🔥January 23, 2016: 20 Year Old Half Asian Thomas Wagoner Commits Suicide

This is the second public suicide of a half-Asian in one month.

Imagine if something was true: i.e., that half-Asians are born from Asian women who believed Asian men to be inferior, that integration was integral to a life of happiness, and give birth to half Asian sons who get bullied, consistently reminded by their own immediate families of their low self worth, and yet people refused to admit this could potentially be disastrous for their young sons because it would mean they had to deprive themselves of pleasure. How predictable.

“Wagoner, who was half-Asian, experienced bullying and racial discrimination as a child and teen”. Thomas Wagoner. Hapa ASU student that committed suicide by jumping off a building this month.

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Growing up in the tiny town of St. John’s, Wagoner, who was half-Asian, experienced bullying and racial discrimination as a child and teen at St. John’s High School, according to his family.

Still, when Thomas got to ASU, he seemed to thrive, Carey says.

“When he got to college, I asked him if he was still experiencing discrimination,” Carey says. “He said, ‘Once I got to ASU, I wasn’t a minority anymore. So I’m not discriminated against anymore.’”

Maybe not, but maybe he realized that like his mother, the majority of Asian women refused to see Asian men as human beings; a brutal nihilistic truth shoved into his face.

Well done, folks.

On “Well Adjusted Hapas”

The minute that anyone can tell me how an Asian looking Hapa who watches his own mother throw herself at non-Asian men can develop into a well rounded individual – let me know.

But I’ve heard through the grapevine about some “well adjusted Hapas.”

I’ve heard this a lot, but anyone who has ever known adult Hapas realize that many of us have severe problems.

I’d chalk this up to any number of things, one largely being the Tiger Mom, one being that ones own mother is a sociopath who rewarded white supremacy, one being that ones own father deliberately attempted to exert dominance over Asianness – i.e., children being raised by “raceplayers” (such as, white men who get off on sexual dominance over Asian women, just look up and Asian raceplay blog), one being the inability of the white father to correctly parent the half-Asian son (my father treating me essentially as a white child, never exposing me to Asian media), one being that due to the whole scale behavior of Asian women, identifying as Asian is largely a practice in masochism.

But by and large the issue is of looks.

If you meet a well adjusted “Hapa” – six out of ten times he will look almost completely white. And even then – like in the case of Daniel Holtzclaw or Elliot Rodger – the issues still linger. Three out of ten times, he won’t admit it, despite being an extremely passive aggressive type, emotionally unstable, perpetually single, and unwilling to badmouth his parents. One out of ten times the guy will be gay – either openly, but more likely, in the closet, out of fear of offending his conservative parents.

came close to looking white, very white. But more than enough times I’ve been told that I look Asian, that I have an “Asian vibe,” that girls “don’t date Asians.” And my brother – who looks full blown Asian – is 32, a virgin, but luckily too steeped in filial piety and his own mental illness that he would never even bother to question these things and is likely going to wind up dying without a kiss.

But more so, when I was between 18-24 or so, I passed as white. I passed as 100% white – people largely thought I was Russian except for the discerning types, who made a point to call me out on my Asian heritage in an attempt to belittle me. And that was when I realized that being Hapa wasn’t something to be proud of.

Being Hapa was never something to be proud of. It was largely a lie pushed onto us by hateful Asian women who sought out white men for integration, assimilation, money, status, or whiter kids; they put no thought into it other than slapping it with a general label of “beautiful Hapas” and gave us no roadmap at all for navigating a racist world – one that Asian women were themselves complicit in.

Frankly – if you look white, why would you even bother identifying as Asian unless you absolutely had to? Not only is there a monumental stigma against Asian males in any Western countries, but you would subject yourself to repeated comments from both men and women alike regarding your heritage. And no white-passing Hapa would ever be able to stomach full blown anti-Asian racism directed at them. At other Asians, sure, but not at them. 

One of the most offensive things to me is when non-Asians make comments about Asian people assuming that I won’t care. Such as:

  • “I don’t go to that library, there are way too many Asians in there.”
  • “So and so friend (who is Asian) blends right in here,” (when walking through Chinatown).
  • “Yeah, Asians are known for running cash-only scams and skimming to avoid tax.” (Maybe true but who gives a shit?)

