discussing white looking Eurasians like Adam Smith or Cary Fukunaga, and the comments are there.
I’ve come across many Hapas who complained of feeling embarrassed while walking with their parents. I have experienced this too, but moreso, more when walking with my father (as my mother is dead).
Regardless of their intentions, (and I know my parents’ were bad), the assumptions made that my father was an Asiaphile, a loser, or couldn’t get a white woman are there. In my case, they were true, but I don’t think most people bother to differentiate when it’s so common. Obviously, there will be exceptions to this rule, particularly among less intelligent Hapas, like my brother.
It’s frankly impossible for a Eurasian to not notice the interracial imbalance unless they come from entirely white states.
I think many Eurasians that you meet on the street, especially the tall, good looking ones, tend to favor White women (if they can) out of a subconscious rejection of the “white-fever” and “yellow-fever” they are associated with by extension, in any major American city. Another thing could be their rejection of their Asian side, as it is obvious to them that looking Asian is frankly a death sentence. Part of me thinks that Eurasian women do this too, mostly out of a repugnance for their own mothers… if you go read some of the comments on this blog, there are a ton of Eurasian girls complaining about emotional abuse from their mothers.
Being biracial is an incredibly complex issue, especially considering when the majority of biracial people tend to fall along similar lines of parentage. It is oxymoronic for any bi-racial group to develop a healthy identity when it is saturated with latent implications of racial-gendered superiority and inferiority.
(In layman’s terms, do you really expect millions of Hapas, born overwhelmingly to parents who thought Asian men unattractive – let’s be honest, that’s what’s going on, and surrounded by Asian women who hate Asian men, are going to be normal?)
Hypothesis: The frequency of the relationships between White males and Asian women (as opposed to the infrequency of the relationship between Asian men and White women) is primarily based on the uniform higher status, higher economic standing or biological desirability of white men…
…the intentional or unintentional universal undesirability or lower status of Asian males – explaining the monumentally unbalanced interracial dating ratios. Eurasian sons, in particularly, are largely considered Asian men and fail to benefit from the social and sexual freedom (i.e., not being stereotyped as misogynist and / or asexual) their fathers had, unless they are extremely lucky, and live with the baggage of a peculiar kind of pairing that is weighed with heavy sociological implications.
Regardless of any politicized or non-politicized belief, politically correct or not, the fact remains from both empirical evidence provided by Eurasians (not by white men or Asian women), and data aggregated by /r/Hapas, that Eurasians are still constantly reminded that they are of less value than white men, even by women who will someday become future mothers to Asian looking Eurasian sons and even by the men who themselves are the fathers to Asian looking Eurasian sons.
(I just went through some of my drafts and noticed several posts that were stuck in limbo for months. I just published them now. More thought on the subject).
Breakdown of the Hapa Situation
Asian women, belonging to a minority group, and also being naturally paired with one of the least physically / socially attractive groups of men, seek to date out, and are able to by virtue of their possession of female sexual organs that are naturally highly sought after by men regardless of the race / appearance of the possessor.
Asian women will chase white men because they are seen as A) exciting, B) exotic, C) less socially stringent / reserved, D) taller and better looking or E) because they want social acceptance.
Asian women will seek out white men – oftentimes the tallest and most pale / blonde partners available, sometimes for the status, but more likely so that they can have taller / whiter children.
On a purely evolutionary scale, this sounds perfectly reasonable. The downside is that we aren’t dogs, who merely accept their status as dogs because they are unable to consider otherwise.
The child, particularly if it is a boy, has a relatively high chance of looking Asian, exactly like the type of man his mom sought to emasculate. (I will discuss what happens if he does not)
Shortly after marriage, the woman will become passive aggressive and controlling, as her marriage to her man was primarily based on his race and status; necessarily, many of the women who exclusively chase white men are also careerists or social butterflies who realize an Asian male partner would relegate them to a cultural ghetto.
Since the marriage was never based on love, but more so on the hatred of Asians and Asian features, the marriage itself relies heavily on the white man’s ability to provide a fantasy / ability to provide whiter kids or a complete erasure of Asianness.
Sexlessness is the rule in White male / Asian women marriages, despite sex being prevalent in the beginning in order to ensure marriage. My parents slept in separate bedrooms for fifteen years! My entire life!
Extreme nagging and concerns over money become more and more common; the white male never noticed these issues because he was happy to get laid. The white male must be able to provide the white male Prince Charming ideal or the marriage will dissolve into nagging!
Naturally, any sane Asian woman with reasonable demands and expectations for a life would have been happy with an Asian male in the first place, but no White man would EVER have considered this.
If the child looks Asian, then:
He will come to internalize the negative stereotypes associated with Asian males, and have no outward recourse to find solace in his identity, as his own mother oftentimes had spent her entire life living on her privilege of being a woman.
Often times the mother will be disappointed that the child doesn’t have “a tall nose, round eyes, white skin,” etc. Sound familiar?
The boy’s father will have little clue how to raise an Asian looking child and the claims for the child to “just be nice” will have no consequence, as Asian men, well known for being the nicest and most reliable of all men, were rejected by Asian women en masse, of which the mother was (regardless if she admits it or not) complicit in. (This isn’t “nice guy-ism” as I was a huge asshole growing up, look majority white, and have gotten laid as a result. I have also been turned down by women on merely hearing that I was half Asian).
The child will be begin to associate being unlovable with looking Asian, as his own mother, as do many Asian women, displayed much lower standards for white males as she had for Asian men.
The mother will sometimes level micro-aggressions against the child, as her fantasy of being white and being accepted into the white hegemony clashes violently with her possession of an Asian looking child, which, in some cases, would make her, in the wider “white world view”, just another asian woman with an Asian child.
She will then begin to negotiate, in her mind, her child’s appearance, comparing it to full Asians, and start plying the child to go into acting (see, Modern Family), or modeling, as a way to reinforce the myth that the Hapa is more beautiful than its full Asian counterparts.
The father may sometimes be emotionally distant from the child, or, lacking understanding of the situation, unsympathetic to racism.
The son oftentimes will just look like an average Asian guy; when this happens, he will go to no ends to justify his parents’ relationship in his head despite these couples being so common. Obviously, his mother will call him handsome, as do most mothers, but society will treat him differently, and he will have a sharp and painful collision of respect for his mother who feeds him, and his anger at being treated like an Asian male by Asian women.
If the son is over 6’2″, generally he will be able to surmount these difficulties (generally).
If the son looks totally white, more often than not he will just ignore these issues.
If the son is gay (which seems to pretty common), or closeted, he will deny these issues since he can readily find sex and acceptance at the drop of the hat. I believe that Eurasians tend to be gay at an elevated rate because of the subconscious emasculation that happens in their brains.