Why I’m not proud to be Asian, even though I’m half Asian.

The above movie “Chink,” from 2013, features a Eurasian male character played by a Eurasian actor  Jason Tobin (white father, Asian mother), and features his obsession with white women, his hatred of his own blood and his murder of full Asian men. Why? Because this is the exact message Asian women send to their own sons.

Every single time an Asian woman says “ew, Asian men,” they by proxy attack the half-Asian male children of Asian women that said the same thing twenty years earlier. It’s a time loop that is going to cause more and more Eurasian suicides, mental illness, murderers and violence.

 And if you think that Eurasian people don’t look Asian… Jason Tobin, the actor, looks fully Asian despite being half. So what will an Asian mother who “only dates” white men tell her own son who looks totally Asian?


I’d love to be proud, but it’s this insanely ironic.

Does everyone recall how Elliot Rodger stabbed three Chinese students to death despite being half Chinese?

Did you scratch your head wondering why this happened?

I’ll explain it in less than 300 words given my experiences. Frankly don’t listen to Asian women when they try to write the half Asian 混血儿 story for us. Don’t listen to anyone’s telling of the half-Asian experience other than the one found on this blog, because they’re frankly either lying or don’t want to admit it (ahem: Asian women).

It’s because being half Asian is just an excuse for Asian women having “white fever.” Half Asian men aren’t more attractive, white men (even the biggest losers like my dad) are more attractive, and half-Asian sons are just the “best case scenario” when a white man and an Asian woman have children.

Every time I try to look in the mirror and accept my black hair that sticks up straight, my dark eyes, my Chinese blood and my heritage, all I have to do is go outside.

I see thousands of Asian women throwing themselves at white men, talking awful shit about Asian guys on dating sites, and then I remind myself that I too have a western last name. I then think back to the times I was turned down by white AND Asian women for being half Asian.

Tell me: what pride would I take in being Asian? It’s so much easier to just identify as Russian or white or even Uzbek. Since white men are “so handsome,” why not just identify totally as white?

So whenever you hear or see Hapa mamas tearfully complaining about how their own little boys scream “I’m not Chinese!”, why the hell would we want to be part of a losing team?

Ever wonder why Nathan Adrian hardly ever talks about his Asian heritage?

Every wonder why Markiplier rarely talks about it either, despite him having a brother who looks totally Asian?

Every wonder why Markiplier is way more successful than his totally Asian looking brother?

Because nobody wants to be on the losing team. Again, we’re on the fast track to producing another mass murderer, encouraging more half-Asian suicides, throwing half Asian children down an incredible well, and yet nobody is listening, and yes, this criminal is going to have a white father and an Asian mother, just like the last 15 of them.

Sticky: Asian Women and White Men: Why the Mental Health of Hapa Sons and Daughters of White Men and Asian Women Needs to be Addressed, and Why You Should Reach Out to Hapa People.

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I changed the above picture for fear of doxxing. Use this blog as an example of how troubled Hapas can be, some worse than others. I wrote this essay about two years ago, at the peak of a very, very damaging breakdown. Since then, thanks to a supportive community and a (now large) group of Eurasians putting their brains together, I have transformed this blog into a rational discussion of the dangers of hatred, the reality of race relations even in romance, and even discovered the source of why I was so crazy; my older posts (if you go back to the beginning) can be used as a representation of the kind of damage that was done to my mind, and the kind of psychosis that can be found in mixed young men and women without proper intervention. If I hadn’t started this blog, I would likely now be dead or imprisoned, and ironically by writing I found the source of the very unsettling problems I had no more than two years ago; hence I won’t change the title. If you don’t believe that I am Hapa, continue reading. I try to present the issues as honestly as I can.

I am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged male – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.

Iimage1-5magine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?

In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall, red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white.

This man was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture).

I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including almost all of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men, and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade. 

My parents’ relationship was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.

When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian, and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal.

Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going  and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women, hate my Asian side, so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissecting White male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.

