Sticky: Asian Women and White Men: Why the Mental Health of Hapa Sons and Daughters of White Men (With Yellow Fever) and Asian Women Needs to be Addressed, and Why You Should Reach Out to Hapa People

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I changed the above picture for fear of doxxing; ironically, the picture is now of another Eurasian male who went to an Ivy League school, had a conservative white dad, and an Asian mother, and had a public meltdown. Use this blog as an example of how troubled Hapas can be, some worse than others. I wrote this essay about two years ago, at the peak of a very, very damaging breakdown. Since then, thanks to a supportive community and a (now large) group of Eurasians putting their brains together, I have transformed this blog into a rational discussion of the dangers of hatred, the reality of race relations even in romance, and even discovered the source of why I was so crazy; my older posts (if you go back to the beginning) can be used as a representation of the kind of damage that was done to my mind, and the kind of psychosis that can be found in mixed young men and women without proper intervention. If I hadn’t started this blog, I would likely now be dead or imprisoned, and ironically by writing I found the source of the very unsettling problems I had no more than two years ago; hence I won’t change the title. If you don’t believe that I am Hapa, continue reading. I try to present the issues as honestly as I can.

nicholas-cage-alice-kim-custody-battle-kal-el-cage-pp.jpgI am a formerly well liked, handsome, outgoing, popular, Dartmouth educated Eurasian man – a literal brown haired, hazel eyed dream Hapa boy – born to a Chinese mother who sought out marriage into the powered WASP class – but then realized too late that the man she married was an underemployed, emotionally damaged, meek, rapidly balding, hyper-racist, hyper-conservative conspiracy theorist male who was an “Asiaphile” – and she essentially killed herself. At around age 20 I encountered anti-Asian racism (ironically from Asian women in my own family and white “friends” who actually liked Asian women because they were easy) and due to inheriting my father’s entitlement to the world and being raised to be superior, I was unprepared to deal with it; I am emotionally unstable, self-loathing, deeply mentally disturbed, addicted, underemployed, have strong intimacy issues, and to this day still unable to undo the damage that the Eurasian myths and family’s racism did to me, and unable to form proper relationships due to my self-hatred instilled on me during the first 20 years of my life. Unlike other Eurasians who find self-esteem in underpaid modeling jobs, are gay, permavirgins, or leverage their half-whiteness to Asian women, my self-implosion has been broadcast to the world to the point that I am internet famous. I am not afraid to be as viciously honest as I need to be in order to speak on the reality of this world.

If you don’t think this website is valid – go to Reddit.com/r/hapas, which received 11 million views in 2 years, and 2 million views in the last two months. Also – find half Asians with Asian fathers and compare their behavior to those with Asian mothers. 

There are very specific issues with being the children of anti-feminist, racist, unattractive white men, and self hating Asian women. None of these apply to the children of Asian fathers.

Even Kip Fulbeck, king of all Hapas, admitted that the Hapa male process of self-hatred is such a problem, that it should be a cause for concern.

Iimage1-5magine being raised by two racists – your own parents. Your own mother wanted a white man, yet here you are – a half Asian, a man who looks very Asian. Except you have a white father. Is it possible to raise a healthy child considering the loaded, white-worshipping nature of yellow fever and white fever? How can a biracial child be expected to be normal if he looks Asian, and the entire basis of his parents’ relationship was that the man not be Asian? How can Asian women outmarry at such high rates, have an open ‘white fetish,’ and expect Asian looking sons to be emotionally well adjusted?

In short: I am the son of a foreign born Asian woman from Hong Kong who deliberately married a tall (6’3″, skinny), red-haired, blue eyed, bearded white man. She, like many Asian women, sought out a man who had a “Western” background so that she could feel integrated into her new home, and better than her fully Asian peers. She was by and large mentally ill, violent, abusive, cruel towards my father when he wasn’t making enough money, extremely controlling, and had self-image issues, changing her entire appearance to “look white.” She did not and never did love my father, and only used him because he was white; their entire marriage was violent, loveless (father sleeping on the floor for fifteen years), and calculating.

