“Isolated and often insulated as well, multiracial Asian children have difficulty in developing self-esteem and a positive identity enabling them to deal well with the quotidian oppression they encounter in the larger society.”

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White fathers love to shrug off these issues. After all, they got laid, and there was nothing else to it. But the very concept of an Asian looking child being born to an Asian mother who overvalued white men is a grand irony; on top of this, when one looks about him, and sees thousands – no, millions – of couples that look exactly like his parents’, the irony of taking pride in ones Asian appearance is staggering. 

Obviously most white men would never admit to this because that would imply that they would have to question their own self-interests and essentially deny themselves the pleasure of sex and companionship.

There was a book published last month by Sharon H. Chang, a rare case of a Eurasian with an Asian father, called:

Raising Mixed Race: Multiracial Asian Children in a Post-Racial World (New Critical Viewpoints on Society).

In it she avoids openly stating that it is problematic that there are millions of Asian boys born to openly racist couples, (yes, “preferring” white men is racism in and of itself), but she has some extremely brutal lines, which I reiterate here.

Not surprisingly then, it was less than a generation ago that mixed Asians were typically assumed to be by-products of military dominance and conquest…. Multiracial Asians then are also centrally imagined as Asian (Asian mothers) and white (U.S. father soldiers). To this day people are surprised upon learning my father is Asian and my mother is white. By contrast, when people learn my husband’s father is white and his mother is Asian they nod knowingly as if to say, “That makes sense.” Subsequently portrayals of mixed race Asians, when present, are usually visible only as Asian/white while other Asian mixes remain conspicuously absent.”

More.

One especially disturbing finding of this research study is the intense racial isolation that our white-racist system creates for mixed race Asian children and their parents. Even within Asian American communities, the children often face racial isolation in various forms, including in regard to finding peers and adults who look like them and can be positive role models. Isolated and often insulated as well, multiracial Asian children have difficulty in developing self-esteem and a positive identity enabling them to deal well with the quotidian oppression they encounter in the larger society. As Chang eloquently puts it, being mixed race American today “does not mean race carefree by any stretch of the imagination” and certainly does not “signal the impending arrival of a post-racial paradise led by super-bred superhero hybrids.”

Chang demonstrates that this isolation is made worse when, as is common, the parents do not teach their multiracial children substantial anti-racist lessons about our racist system, its principal discriminators, and the omnipresent white framing. Generally speaking, the children are “not gaining the cognitive nourishment and well-tailored tools necessary to acknowledge and resist racism and develop an aware sense of racial self.” Indeed, most parents are effectively indoctrinated in elements of the dominant racial frame — including elements of its white superiority subframe and of its anti-Asian subframe. Most have bought into the white framing that asserts that the United States is post-racial, that racism is no longer a serious matter, and that their multiracial children will not face serious problems, because the country is becoming more multiracial. A substantial great majority are prone to unrealistic optimism substantially articulated out of a colorblind post-racial framing.

In other words, the dawning of the era of Eurasians – almost uniformly born to White men and Asian women – was poorly, if not never, planned, on the basis of pure mythos and hearsay; i.e., “Eurasian children are supermen, despite myself not knowing any.” In actuality, the prevalence of Eurasians is more so a result of the compete eradication and ignorance of Asian men in western (and even Eastern) countries, the implicit understanding that Asian men simply do not match up to White men in terms of looks, status, wealth or desirability –

Yet half-Asian children bear the hallmarks of this, namely, our Asian looks.

It is a tragedy in the making.

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2009: “Asian/White hapa’s are for the most part really good looking, but they always have weird mental problems for some reason. Anger, depression, it’s always something. Maybe it’s the abusive father and over-subservient mother complex.”

My blog originated in 2014. In 2009 I was at the peak of my “crazy” behavior (i.e. losing 60 pounds in 3 months, having extreme body image issues as a man, and overall attempting to be white).