I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood. 

highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went.

I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.

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Being Half Asian is Essentially an Impossible to Navigate Pyramid Scheme pushed by Asian women and White men

Do you want to understand Asian people? Then go right to their source: their own children, and since so many of the modern incarnations of Asian people in the west are multiracial, let me explain what we have to go through.

Literally, go seek out any mixed family and see how the mother suddenly tries to push her kids into Asian activities (I was pushed into learning Mandarin, doing Kumon, Taekwondo), see how her toddlers openly express disdain for anything Asian, look at how the mothers all seem to hyphenate their names in a last minute push to reclaim Asian identities, yet the fathers all look the same. The majority of our fathers are white.

If you don’t believe me: just leave your house and see for yourself.

The entire thing is largely an exercise in irony.

Let me explain. Do you recall the philosophical statement made on the first season of True Detective? That “time is a flat circle?” I don’t recall the actual origin of the statement but we’ll work with that.

Asian women, in the present, actively create a miserable environment for Asian men, and make it so that identifying as Asian is essentially romantic and social suicide. Literally ask any Asian woman about this and she will admit to have attempted to cause as much pain as possible to an Asian man in her youth through her words and actions.

She will claim it is about feminism, yet any deep digging and pressure will reveal something that they themselves – and only themselves – know behind closed doors – that they are simply not attracted to Asian men, they fetishize white features (tall noses, and light colored eyes) or worse, that they inherently recognize that white men provide a better chance at societal acceptance. (The last part, i.e., about social acceptance, I have noticed after moving to Asia and realizing that the majority of Asian women actually do not date white men because of their low social standing here; hence feminism has nothing to do with it, as any intelligent woman would recognize that there are good and bad within each race).

The feminism part comes as a convenient way to dispel criticism for their non-attraction to Asian men, wherein it is easier to blame Asian men for being bitter; but any group would be bitter if they were told they were essentially genetically, romantically, socially worthless.

When an Asian woman gets older and has a child (like Deanna Fei), the majority of the time the child will endure racism. She will try to teach the child to be proud of his or her heritage, all the while doing this surrounded by Asian women also married to white men.

These white men are completely unable to understand why a half Asian child would be romantically and socially spurned by men and women alike; after all, it never occurred to him that his partner was with him specifically because he was white, and even if he did, he was getting laid.

So in actuality unmarried Asian women in the present create an environment hostile to their half Asian children in the future – all the while passively attempting to claim ownership of hapas. Time is a flat circle; all events happen at once.

The irony is immense. Just incredibly, incredibly immense. 

All of my Chinese New Year events growing up were filled with white men looming over their Asian wives and girlfriends… And yet I was supposed to have developed a subconscious appreciation for my Asian side? Is this why I cut my hair short for years to avoid its black texture and color from coming out?

If anything Asian mothers have no right to tell their children that they feel guilty about us not wanting to embrace our Asian side. These mothers created the atmosphere – in their past and present – that deliberately penalized Asian blood.

What’s even worse is that being Eurasian is actually so emotionally and psychologically traumatizing for so many different reasons that even I can’t understand (being subconsciously castrated is one, wanting badly to be white but failing is another), that…

When Eurasians do act out in horrible ways, it’s not our white side that gets blamed. It’s our Asian side! Despite Asian men having almost zero bearing in our real lives; aside from my uncles who I saw once a year at Chinese New Year, I was raised entirely by my white father.

So even then, even in our darkest hour, our own collective motherhood is against us. And they know this is true, and like anyone else, they attempt to control the discussion, justify their actions while minimizing any blame and responsibility for creating an atmosphere (so, so, so many Asian women act like this) wherein their own sons are confused, don’t know why their confused – all because their mothers could not admit they were simply more attracted to white men. 