This man (a semi-famous paleoconservative Homophobic activist on par with the Westboro Baptist Church) was interested in Asian culture and married because he was socially unable to marry a white or non-Asian woman due to his political beliefs and personality quirks (he is very socially conservative, very racist against blacks, Hispanics and Muslims, a Holocaust denier and anti-Semite, extremely over the top homophobic, very shy, not many friends, belief that white women are too liberated, extremely distasteful of feminism, extremely meek and unable to make eye contact with others, steps off the sidewalk when larger men approach, unwilling to work or make money for fear of violating Christian scripture). His interest in Asian culture was largely dictated by his personality – in which he idealized Asian cultures as being more honorable and traditional, and mistook “white worship” (a cultural tick in which Asian women see themselves as less beautiful than white women and marry white men for status and integration), for “traditionalism” and “submissiveness.”

I was raised largely as a white child, yet turned more Asian in appearance with age. I was raised in an environment that had an undercurrent of anti-Asian male racism (America), saw Asian women (including five out of six of them in my own family) throw themselves at white men (the majority of whom are racists, Republicans, or short and or meek), and also an over-current of false Eurasian myths about beauty and intelligence. I subconsciously always believed myself to be “less” because my own mother and her sisters all were married to white men and adamantly denied I was Asian for a decade. 

My parents’ relationship, as was the case in every single one of my female relatives, was loveless, violent and broken due to her disillusionment with my father after ten years as he failed to make enough money, and grew balder and fatter and no longer lived up to the White male Prince Charming she had wanted (separate bedrooms, forced to sleep on the couch, extreme violent fighting). My brother and I suffered extreme psychological and physical abuse (beaten with coat hangers by our mother, Tiger Mommed, had her threaten to kill herself with a butcher knife in front of us, threatened to crash the car with us in it while driving at 90 mph), and her behavior became worse and worse as she realized that her white husband wasn’t making as much money as her brother and sister, who both married Chinese partners. This is a story of someone who was very sick, and in recovery.

The behavior of Asian women, in particular, is like nothing else on earth, to the point that you can see the majority of all stories about abusive parents on Reddit’s AsianParentStories sub – complain about the mothers, including the second generation Asian mothers – like Amy Chua – who metamorphosize into the Tiger Mothers that they hate.

When I got older, despite the fact that society told me that I was “unique” for being Eurasian, I was treated with contempt by both white people AND Asian people; Asian women would often express disgust at me for being Asian (scowling at me on the street, or smirking), and white people would constantly remind me that I was Asian in a way to demean and undermine me. Several of my “friends,” who were engineers and nerdy, actually would take every opportunity to remind me of my Asianness, while sleeping with Asian women, as Asian women were all they could get. This caused me to self implode from a popular, outgoing Eurasian to becoming a recluse and suicidal. My insanity grew more and more pervasive as I fantasized about cutting out my eyes to make them deeper, refused to look in the mirror for five years,

Two years after writing the below, I am leaving it word for word, as I wrote it, as proof of how I felt and feelings I still struggle with as a male of Asian heritage who clearly looks Asian, born to a mother who thought of Asian men as beneath her. I am highly educated, formerly well liked, popular, handsome, out going  and like many Eurasians I burned out in my twenties with the realization that people, even Asian women in my Asian family, hate my Asian side, so now I’ve turned my talents towards exposing the last bastion of White supremacy in the world as candidly as I can. I am literally dissecting White male / Asian women couples and the Eurasian identity to a degree that nobody else ever has.

I actually moved to China (which saved my life) in order to escape racism and feelings of inferiority – and was shocked on learning that my own mother (and many other Chinese) had moved to America in order to find the American dream – a dream that hated me for my Asian blood. 

highly recommend that any potential parent to half-Asian children make sure that they are marrying on a clean slate – with zero fetishism, zero white-worship, and zero undertones of racial hierarchies – and that they be completely honest about this, to avoid sending more young man down the path that I went. Hapa males in particular need special consideration due to the fact that we have zero privilege, and yet are raised by two people who want privilege without having to do any of the work.

I am doing this for every single half-Asian kid out there who has committed suicide, thought about suicide, suffered from racism, isolation, outcasting, and had two parents whose entire relationship was nothing but lust, selfishness, even hatred – leaving us with nothing but perpetual isolation. The world does not care about Hapa males if you look average or even a little bit Asian. The world – even Asian women, who truly believe that they are white – only care about whiteness and white men.

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“My son is half-Asian, and he’s handsome.”

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Your handsome half Asian son.

Here’s a question. Are there handsome Asian men? Yes or no.

Here’s another question. Did your wife want them? Nope, she did not. Do white women want them? Nope, they do not. Don’t believe me? Just look up any study on online dating.