The vast, vast, vast majority of time when you encounter a Hapa with problematic issues – he will look Asian. Are there Asian looking Hapas who are well adjusted? I’m sure there are, too, but I’m betting my bottom dollar still waters run deep.

This isn’t an opinion. I’m asking my readers to go out and actually meet these people because I know they exist.

And when there is a Hapa who stands up and says that people like me are lunatics – I am right here telling him, as a person who could pass as white without enough concerted effort – that they’re only behaving that way (i.e., “carefree”) because they have no experience being treated like an Asian.

Apparently with the way I look I am treated as Asian by only the most discerning – but that’s what counts. Even a little bit of Asian blood is enough to earn the hatred of people who care enough to make the distinction. Even Asian women have done this to me.

So “white passing” happy-go-lucky Hapas who try to deny these issues, yet probably are the most arrogant little friendless shitheads in real life, or are so deeply damaged at a core level yet whose egotism doesn’t allow them to admit it, or are closeted homosexuals, or are passive aggressive little pricks who balk at the idea of being called Asian, or those obsessive types who just love comparing themselves to Keanu Reeves, and never any other celebrity – don’t take their word seriously.

How would they know?

Want to know just how right I am? Next time you meet a Hapa, just tell him to his face that he looks full Asian and watch his reaction.

 

The Truth about Tiger Moms (Amy Chua), and Why Asian Women Who Marry White Men are the Most Status Driven

 

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Ever wonder why Amy Chua demonstrates next to no affection or affinity to her husband in photographs?

 

 

  • By definition most women should prefer their own men. It’s well known that white women prefer their own men.
  • Asian women that prefer white men exclusively are necessarily damaged people, as it would imply that they are superficial, status-driven, or racist enough to disqualify an entire race of men. If a woman was truly capable of love, she would not disqualify a man on his race. This doesn’t need any logical argument to prove; most white men ignore this because it feels good to be valued, period, let alone valued for ones race. 
  • White men condemn White female feminism, yet turn to Asian female feminism and careerism as a means to get laid, completely ignoring the Asian woman’s character flaws as long as it implies that he is valued. My father, for example, is very anti-feminist, but failed to ever criticize my mother for her insane careerism and obsession with money (she went to my aunt, weighing 70 pounds, wearing a winter coat on a July day, next to Central Park, saying that she planned to kill herself because my father had relinquished his job and refused a pay upgrade because he believed it to be against Christ’s teachings; or something like that).
  • If an Asian woman only likes white men, this would necessitate that the primary quality is the man’s race, and this would make her standards (especially post marriage) incredibly fickle, as she could easily trade in her man for a better white man (hence my mother’s annoyance with my father failing to live up to the expectations of the American Prince lifestyle she wanted).
  • Asian women also will marry white men for the status of having a white partner, bragging rights for a Hapa baby, for a green card, for access to a Western country, or because they simply do not want an Asian man, or as a means of rebellion, or because they suffered past abuse (my mother was beaten by her father). None of these indicate a genuine love; not a single one would imply a real love. 
  • Asian women, then, that marry white men, tend to be Tiger Moms, as the value and bragging rights of having a Hapa child, also mean that she places immense value in her child as a representation of her own personal success, and since she married a white man as a stepping stone to her own personal success, will Tiger Mom her children as a means to ensure both immediate success in the present, and success in the future. In other words, a woman who marries a white man for the “status” will probably be a Tiger Mom (not that it makes any difference from an Asian woman that marries a white man for a fetish).
  • White men are also very much aware of these imbalances and are happy to take advantage of it, telling themselves that any Hapa child they have would be “different” despite having no basis for comparison, and despite beating down thoughts in the back of their head that Asian men might possibly suffer from racism.
  • After the marriage the woman will become standoffish, bitter, and sexless, and obsessive about money (see: Amy Chua), since the white male was merely a pathway to finding acceptance and validation in the white world, and the white man’s presence merely a precipitate to her ultimate goals.
  • Despite white men adamantly disagreeing with this website, there are very few of them that would ever willingly admit that they are A) in sexless marriages, B) divorced, C) married to someone with clear character flaws, D) married to abusive Tiger Moms, E) having been cheated on, F) or otherwise in non-loving relationships (despite their mental protests). 