Just imagine the sense of betrayal looking Asian and seeing Asian women like your mother reject people who look like you en masse. It no longer has to do with feminism – it has to do with open 1960’s style racism and then being told by them that “we are not entitled to love, life, or happiness.” Even black, Latina, and other minority women are fully aware of this – hence the divide between Asian feminists and other feminist groups.

We don’t have any books to help us, we don’t have any outlet other than saying; oh, well, yeah, then I guess Asian men are really undesirable, so then, I’d better identify as white as I can, or spend the rest of my life lonely, and since feminists say that I am not entitled to anything – well, certainly that must be true; I am worthless.

It’s much worse than being a tragic mulatto. It’s ten times worse, and eventually the chickens will come home to roost.

For my readers: please try to understand the horror of being a half Asian born into a pairing that is deeply, deeply, unfathomably racist at its core, and yet trying to navigate this without going berserk somewhere down the line. And even if it’s not racist, it’s at best a biological paradox where Asian women despise the thought of touching an Asian male physically – and yet their own sons are half-Asian and supposed to accept this.

It’s essentially biological slavery.

It’s a scheme. A very, very vicious scheme that only the most depraved Asian women would allow to exist.

With that being said, there are plenty of aware Asian women out there who understand this basic principal. The problem is that they’re not the ones having Hapa kids by the millions.

Hapa / Half Asian Babies as Social Currency, and on Asian Women Altering Their Appearance

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Mini-celebrity Dawn Yang. I recognize the red hair dye and colored contacts from my mother.
Self hatred is mental illness; trying to look like another race is mental illness; valuing another race over ones own is mental illness, and this all leads to mentally ill, half-Asian children, because they are not white, but rather, half-Asian children born to an Asian woman who thought whiteness was better, and had the tools to get access to a white man.

Just now during lunch I saw a commercial featuring two Asian women holding half-Asian babies. Obviously the children were not theirs but they were somebody’s.

What’s alarming to me is the rate that Asian women use their half Asian children as social currency. Many of them, on the social app called “Mei Pai”, show off their half Asian children as evidence of being progressive, when in actuality Asian culture is extremely status conscious, and having a half-white child would be an immediate way to one-up ones peers, and even people they don’t know.

Also, since many of the Asian women are extremely status-driven, (my mother was a cold-blooded careerist from an extremely successful Hong Kongese family and my dad still hates her elder brother, constantly telling me how empty he is despite being worth some several hundred million), marrying a white European man was the best way to accomplish her goals, despite the fact that she never actually loved him. In fact, I don’t recall once in my life that my mother said “I love you” to either my father or us, and for the entire time that I can recall (having been together for 20 years), they neither slept in the same room, showed any sort of affection, or displayed any kind of behavior other than one of violence and open disgust, despite my father continuing to claim this day to have loved her.

So, similarly, on Meipai, you never see the white father in the pictures, rather, only the baby. Similarly, Singaporean blogger Xiaxue is the same way. The child itself is a commodity, praised for our beauty, and then essentially left on our own to raise ourselves, since our mothers were largely irrational sociopaths that couldn’t conceptualize being mixed race beyond “white skin, light eyes,” and our fathers were aloof opportunists who took advantage of Asian culture’s ills (like self-hatred) to get laid.

I went through a photo album last night of my family and two things stuck out to me; 1) my mother had dyed her hair red, and wore colored contacts, to the point that when she wore sunglasses, she actually looked like a dark skinned white woman; 2) she also looked like she weighed 70 pounds since apparently this is a technique that some Asian women use to look whiter. 3) She never, ever, ever went near my father in any of the photos.

It’s literally the worst of both worlds getting together.

  • One, a woman whose self-hatred and / or hate for Asian culture and Asian men is so intense that she deliberately sought out a white man for “beautiful babies”, status, or bragging rights.
  • Two, a white man who usually was too socially inept and also morally repugnant enough to impregnate a woman who refused to be with an Asian man.

Needless to say, is this healthy for the children? No.

Will all Hapas suffer? No. But will many suffer? Time will tell.