So why the hell would anyone want a handsome half Asian when they could just get a handsome full Asian?

The “beautiful Hapa” mixed baby myth is essentially nothing but that, a myth. I will explain why in a logical manner.

Even if Hapas are good looking, the fact remains that your treatment still depends on how Asian you look. “I know well adjusted Hapas,” means you know Hapas who pass entirely as white.

I have noticed in my life that despite some women considering me good looking, calling me gorgeous, handsome, dashing and beautiful, there are still women that disregarded me entirely for my race and told me so. Why exactly I would differentiate between the hurt this caused me, and the fact the my mother was the same way – makes no sense to me. Why would I look at my parents and not automatically think “white worship” when I myself have experienced discrimation?

I recognize her and the women in my family as being just as repulsive. People here REALLY think that a half Asian son is able to look at his mother and father and NOT see a woman who rejected all Asian men, worshipped white men, and a man who leveraged his whiteness to get laid? You really think we Eurasian sons don’t look at an Asian mom, White dad, as an almost living parody of the stereotype of the western man and his geisha submissive bride? (Notwithstanding in my case my dad was legitimately a conservative weirdo and my mother an insane, status grubbing woman with dyed hair and colored contacts).

Newsflash: We ALL think like this, though we’d never tell you.

Also, for almost a decade I would look at repulsion at my Asian features in the mirror and had a borderline paranoia at looking Asian to the extent I considered dying my hair blond and wearing colored contacts. I would even cut my hair short for a decade for a fear of its natural dark brown / black color to come out. I wouldn’t even let anyone photograph me – let alone photograph me from the side, because my side profile vaguely represented that of an Asian man, and tell me exactly why I would want to be an Asian man?

I refused to look at photos in which I looked Asian (which I DEFINITELY DO) and would instantly balk and sulk at someone making a comment about how I looked Asian. This is DESPITE me living in China where I feel less paranoid about my appearance, but still get stared at by locals and treated as an outsider because of my unusual looks.

The fact remains that there are good looking Asian men – and Asian women are still rejecting them in favor of attractive, unattractive or ugly white men, which indicates that it isn’t the looks that is so much at issue but that white blood that is valued in us.

So essentially we’re told from birth that to look Asian as a man is to be incredibly disadvantaged even with the women that we would otherwise be able to use as a fallback if non-Asian women didn’t want us. So even Asian women don’t want Asian men – yet we look Asian, so how fucked are we?

Even if I were attractive, which I assume I am by what people have told me, I would still be vehemently opposed to anyone, or any woman, who told me that white men are better candidates for making babies than Asian men.

Why would I believe a woman (or my mother in this case) who told me that race wasn’t the issue, when all indications, especially the overall behavior of Asian women, indicates that this is the issue?

How the HELL could I ever accept this attitude from a woman – even my own mother and women in my family?

How the HELL could this ever lead to a mentally healthy attitude development in a Hapa child?

How the HELL could I possibly ever come to terms, now or later, with the undeniable fact that the womb that birthed me believed that white men – even one with less qualifications than an Asian man – would make a better father / sperm donor / partner than an Asian man?

And what people don’t realize is that half-Asians, in the eyes of most people, men and women, are still Asians.

People who make those distinctions, make no distinction between full and half, which is why Elliot Rodger still was unable to achieve the natural confidence that came with being fully white, and snapped because he was never treated as something he believed he was treated as.

This, what you read here, is the ultimate affirmation of a specific kind of psychosis that will manifest in Eurasian men more often than not, and I expect there to be more outbursts or otherwise negative behavioral patterns in Eurasians – even handsome Eurasians.

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Another handsome Eurasian son. Yale student turned drug dealer. 

Essentially, the issue here is one of extreme nihilism: Asian women only value WHITENESS in their partners – to the extent that they grossly disregard personal development, character and intelligence, and this attitude, one that is at the same time, extremely lax towards white behavior, and stringent in its requirements for whiteness, is one that causes as massive, massive, massive dichotomy in the child, assuming he is straight, proud of who he is and determined to find a strong identity.

So now your half Asian son will be bullied, called a small dick chink, reminded of how he is Asian – and even worse, reminded of how millions upon millions upon MILLIONS of women who look like his mother hated Asian features. Good job folks, you’ve done it!

 

Interesting Post: “Of the Hapas I’ve Known”

A user named MDNzyzy just posted this on /r/Hapas. You can check his history if you think I made this up.