In 2009, people were already noticing this. If any of the readers here actually went out and met some Hapas, they would start noticing certain patterns.

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Largely – it’s a difficult proposition to navigate the world as a half-Asian child, born under the conditions that white fathers were better than Asians. Look at it from this perspective.

Your half Asian son sees white women laughing at Asian men – then sees Asian women laughing at Asian men – and then sees his own mother married to a white man, and all her friends married to white men.

If my readers think that this line of thought is largely limited to me, or this blog, you’re sorely mistaken.

Any white fathers / Asian mothers who believed that they were truly innocent would be attempting to nip this in the bud now, rather than wait. But in actuality, this is the truth:

These people actually do believe that white men are superior – yet raise half Asian children. The probability of us being resentful of our parents, angry, mentally unbalanced or manic depressive is very, very high.

Everything said on this website is true; One of your own children is spilling all the beans on WM/AW couples.

To white male / Asian female lurkers: I don’t have to appeal to you. I have to appeal to the billions of people who were on the fence about you, but now will recognize you for the horrid people that you really are.

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  • Your value as a Eurasian is how white you look.
  • White fathers believe that just showing up, wearing an aikido uniform, making friends with your sensei doesn’t mean you know what it’s like to be Asian.
  • White male obsession with Asian culture is actually an obsession with Asian women.
  • White men saying they’re good fathers isn’t enough in raising a child when your relationship is loaded to hell with century-old implications of power and race imbalance.
  • You’re an idiot if you think that children don’t pick up on mommy / daddy being a different race and a million other couples having the same appearance.
  • White male obsession with Asian women is 9 out of 10 times an obsession with the only women that feel would tolerate you for their faults. Physical or social.
  • Relationships between white men / Asian women is directly rooted in the race of the man and the hope for whiter babies (my mother dyed her hair, wore colored contacts, took a white last name).
  • Asian women practice open racism where white men have much higher value than the average Asian man; they then have the nerve to tell half-Asian children to be proud to be Asian.
  • Half Asian sons are being raised by women who deliberately support the idea that whiteness is superior. Don’t believe me? Go ask one.
  • White men directly enable and manipulate self-hatred and white-worship to get laid and try to raise their sons as “substitute white people” (my father did this).
  • Asian women marry out of a desire to rebel against their culture, or because white men are taller / more sexually attractive, yet try to claim the Hapa identity as theirs. They spent decades trying to define Eurasians as being “beautiful / intelligent / talented” as a cover for their open racism.
  • The Hapa identity is a fabrication used to justify the idea that white blood makes Asians better. Hapas are not beautiful – white blood makes us more beautiful.
  • The preference for White men is not rooted in Asian male behavior, but overarching desire for whiter children, and white men. Asian male anger / bitterness (the natural result of being discarded) is then used to further excuse preference for white men, creating a perpetual cycle.
  • Ask any Asian woman, behind closed doors, why she likes white men, and she will admit that “Asian men are not attractive;” yet their sons will be Asian men.
  • Eurasians will always be reminded of how White men are better than Asian men, across the board, simply by leaving the house; my individual experiences, multiply it by millions – to understand that half-Asians are being born into a climate that Asian women created, one that hates the Asian male appearance.
  • Saying “no Asians” is open racism that no half-Asian son, in his right mind, if he knew his mother said this same thing, could ever love her.
  • The “Hapa” myth of Eurasian beauty only rings true for a small percentage of men, the others who just look Asian.
  • A large number of Hapas pass successfully as white and don’t need to think about these things, which ideally was the ultimate objective of their parents, to be raised as “replacement white children.”
  • Eurasian children will suffer if they look even vaguely Asian, and will be constantly reminded of their low social worth by other Asian woman / white male couples that are not their parents.
  • Asian women will lie to their teeth in order to prevent the truth getting out – that white men are just more sexually attractive.
  • They will lie to their own children and tell us that being Asian is a good thing when it is not a good thing to look anything like an Asian male.
  • Asian women are extremely privileged in White society and only after they have Asian looking kids do they try to prepare us for racism by teaching us about our heritage.
  • White men use Asian women for easy sex when White women fail to match their expectations of behavior, i.e., too slutty, sleeping with black men.
  • White men believe Asian women carry more “white values” than white women themselves.