The Truth about being a “Beautiful Half-Asian Hapa Baby”

Some random observations:

  • When you have a son, your privilege as a blue-eyed white male is thrown out the door.

Whereas, if your partner were constantly complimenting your blue eyes, your son will not be able to leverage his blue eyes in order to secure a mate. He will instead have to rely on different factors, and since the number of women, including Asian women, who openly favor Asian men, is much lower, this will be damaging to his emotional well-being. For every Asian woman who deliberately rejected Asian men, so forth will your Eurasian son be rejected. My clash with my monumental ego and narcissism, years back, where I was literally obsessed with my looks, sent me into a rage when I was rejected by a white woman for being Asian (I’ve mentioned this many times before).

  • On “beautiful Hapa babies.”

This is by and large a lie. All babies are universally cute, but this does not translate to being an attractive male. A desire for a beautiful baby is essentially on par with having a pet; hence you see many divorced Asian women (divorced largely because of their insane behavior, like my mother’s, wherein the child is part of a fantasy) using their children as status symbols. My mother constantly showed me off to her siblings and mentioned my tall nose and deep eyes whereas ostracizing my father, but again, this does not translate to necessary success in the future; it is borderline narcissism wherein the love for the child is not love per se, but love as long as [qualifications] exist.

If you do a youtube search for “half asian babies” you will find a number bragging about how their children have blue eyes; despite this being impossible, the idea that such white worship is prevalent is extremely, extremely troublesome.

My case was unusual. My mother seemed to like my brother more than me despite him being black haired, black eyed. She Tiger Mommed him more than me, but less cruelly; I began to think that it was because I was either born via C-section or because I didn’t look like her, or even some kind of resentment towards me. My memory doesn’t go back that far so I can’t figure out the reason for this yet.

On “beauty;” In fact, any person who will want to make the distinction (i.e., a person who doesn’t like Asians) will not differentiate between full Asian and half, even if you don’t look Asian. Go on any website discussing white looking Eurasians like Adam Smith or Cary Fukunaga, and the comments are there.

  • I’ve come across many Hapas who complained of feeling embarrassed while walking with their parents. I have experienced this too, but moreso, more when walking with my father (as my mother is dead).

Regardless of their intentions, (and I know my parents’ were bad), the assumptions made that my father was an Asiaphile, a loser, or couldn’t get a white woman are there. In my case, they were true, but I don’t think most people bother to differentiate when it’s so common. Obviously, there will be exceptions to this rule, particularly among less intelligent Hapas, like my brother. 

  • It’s frankly impossible for a Eurasian to not notice the interracial imbalance unless they come from entirely white states.

I think many Eurasians that you meet on the street, especially the tall, good looking ones, tend to favor White women (if they can) out of a subconscious rejection of the “white-fever” and “yellow-fever” they are associated with by extension, in any major American city. Another thing could be their rejection of their Asian side, as it is obvious to them that looking Asian is frankly a death sentence. Part of me thinks that Eurasian women do this too, mostly out of a repugnance for their own mothers… if you go read some of the comments on this blog, there are a ton of Eurasian girls complaining about emotional abuse from their mothers.

 

“Real Life with A Japanese Wife”

My cliff notes:

  • Asian women that refuse their own men are probably not the best people, by the same rule of thumb that men of other races operate on (e.g., most black men would despise a black woman who hated black men; most white men would despise a white woman who hated white men). Even the Asian women who post here married to white men reveal “telling” character issues.
  • This is all well and dandy except the marriage results in children who grow up with parents who never actually liked each other and were together for the sake of convenience or fetishism. On top of that we’re constantly reminded that Asian men, which we are, failed to be seen, even by Asian women, as worthy of existing.

Somebody posted this video on Reddit. Looking through the comments it seems a lot of white men came to an agreement. I didn’t watch all of it, maybe the first three minutes but that’s enough to make my commentary.