First hapa I met was a kid in HS with a Japanese dad and a white mom. Dude was a badass, fucked with the hottest girls and did the ballsiest skate tricks (like ollying 12 stairs). He played soccer for our school and during a match, HEADBUTTED a white opponent for saying racist shit to him.

Second hapa I met was in freshman year of college. He was half viet half american (I think). His mom was viet, dad was white, but he kept his viet name cause his dad abandoned or parents divorced, not sure. Let me tell you – this kid was FUCKED UP. He often would mutter about killing everyone in the Quad (dorms), socially dysfunctional, and from what i heard – masturbated even when his roommate was STILL in the room. No sense of hygiene whatsoever.

The third hapa i’ve been great friends with for 5 years. He was the drummer of my band and half-flip half-white (WMAF parents). He exclusively dates full or partially flip girls (by choice or because of limited options, I can’t say). His dad is friendly enough and his mom can’t cook for shit because she had to accommodate her husband’s white-bread taste buds for 20+ years.

In any case, just thought i’d share. Been lurking for a few weeks.

Pinpoint accurate even right down to the comment about the Filipino moms which I mentioned a while back.

Another user wrote:

Sounds typical. To outsiders it may seem we bash wmaf and promote amwf, but it is rooted in truth.

I remember an amwf chinese-white kid at my old highschool, looked him up on linkedin, turns out he became valedictorian went to princeton and now is at stanford for grad school. The amwf japanese-white kid on my soccer team now is playing semi-pro soccer.

Whereas the wmaf kids i knew, work at bestbuy and petsmart and/or just fell off the face of the earth.

Didn’t I write that I fell off the face of the earth at the beginning of this blog?

As I said, Eurasians with Asian fathers are able to manage their half-Asian looks and treatment by society; Asians with white fathers live with perpetual knowledge that their own flesh and blood mothers were “one of those” deliberately attacking Asian men and Asian culture.

You think I’m making this up? How on earth would a white man and an Asian woman who hate Asian men be capable of raising an Asian looking child?

People need to do me a favor. If you find this blog, spread the word before more people get hurt. Please. You really have no idea what’s coming.

This shit needs to be straightened out before whatever is coming, comes. And it’s already coming. I have verbalized as best as I could the issue of mixed race mental issues. There are probably hundreds upon hundreds of thousands of mixed race Asians out there with similar issues but with nobody to reach out to.

Half Asian Son Alex Buckner Kills Family After Shooting Them and Setting Home on Fire; 2/26/2016

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Son Kills Family After Shooting Them and Setting Home on Firefrom today, February 26th, 2016.

I think it’s time to admit that half-Asian sons have a problem before this gets worse, and it is getting worse; this brings the tally of half Asians to make national news in 2016, to 6.

All of them with white fathers. Let me reiterate: there were 6 half-Asians in the news in the year 2016, alone.

It is February 26th, meaning we are 57 days into the year 2016, and there have been 6 major incidents that have made national news.

Six out of six of these incidents involved half Asian children with white fathers.

Six out of six.

There will be more incidents this year involving half Asians.

They will be uniformly young, more or less in Elliot Rodger’s age bracket.

All of them will have white fathers.

Read this here, on this website: each and every one of them will have a white father.

These are not black criminals committing terrible crimes; these are the sons of white men and Asian women – the supposed master-race of beautiful, talented Eurasians.

Do I need to get into why, again?

Read the blog:

the collision between race fetishism, emasculation, white supremacy, self-hatred, mental illness, cultural and racial confusion, racial bullying, isolation at being mixed race, the Asian mother bad-mouthing Asian men, lack of Asian friendships, lack of Hapa friendships, the white father’s racism, the sexual dynamics between mother and father, the colonialism, the lack of resemblance to ones own parents, and depression are routine in Hapas. Not rare, but routine.

It’s farcical how Asian women intend to instill in us a proper sense of value and self worth when our entire existence is based on how inferior the genes of Asian males are, yet we by and large resemble Asian males.

Listen to me very, very carefully. Read the following words next as if they were written by the Queen mother herself:

I know exactly what I’m talking about when I say that being mixed race is much, much more traumatic than our parents could ever realize, and we have almost no outlet and no resources at all.

The mental illness evident on the early pages of this blog are proof enough that something is amiss, not just in me – but the half-Asian demographic at large.