Reddit Dump; Why Asian Women Set a Dangerous Precedent for Eurasian Sons; On This Week’s New York Time’s Hapa Article “Choose Your Own Identity”

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If no one else is going to talk about these things, I am going to. This blog is well on its way to being the number one half-Asian resource on the internet. Any commenters here would be smart to stick around. “Suck it up,” and “he’s hot” comments don’t work in reality. 

The majority of people on this blog claim that their wives / girlfriends / mothers weren’t looking for white men. Yet the fact remains that this is the most common interracial pairing, bar none. And the resulting children look Asian. So either I am lying, or someone else is lying. I am not lying, because I know for fact, from my father’s mouth, that my mother threw myself at him because he was white.

The result is that among these millions of children born, ideally the maximal potential for their abilities should be achieved, but since their own parents dictated to them that race matters, and that Asian men were inferior to white men, the potential for burning out is massive, especially as they get older and “sexual preferences” become more of an issue past childhood.

There is little that would ever convince me to be a good, upstanding, or productive citizen if I found out that my own mother preferred white men. What kind of horror would this amount to if a child caught wind of this – that ones own mother hated Asianness, and Asian men – the ones capable of producing full Asian children – yet producing a half Asian son?

Anyone who has ever known more than one Hapa would attest to this.

Anyways, morsels of wisdom from /r/Hapas, the only real community of Eurasians on the internet, one growing daily and destined to become a massive collective think tank for all Hapa / Eurasian / half-Asian issues.

The reason WMAF Asian mothers fail, is not because of what they say, but what they do. No matter how much they claim to value Asian activism, their “revealed preferences” for white men, en masse, on a scale unlike any other race of women, is the ONLY true message they send to their Half Asian sons.

A link from user Mtzo, also the creator of (I think, though he’s never admitted it) stuffeurasianslike.wordpress.com. Reddit thread can be seen here.

More from him, regarding this New York Times article from this week about biracialism:

mtzoWM/AW Son 1 day ago

Coming from her position, it would be “problematic” for her to ever directly challenge the choices of Asian women, as bluntly as we do at [here].

But she is definitely hinting at some of our points. She brings up that Eurasian boys might seek to be white, at the very young age of 5; because of all the anti-Asian racism. She also calls out the hypocrisy of a WMAF Asian woman judging a 5 year old boy for his Asian shame. In context “As a child, I most wanted to fit in.” points to the Asian mother wanting to be “normal” (read white). And so the author is at least gingerly hinting at the Asian mother contributing to the valuing of whiteness, and then judging her son for seeking the very thing she values. It just shows that the r/Hapas position is not as “crazy” as our critics made it out to be a few months ago, and is even gaining traction among the Hapa Establishment, from leading figures within mixed race feminism and social justice.

More from him;

There are numerous articles written by Asian moms about wanting to preserve the Asian side of their Hapa sons. The problem is that, these Hapas are not feeling shame about their Asian side for no reason. And the plain fact is, these Asian moms might very will be prime contributors to Asian shaming, by making their outmarriage and racial preferences known in such huge numbers. It is impossible to look at outmarriage in such monumental numbers and not interpret it as a judgement against Asian and Half Asian men. And many Asian women are quite open in saying it.

I don’t believe Hapas should try to pretend they are white. I believe it is a strategy doomed to fail. But I can certainly understand why at age 5, a Hapa would think being an Asian boy is something to run away from. The Asian mom acts so shocked and horrified by it. Not realizing that the millions of women like her ARE making being an Asian boy something to be ashamed of. To put it bluntly as long as WMAF remains so imbalanced, and on a scale unlike any other race of women, Hapa boys WILL be ashamed to be Asian. Some might come to hate WMAF for emasculating them. While others will go in the other extreme direction of becoming White Nationalists to prove their whiteness. Asian women are making Asianess something to be ashamed of in their sons.