White men falsely perceive Asian women as being more morally sound. This is incorrect because any morally sound woman wouldn’t idealize the men of another race. This isn’t racist. This is saying that in a moral ideal, races wouldn’t have different values; most men are way too egotistical and / or naive to question the behavior of why a woman likes them.

(The issue becomes much more complex when Asian-looking sons are involved, however; hence I am forced to think about these things while my father is not.)

White men go through their entire lives not overtly being hit on by women, and then an Asian woman does it and they don’t see red flags; despite a decade of being verbally humiliated by my mother (taking his gifts and throwing them against the wall, for example), he still believes her to be an angel because of her “traditional values”.

I’ve been hit on by women of all races. It’s actually fairly common (or was when I was younger, probably not so much now, there is, in my case, a truth to Eurasian beauty; not so much in the case of others). So I understand that women have something called autonomy – they don’t sit around waiting for a “good guy” with XXXXXX bank account to marry.

I’m not talking about approaching women – most men can get dates like that after a certain point in their life after they accumulate enough capital; I’m talking about having certain qualities that make women approach you when you’re young (i.e., looks, good hair, height, narrow-tapered waist and broad shoulders, confidence, non-neurotic behavior).

A lot of white guys go their whole lives never attracting attention from a white woman in the west; they go to Asia and suddenly are approached by Asian women, or are approached by Asian American women, and they think this is indicative of a moral agency, rather than, in objective terms, bias, or even worse, ulterior motives. (By moral agency, I mean that it is assumed that they like “traditional values,” as embodied by a white man).

Most men completely lack the self-awareness and experience to discern between a foreign woman’s “attention” and genuine love, which, if she had been living in her own space for 20-some odd years, would at very least have leveled against a single local guy, at one point in her life.

Anyways, my dad was and is an extreme paleoconservative. But it doesn’t have anything to do with his politics. There was no way in hell he could ever have landed a white woman; to this date he is unable to make prolonged eye contact with most other people. He mistook my mother’s affection for him as a sign of morality when in fact it was his height and blue eyes that were the draw.

Their entire marriage was a hell of death threats, separate bedrooms, swinging knives, verbal abuse, sexlessness, and yet he still couldn’t see it. He couldn’t imagine that a woman that scorned her own race of men wasn’t exactly sane.

The reason he didn’t know this was because he has never been with an Asian woman who liked her own men or a woman who liked Asian men; I am, and the differences are staggering. She adores children, is traditionally beautiful by Chinese standards, constantly gets complimented on her looks, and told me when we first went out that she “would never had said yes were I not half Chinese,” and that her primary qualification for a partner was “stability” and a “stable life.” I’ve also noticed in my life that the women interested in me had a tendency towards real beauty (not just mini-skirt hotness) and came from “normal” backgrounds; i.e., Jewish women, Caribbean immigrants, Indian, Mexican and Polish immigrants.

This is exactly a contrast to a woman who wants “a foreign husband,” because this entails a fantasy about what life with a foreigner is like, and when the fantasy proves to be different from her mental ideal, she will exhibit the childish, psychotic behavior that made her unable to differentiate between fantasy and reality in the first place.

Of course I expect the collective IQ of the “yellow fetishists” who read this blog to be too low to understand this post, so I leave you with the warning that being a piece of shit and marrying a piece of shit is fine.

The problem is that your son will be half-Asian and the ball is up in the air after that.

Daniel Holtzclaw’s case was not unique to Eurasians: READ ME

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Violence against black people and black women is not new to Eurasians.

Hapas winding up in white nationalism / racism is not new. I personally dabbled in it, if you read back into this website.

Sometimes it ends in violence.

There have been several cases, one involving a half-Asian white-supremacist woman with an Asian father, where a half-Asian Neo-Nazi planned a shooting at a mall in Halifax, Canada.

Another case you might be interested in (if you’re following the topic) is Marcus Epstein.

Arrested in ’07 for assaulting a black woman on the street. White father, Asian mother.