I am Eurasian. I am not the white man who can take and pick any Asian woman he pleases. In order for me to develop a healthy identity – I must be proud of my Asian heritage. My mother, western culture, and Asian women around me made it very, very difficult to accept myself.

I am cream of the crop – highly educated.

At my very lowest, the feeling of being so alone, so aloof, undesirable, betrayed, self-hating and confused, that I can say with accuracy that I was not in control of myself anymore. I’d hate to say it – but Eurasians are completely unique in our situation as opposed to other mixes, and we, and I – at one point – posed a danger to ourselves and those around us.

The Truth about being a “Beautiful Half-Asian Hapa Baby”

Some random observations:

  • When you have a son, your privilege as a blue-eyed white male is thrown out the door.

Whereas, if your partner were constantly complimenting your blue eyes, your son will not be able to leverage his blue eyes in order to secure a mate. He will instead have to rely on different factors, and since the number of women, including Asian women, who openly favor Asian men, is much lower, this will be damaging to his emotional well-being. For every Asian woman who deliberately rejected Asian men, so forth will your Eurasian son be rejected. My clash with my monumental ego and narcissism, years back, where I was literally obsessed with my looks, sent me into a rage when I was rejected by a white woman for being Asian (I’ve mentioned this many times before).

  • On “beautiful Hapa babies.”

This is by and large a lie. All babies are universally cute, but this does not translate to being an attractive male. A desire for a beautiful baby is essentially on par with having a pet; hence you see many divorced Asian women (divorced largely because of their insane behavior, like my mother’s, wherein the child is part of a fantasy) using their children as status symbols. My mother constantly showed me off to her siblings and mentioned my tall nose and deep eyes whereas ostracizing my father, but again, this does not translate to necessary success in the future; it is borderline narcissism wherein the love for the child is not love per se, but love as long as [qualifications] exist.

If you do a youtube search for “half asian babies” you will find a number bragging about how their children have blue eyes; despite this being impossible, the idea that such white worship is prevalent is extremely, extremely troublesome.

My case was unusual. My mother seemed to like my brother more than me despite him being black haired, black eyed. She Tiger Mommed him more than me, but less cruelly; I began to think that it was because I was either born via C-section or because I didn’t look like her, or even some kind of resentment towards me. My memory doesn’t go back that far so I can’t figure out the reason for this yet.

On “beauty;” In fact, any person who will want to make the distinction (i.e., a person who doesn’t like Asians) will not differentiate between full Asian and half, even if you don’t look Asian. Go on any website discussing white looking Eurasians like Adam Smith or Cary Fukunaga, and the comments are there.

  • I’ve come across many Hapas who complained of feeling embarrassed while walking with their parents. I have experienced this too, but moreso, more when walking with my father (as my mother is dead).

Regardless of their intentions, (and I know my parents’ were bad), the assumptions made that my father was an Asiaphile, a loser, or couldn’t get a white woman are there. In my case, they were true, but I don’t think most people bother to differentiate when it’s so common. Obviously, there will be exceptions to this rule, particularly among less intelligent Hapas, like my brother. 

  • It’s frankly impossible for a Eurasian to not notice the interracial imbalance unless they come from entirely white states.

I think many Eurasians that you meet on the street, especially the tall, good looking ones, tend to favor White women (if they can) out of a subconscious rejection of the “white-fever” and “yellow-fever” they are associated with by extension, in any major American city. Another thing could be their rejection of their Asian side, as it is obvious to them that looking Asian is frankly a death sentence. Part of me thinks that Eurasian women do this too, mostly out of a repugnance for their own mothers… if you go read some of the comments on this blog, there are a ton of Eurasian girls complaining about emotional abuse from their mothers.

 

Reddit Dump; Why Asian Women Set a Dangerous Precedent for Eurasian Sons; On This Week’s New York Time’s Hapa Article “Choose Your Own Identity”

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If no one else is going to talk about these things, I am going to. This blog is well on its way to being the number one half-Asian resource on the internet. Any commenters here would be smart to stick around. “Suck it up,” and “he’s hot” comments don’t work in reality. 

The majority of people on this blog claim that their wives / girlfriends / mothers weren’t looking for white men. Yet the fact remains that this is the most common interracial pairing, bar none. And the resulting children look Asian. So either I am lying, or someone else is lying. I am not lying, because I know for fact, from my father’s mouth, that my mother threw myself at him because he was white.