Of course, it never occurred to White males that a decent woman wouldn’t have thrown herself at a white man. It took me 25 years to realize this about my mother, after myself having married a woman who preferred Chinese men and was extremely, extremely normal compared to the women in my family. But hey, I could be making this all up, right?

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What a loving couple looks like… in hell.

The Truth about Tiger Moms and How the Average Asian Woman / White Male couple works

Picture from a self proclaimed narcissist: http://www.kimberlylow.com

So, it dawned on me that Asian women intent on marrying white men would never stop. So I realized something; as someone coming from a background of a miserable household and a mother who married for race and status, and also married to a very sweet girl who told me she would never have dated me had I not been Chinese, I’m in a pretty good position to air the dirty laundry of the Tiger Moms and race climbers of the world; because now, I have the comparison.

From here on in I will literally use this blog as a platform to reveal the naked truth about a coupling that masquerades as colorblind and progressive yet is so common simply because it is neither colorblind, and is also regressive, reeking of colonialism, colorism, and a long history of white men being seen as the most desirable. Dishonorable? Unfilial? Who cares?

Ever wonder why Asian woman / white male couples look so unhappy compared to Asian / Asian couples? My parents were miserable from day one, and do you want to know why? Because the marriage was based on hate, not love.

(Yes, obviously there are exceptions. But the ones who marry for race, this should be pinpoint accurate).

I thought I would break this down fairly simply here.