Epstein works for both MSNBC columnist Pat Buchanan, who has a long history of anti-immigrant extremism and white nationalism, and his sister Angela “Bay” Buchanan, who once called for a revolution to end immigration. Epstein is executive director of Pat Buchanan’s group, The American Cause. In addition, he serves as executive director of the immigrant-bashing Team America PAC, which was founded by Bay Buchanan and former Congressman Tom Tancredo, for whom Epstein wrote speeches during his recent presidential bid.

It seems that during the early evening hours of July 7, 2007, Epstein was walking near the intersection of Jefferson and M Street Northwest, in Washington, D.C., in a mild to severe state of intoxication. A friend of his later told the Secret Service that Epstein had been drinking. Apparently, Epstein was making offensive comments about non-whites, and decided to express himself more dramatically by calling an African-American woman passing by a “nigger” and then attempted to karate chop her in the head. He was briefly detained by the woman’s husband, but escaped, only to be taken into custody minutes later by a Secret Service officer who witnessed the altercation.

Marcus was half-Korean through his mother.

If you want the low down for what’s really going on, I summed it up here:

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Note Daniel’s sister’s appearance. Dyed blonde hair. 

A lot of Eurasians are essentially just raised as substitute white men, by white fathers whose extreme right wing views were not reasonable enough to get the real thing they wanted: white women. Even worse is that self-hatred for ones appearance is almost completely unique to Asians – for whatever reason (probably because they are unique in being so physically different from other races) – seem to dislike their dark features, have an obsession with light skin, and big eyes, both culturally and within Asian American domestic culture. I cut my hair very short for years to maintain its lighter brown color, and to avoid its oily, thick texture. But more importantly is that most Eurasians are raised by white men. 

I.e., when a white man has views that are way too “traditional” for the average white woman, he will leverage his race and his status (i.e., green card) to get an Asian woman, thus finding a partner who is complicit in his “traditionalist” oftentimes white-supremacist views.

It is possible for white men to harbor white nationalist views yet pair up with Asian women. Dylan Roof expressed admiration for Asians. Hitler was well known for viewing Asians as honorary Aryans. The creator of a massive Neo-Nazi website said: “Second, following from the key word there – “marriage” – the men who involve themselves with Asian women are looking for a serious and traditional relationship.  Women who go with Blacks and Latinos are looking for excitement.” 

So in other words, if a man is a White Supremacist, it’s fine to sleep with Asian women as they are seen to defer to White men. The kids are raised to be either substitute whites or “honorary Aryans,” or worse, “superior Eurasians.”

Every. Single. One. Of. My. Aunts’. Or. Cousins’. Boyfriends. Or. Husbands. Is. Some. Variation. Of. A. Social. Conservative. One is even a teacher in Harlem who has… strong views about this shit.

I’m telling you guys this from experience as a Hapa. Read these words carefully. If you want to go down the rabbit hole there’s a whole different kind of hell down there, in WMAW relationships. You just never considered it because it didn’t behoove you to think about it.

Why More and More Hapa / Half-Asian / Eurasian Criminals is Inevitable; The Coming Hapacalypse

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I am actually appealing to non-Asians to recognize these couples for what they are. My mother was like this, my father was an anti-black, antisemitic paleoconservative who valued an Asian woman for her “white worship”, completely disregarding other horrible characteristics of hers, in exchange for getting laid semi-regularly, and then not at all.

Anyone who has ever spent a significant time around Asian women realizes that there are more than a handful who have nothing but vitriolic and vile hatred in their hearts for Asian men. This probably has something to do with their failure to find them attractive (for physical reasons) so they essentially treat them as antagonists.

As if this were not problematic enough, these same women eventually go on to marry white men, and produce half-Asian children. These half-Asian children are exposed to the following elements:

  • Vitriol from Asian women
  • Massively unbalanced interracial dating
  • Constant attacks on Asianness by Asian women in relations with white men (the same ones who date white men yet still have to make the inferiority of Asian men well known)
  • The fact that they themselves naturally require a healthy identity in order to function yet Asian maleness was categorically attacked from the beginning; making healthy identity impossible.
  • A nihilistic sense of self worth where their entire usefulness is dictated by how Asian or un-Asian they look.