Tsui writes about when she was younger she wanted to “fit in”. If we flesh out the real meaning of these sentiments, it probably means that she wasn’t a “real American” because she was Asia. Now that she has a white husband shes “normal”. And of course her Half white son also wants to be normal. His mom is Chinese, but hes not. I believe that the bloggers was at least softly chiding Tsui on some of these exact points.

His particularly chilling comment:

Perhaps Tsui as an individual is sincere yet problematic. My personal belief is that being a WMAF Hapa son, can’t be separated from the nature of actually existing WMAF. In which it carries a ton of racial and gender baggage, and is happening in such a manner as that a Half Asian boy would have legitimate reasons to feel shame at being an Asian boy.

From user “Bestofbothworlds2”

[–]bestofbothworlds2son of hapa parents 7 points1 day ago*

It’s nice to see a hapa speak out for us and criticize these (always Asian) mothers who insist on speaking for their children while they are too young to disagree. These (until recently) were the only hapa narratives that ever seemed to get any readership. Funnily enough, when their children grow up and have voices of their own, their words are rarely so self-serving.

It annoys me when parents extol the virtues of being mixed race and ramble about how they are doing the world a service, making it more color blind. Further fragmenting a community that is already as fragmented as the Asian-American community is is not doing anyone a service except the Asian women who leave it and the white men they inevitably marry. Interracial marriage does NOT make for better race relations unless a majority percent of the population is very open to them, and with all races and genders in equal measure. If this is not the case, it may even make existing race relations worse.

Being hapa in many ways is trading undiluted Asianness – the languages, the cultures, having a huge part of the world that belongs to people like you, and everything that entails – for white DNA. Is it worth it?

My comment:

Ultimately the hope is that we would never have had issues with it. For twenty years Asian women and white men prayed fervently that these issues would never be revealed as being less than innocuous. And given that there are so many hapas coming here agreeing and yet a number who just plug their ears and scream “no it’s not true!” reveals in actuality that these women do indeed wish that asianness be subverted without any collateral damage.

Now that the collateral damage is happening, they are quickly backtracking on their hatred.

Eurasian of the Year

How did the daughter of the VP of Goldman Sachs, from a family worth maybe hundreds of millions of dollars, who went to church and played piano, wind up taking a bus to New Jersey to appear in the worst, most notorious and possibly illegal rape themed pornography – for the grand sum payment of $200? 

Eurasians are a unique brand of crazy. It’s like we’re thrust into this world where we’re told to abide by our mother’s Confucian Tiger mom stringent controlling domineering bullshit – yet we’re also pretty keen on the reality of sexual dynamics and race, that we’re pretty much monkeys where vaginas (in our case, Asian vagina) goes to whoever’s in power, who is perceived as having the highest status, biggest dick, whatever. It’s pretty obvious that Asian women have low standards for white men and high for Asian men; otherwise the interracial gap wouldn’t be as bad.

ALL Eurasians with white fathers and Asian mothers, at one point in their lives, question why virtually all of us have white fathers. Some Eurasians can make a joke out of it; “oh, my dad had yellow fever,” while some of us look straight up Asian and get shot down repeatedly for looking Asian. We endure a lifetime of Asian jokes – but we’re half white – and told by our callously privileged Asian mothers to suck it up. More often than not, we get the sense that our Asian mothers believe that we are some eugenic master race – that we are better – because we have white fathers (note, we don’t say white mothers, as white mothers of half Asian children don’t practice eugenics).