  1. The relationship is based on the whiteness of the male. Yes, this is true. I know this purely through observation, including my own parents. Sometimes the white male is “decent looking”, rarely “good looking,” and more common plain and even ugly. My father was also “coincidentally” approached by my mother during a language class, and he “coincidentally” was 6’3″ and white with blue eyes. On this basis, there is really nothing else ensuring the stability of the relationship other than the fantasy of having a white partner. The expectations are monumental.
  2. Necessarily, a good, sane human being would not disqualify a person of her own race. I know this now given my experience with a woman who loves Chinese men, is traditionally attractive, comes from a stable, loving family, loves children, and harbors no mental issues; versus my own mother who deliberately sought out a white man and was extremely mentally deranged. A lot of white men will mistake overt affection for love, when the real end goal was to get a whiter baby (if you don’t believe me, just ask your Asian girlfriend / wife and examine her response and if it refers to “beautiful Hapas” or “beautiful babies”).
  3. Mother comes from a history of abuse; her father beat her and her four siblings pretty badly. My wife was hugged constantly as a child and pampered to the high heavens.
  4. While not unattractive, my mother was “decent,” with double eyelids, brown skin, and a square-jaw – not really the Chinese ideal. I suspect that having a white husband was a good way for her to one-up her siblings and her friends.
  5. Mother comes from a family that is fairly obsessive about status and money; hence their immigration to the US during the mid-60’s and the almost bizarre infatuation with Ivy League schools.
  6. If she was “innocent” in her love – would she not have sought out someone within her own culture or a male that was not stereotypically white? I ask this because white men oftentimes criticize white women who “only date black men,” yet when an Asian woman throws herself at a white male, this is excused and no indication of a character flaw.
  7. Mother will change her last name to her husbands as a badge of her “integration”, yet in some cases (more common now) they will keep their Asian last names hyphenated (like my cousins) to maintain an image of being attached to their Asian side yet fully supportive of the supremacy of whiteness.
  8. The relationship isn’t pure because unbeknownst to the male, the relationship is based on his race rather than any redeeming qualities. Obviously he doesn’t realize this, even years after the fact or after he has been divorced / nagged to death / cheated on. He enjoys getting sex at the beginning and feeling praised for his eye color / European features without realizing how this indicates a strong mental imbalance or superficiality in a woman; moreover, the guy can oftentimes get off on the fact that the woman has a “strong personality,” or is controlling and even relatively unstable; a good example is to notice the behavior of these couples in public, where oftentimes they seem emotionally distant or angry.
  9. If the relationship was not based on the whiteness of the male, then Asian women wouldn’t be dating them in such high numbers, and WMAW couples could sit down to dinner without seeing four-five other WMAW couples at a time.
  10. Oftentimes the relationship is based off of “rebellion,” desire to “escape” Asian culture, a history of sex-abuse or sex-work, a history of familial violence, personality quirks, extremely vicious personalities (my cousins and aunts who are with white men are constantly verbally abusing their partners even when they are not there) or hygiene issues; out of all my mother’s siblings, there are two with really atrocious personalities and nagging health problems, my mother, and her “best friend” sister, who also was married and divorced twice to white men. Her other two sisters have been married to Asian men since the late 60’s. I recall one story of my friend back home who told me had hooked up with a Korean girl and that her feet smelled so bad he threw her out; given that I think I’m culturally predisposed to being disgusted by body odors and hygiene, these women seek to date out.
  11. After a year or two of marriage (which comes with a demand for an extremely extravagant wedding and ridiculous demands; my cousin’s wedding, for example, cost $40k, while mine cost nothing), the woman begins to reveal her true colors, withholding sex and becoming increasingly naggy.
  12. After the child is born she will stop paying attention to the husband, since he was merely an accessory for her during their dating phase, and start Tiger Momming the child and become obsessive about money. I noticed this immediately when looking through a photo-album of my childhood given to me as a gift last Christmas; after about 4-5 years, my mother deliberately distanced herself from my father, and in the pictures of them together, he would often be staring into space or off at the floor while she was talking with her siblings and Asian friends. Her demands for purchases become more and more extreme and she will start comparing herself with her sisters / friends for the lifestyle she feels she deserves
  13. Since she wasn’t of the “best stock” to begin with (as arguably the best women wouldn’t discriminate on race), her gradual frustrations and mental problems showed through as I grew older, making my brother and I beat each other with coat hangers, forcing us to stand in the corner for hours playing the violin, pulling a knife on us and threatening to kill us and slit her wrist, driving the car up to 90 miles per hour with us in the back seat, threatening to kill us by driving into a lake or into the wall, etc. I had recurring dreams about her driving into water, until I began writing this blog, after which they promptly vanished.
  14. Separate bedrooms / sexlessness was the norm for the entire relationship.
  15. She would confide in me that my father was lazy, fat., etc; often telling me directly how he “would eat sugar directly out of the bag,” “couldn’t look anyone in the eye,” “would cover his face while eating to conceal his disgusting habits,” etc.
  16. The combination of being extremely Tiger Mommy and the child’s cultural confusion in looking nothing like his father and witnessing perverse racial dynamics where an otherwise aloof and indifferent father exercises “domination” over an Asian woman yet himself is unable to provide proper guidance for an Asian looking child, leads the child to either lash out or demonstrate unusual and passive aggressive behavior. Combined with being rejected by full-Asians as well as by full-Whites means an extremely traumatizing experience.
  17. Anyone who has ever met a Eurasian person with a white father will recognize this immediately. This manifests in certain ways, such as extreme insecurity, an over-inflated ego, unbearable personalities that seem rooted in deep issues, or other odd “ticks”.
  18. The biggest insult is how these women (and their husbands) attempt to make their children “proud to be Asian,” by sending us to Karate classes, signing us up for Asian language classes (I was signed up for Chinese / Cantonese classes), taught how to use chopsticks at age 3, despite their younger peers creating the atmosphere of Asian hatred. I.e., Half-Asians go out in the world and see Asian women openly attacking Asian men – so where does our trust for our parents go?

Obviously most Hapas don’t want to admit that their mothers did in fact favor or use white males to their immediate advantage in securing a better life style / status / whiter children, since to do so would be to embrace a terrible kind of nihilism that was beyond anything else that the human mind can rationally absorb.

More funny is the anger that posts such as this generate from certain parties, usually because it’s absolutely spot onI’ve been there, done that, so I know exactly what the mentality is. Whatever you do, do NOT blame Asian men for the behavior of Eurasians in the future!