This in turn is producing millions of unhealthy Hapa children. 

They literally are creating a Catch-22 for their own sons, wherein they demonize Asianness, yet produce half-Asian sons, and then forbid them from complaining about being brutally reminded of their own inferiority (see the Esther Ku remark above or this one below):

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Even more obvious is the fact that when Asian women are confronted with this, their usual arguments are “we owe Asian men nothing,” “it is not our duty to find Asian men attractive;” which are all true.

However, as these same women are going to give birth to sons and can offer nothing more than off-the-bat platitudes and a complete lack of concern for the mental state of CHILDREN, it is necessary to deduce that:

These women (and men) are literally the last people on earth suited for raising half Asian children, especially men. By being so adamantly opposed to introspection they are actually proving me right in implying they are not suitable for motherhood / fatherhood. A mother / father’s job is to care wholly for the wellbeing of her child, lest she produces a societal-detriment, which we are already filled to the brim with.

So what is happening now is that Asian women are attempting to level the blame onto half-Asian men in the present, in order to immunize themselves in the future from their own self blame, which will happen.

However, the real blame needs to be leveled on two parents, an Asian woman and white man (again, oftentimes a man, like my father, who enjoys feeling “superior” over rejected Asian men; or in many cases, just worshipped for his race unjustly whereas he feels white women failed to do so), who do not care for the mental health or spiritual wellbeing of their own sons, a demographic they are callously bringing into the world by the millions, a demographic that is destined to explode in what I call: The Hapacalypse.

We have already seen in two years such violent outbursts from Hapas, all with Asian mothers and white fathers. There will be more coming.

On this date, December 14th, 2015, remember that I, a Eurasian, specifically blamed the dynamic of White Men and Asian Women for creating a demographic of monsters. 

I no longer am concerned with appealing to Asian women. I am concerned with appealing to you, my non-Asian readers, to recognize these people for what they are. This is not a “progressive” pairing. It is racism. Please, please, please recognize this before it is too late. Do I have to remind you about how my mother commented on my high nose, light eyes, repeatedly, while concurrently having a massive blowout at my father for harboring anti-semitic, Holocaust denying views?

Yes, I am Eurasian / Hapa / half-Asian, yes I am real, and no I won’t show my face right now out of fear for attack and retribution. This will happen eventually. But please, please, believe me.

It doesn’t matter how many Asian women deny this; by this blog even existing and popping up after virtually any “half-Asian” search (and within a few months it will be the number one search result), this becomes a problem for society as a whole, and ideally it will ruin the social lives and society’s view of these pairings rather than them being hoisted up as being progressive.

There is no “white-only” Asian woman on the PLANET who would admit to this being a plausible issue; but it doesn’t matter – all I have to do is sway public opinion to my side using reason and truthfulness, and then the whole roof will cave in. That means: appealing to non-Asians, blacks, whites, Hispanics, Muslims, etc. You all know well the adage of the “pen being more powerful than the sword.” You want world peace? Then dismantle the goddamned systems of power and hierarchies that exist in so called “free countries” and stop valuing your own selfish needs for five goddamned minutes.

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Summary:

Being biracial is an incredibly complex issue, especially considering when the majority of biracial people tend to fall along similar lines of parentage. It is oxymoronic for any bi-racial group to develop a healthy identity when it is saturated with latent implications of racial-gendered superiority and inferiority.

(In layman’s terms, do you really expect millions of Hapas, born overwhelmingly to parents who thought Asian men unattractive – let’s be honest, that’s what’s going on, and surrounded by Asian women who hate Asian men, are going to be normal?)