And we get told, by our mothers, to just go through the motions; play an instrument, do well in school, be a good little Asian student – but we’re mixed and we have a white dad lording over us, so essentially – we have the Asian life plan, but also the brutal reality of recognizing that white males always win out over Asian males. I myself had a meteoric rise – until I started learning that even Asian women viewed me as an asexual Eurasian.

The incentive to be a well performing Eurasian guy, when we are being told, from birth, that we are better because we are whiter, that our fathers were white – that being Asian itself has no merit, and that only with white blood are we suitable members of society; well, the incentive is very, very low.

I’m not even going to voice how badly it fucks us up growing up under the most loaded relationship on this rotten fucking planet – but just imagine for a second what it’s like.

That being said, ladies and gentlemen who come to my corner of the internet, here is my all-time favorite Hapa. I wish I could meet this girl in real life. She’s like my twin, in terms of her background, her potential, and her behavior.

Kelly Baltazar. Father is a nice little Vice President at Goldman Sachs – the bank, in case you haven’t heard of it. Not many more big boy players in New York City than this dude. Penthouses, three thousand dollar suits, Mercedes, marble columns in their apartment – I know all this because my family is pretty rich too, I’ve been around this kind of wealth (not my mom and dad, but the Chinese family that married Chinese).

Mommy is a real nice looking, controlling Asian mom. Dad probably thought he was getting a good deal; (he’s Jewish, but blue eyed and has that weak, nice guy but probably when he was younger was a stocky, cocky short pseudo-arrogant shmuck that white women ignore but Asian girls loved). Sounds familiar to my story, one of a meteoric rise and fall from grace, where I was Ivy League educated, had immense potential, well liked, popular, thousands of friends, good looking, tall, top of my class, and then was hit so hard in the face with racial reality and confusion that I self-imploded furiously. Our backgrounds, one of higher education, Tiger Momming, faux-morality shoveled into our faces (right down to the violin / piano in church), are dead on point.

That was until Kelly did Facial Abuse and got face-banged so hard until she threw up. On camera. She did this for $200 and joined literal hookers in New Jersey to be on a porn site that even other porn stars don’t want to be on. Don’t believe me, Google it. NSFW.

The psychopathy of having a fetish couple as parents; Tiger Momming; emotionally vapid white fathers – or even pedophiles or other deviants (since lots of these guys love Asian women) – cultural confusion, hatred at our own physical features, physical confusion – all of it is really, really bad.

Kelly, if you ever come across this, reach out to me, let’s work together. I see you’re rubbing shoulders with the rich and famous, partaking in some “culture.” We both know that you ain’t hiding what you did forever. Embrace it – you DESTROYED them. Everyone around you is such a feeble goddamn liar, pretending everything is alright, with their status, their flashy handbags, their educational titles – it means nothing to you. You let them know that there are consequences to doing what they did – it ain’t a victimless crime, and everything won’t be “all good,” any more. Your art really isn’t amazing but I could teach you some tricks, too, since I’m an artist too. I’m way too crazy to do anything else.

I’d give anything to have been a fly on the wall when your parents found out. I’d give anything for you to contact me. I actually, beneath all the sarcasm, actually admire you very much. That’s one hell of a family photo. Much better than the ones I’ve ever taken.

Kelly Baltazar singlehandedly destroyed the myth of the dutiful little Eurasian girl – and I will destroy that of the Eurasian boy. She is my hero.

September 2016 edit.

It came to my attention that Japan’s most famous porn star, Maria Ozawa – literally the most famous Japanese pornstar of all time – was from an Asian mother and white father.

In what seems to be an equivalent attempt to humiliate and demean her parents – Maria Ozawa came home to her parents’ house with 20 of her pornographic videos and attempted to have her parents watch them. 

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  1. Her parents found out through a magazine or something and are strongly opposed to her doing AV to this day and her friends cut off all ties with her because of her decision to enter AV
  2. Maria Ozawa brought home 20 of her videos she’s starred in to show her parents and they told her to get the hell out.