Hypothesis: The frequency of the relationships between White males and Asian women (as opposed to the infrequency of the relationship between Asian men and White women) is primarily based on the uniform higher status, higher economic standing or biological desirability of white men…

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…the intentional or unintentional universal undesirability or lower status of Asian males – explaining the monumentally unbalanced interracial dating ratios. Eurasian sons, in particularly, are largely considered Asian men and fail to benefit from the social and sexual freedom (i.e., not being stereotyped as misogynist and / or asexual) their fathers had, unless they are extremely lucky, and live with the baggage of a peculiar kind of pairing that is weighed with heavy sociological implications.

Regardless of any politicized or non-politicized belief, politically correct or not, the fact remains from both empirical evidence provided by Eurasians (not by white men or Asian women), and data aggregated by /r/Hapas, that Eurasians are still constantly reminded that they are of less value than white men, even by women who will someday become future mothers to Asian looking Eurasian sons and even by the men who themselves are the fathers to Asian looking Eurasian sons.

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Another Psychotic Eurasian Breakdown from 2012

For a group of supposedly well-rounded, intelligent Eurasians, what causes this kind of breakdown?

The Chinese mom of Eurasian murderer Thomasdinh “Dinh” Bowman says she blames herself for his crimes. His white father, Thom Bowman said “We will carry this burden with us the rest of our lives.”

Again, I expect to hear the usual: “not all Eurasians are serial killers.” Of course not. But healthy relationships produce healthy people. The White male / Asian female coupling is promoted as being healthy and progressive – but in actuality, what is progressive about a woman outright refusing to consider Asian men as partners and overvaluing whiteness to the point that she MUST have a white man, or bust?

Eurasians have long been held up as being the pinnacle of beauty, intelligence, and talent, but who exactly has fabricated this generalization? The answer: Asian women, seeking to justify their overwhelming preference for white men, and looking to self-define their inevitable offspring as being better as a result; both better than full Asians (which they seek escape from), and better than full whites, which they want to believe as a mechanism to rationalize their sense of inferiority (to whiteness), and superiority (i.e., that she was able to “take a white man from a white woman.”

There are tall, good looking Eurasians out there, yes. There are successful Eurasians too. There are “good” WM/AW couples too. But the bar is set incredibly low. For all of them that are tall, handsome, and get halo-effected from their height alone, there are twice as many who don’t benefit from this. There are twice as many with racist parents raising them.

But ultimately, what we have is: two people who (generally) are together for repugnant reasons (the man for easy sex and the feeling of being worshipped for his race and rewarded for being a white male; the woman for the benefit of hypergamy, or marrying into a race she feels as being superior), producing a child who looks fully or very or even a little bit Asian, who is stuck between worlds and reminded constantly of his low social worth by Asian women, including his own mother (a fact he tries strenuously to ignore or excuse).

My comments on this news story:

What is causing talented young Eurasians to kill?

Could it possible be the result of being told from birth that they are inferior to white men, even by their own parents?

How is this not true? How is it possible for a woman who firmly believes Asian men are unsuitable for marriage, to have a son who looks Asian? Someone come here, right now, and explain to me in a logical, sensible way, how this is possible.

 

My brother actually had a mental breakdown at age 29 too. He snapped at his day job stocking shelves and the police were called out of fear that he was getting violent. Even my uncle told me that he looked at my brother as the kind of the guy who would do a school shooting… and my brother is 100% unaware of anything Hapa related and loves my mom dearly.

I’m aware other races do this. But for a so called group of practically mythologized Eurasians, this is insane… and these are the ones we know about.

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This seems like another case of pent up rage / confusion that manifests in ones 20’s causing one to snap suddenly and unpredictably. I don’t know if there’s a term for this; is it “amok?”

When he described his actions in the police report he said that he was like in a haze when he pulled the trigger and didn’t recognize what he was doing… he could be lying but this sounds like a psychotic breakdown. Again, similar to Matthew De Grood that went seemingly from a normal young man to a mass murderer within a span of three weeks.

What the hell is going on?