The result is that among these millions of children born, ideally the maximal potential for their abilities should be achieved, but since their own parents dictated to them that race matters, and that Asian men were inferior to white men, the potential for burning out is massive, especially as they get older and “sexual preferences” become more of an issue past childhood.

There is little that would ever convince me to be a good, upstanding, or productive citizen if I found out that my own mother preferred white men. What kind of horror would this amount to if a child caught wind of this – that ones own mother hated Asianness, and Asian men – the ones capable of producing full Asian children – yet producing a half Asian son?

Anyone who has ever known more than one Hapa would attest to this.

Anyways, morsels of wisdom from /r/Hapas, the only real community of Eurasians on the internet, one growing daily and destined to become a massive collective think tank for all Hapa / Eurasian / half-Asian issues.

The reason WMAF Asian mothers fail, is not because of what they say, but what they do. No matter how much they claim to value Asian activism, their “revealed preferences” for white men, en masse, on a scale unlike any other race of women, is the ONLY true message they send to their Half Asian sons.

A link from user Mtzo, also the creator of (I think, though he’s never admitted it) stuffeurasianslike.wordpress.com. Reddit thread can be seen here.

More from him, regarding this New York Times article from this week about biracialism:

mtzoWM/AW Son 1 day ago

Coming from her position, it would be “problematic” for her to ever directly challenge the choices of Asian women, as bluntly as we do at [here].

But she is definitely hinting at some of our points. She brings up that Eurasian boys might seek to be white, at the very young age of 5; because of all the anti-Asian racism. She also calls out the hypocrisy of a WMAF Asian woman judging a 5 year old boy for his Asian shame. In context “As a child, I most wanted to fit in.” points to the Asian mother wanting to be “normal” (read white). And so the author is at least gingerly hinting at the Asian mother contributing to the valuing of whiteness, and then judging her son for seeking the very thing she values. It just shows that the r/Hapas position is not as “crazy” as our critics made it out to be a few months ago, and is even gaining traction among the Hapa Establishment, from leading figures within mixed race feminism and social justice.

More from him;

There are numerous articles written by Asian moms about wanting to preserve the Asian side of their Hapa sons. The problem is that, these Hapas are not feeling shame about their Asian side for no reason. And the plain fact is, these Asian moms might very will be prime contributors to Asian shaming, by making their outmarriage and racial preferences known in such huge numbers. It is impossible to look at outmarriage in such monumental numbers and not interpret it as a judgement against Asian and Half Asian men. And many Asian women are quite open in saying it.

I don’t believe Hapas should try to pretend they are white. I believe it is a strategy doomed to fail. But I can certainly understand why at age 5, a Hapa would think being an Asian boy is something to run away from. The Asian mom acts so shocked and horrified by it. Not realizing that the millions of women like her ARE making being an Asian boy something to be ashamed of. To put it bluntly as long as WMAF remains so imbalanced, and on a scale unlike any other race of women, Hapa boys WILL be ashamed to be Asian. Some might come to hate WMAF for emasculating them. While others will go in the other extreme direction of becoming White Nationalists to prove their whiteness. Asian women are making Asianess something to be ashamed of in their sons.

Tsui writes about when she was younger she wanted to “fit in”. If we flesh out the real meaning of these sentiments, it probably means that she wasn’t a “real American” because she was Asia. Now that she has a white husband shes “normal”. And of course her Half white son also wants to be normal. His mom is Chinese, but hes not. I believe that the bloggers was at least softly chiding Tsui on some of these exact points.

His particularly chilling comment:

Perhaps Tsui as an individual is sincere yet problematic. My personal belief is that being a WMAF Hapa son, can’t be separated from the nature of actually existing WMAF. In which it carries a ton of racial and gender baggage, and is happening in such a manner as that a Half Asian boy would have legitimate reasons to feel shame at being an Asian boy.

From user “Bestofbothworlds2”

[–]bestofbothworlds2son of hapa parents 7 points1 day ago*

It’s nice to see a hapa speak out for us and criticize these (always Asian) mothers who insist on speaking for their children while they are too young to disagree. These (until recently) were the only hapa narratives that ever seemed to get any readership. Funnily enough, when their children grow up and have voices of their own, their words are rarely so self-serving.

It annoys me when parents extol the virtues of being mixed race and ramble about how they are doing the world a service, making it more color blind. Further fragmenting a community that is already as fragmented as the Asian-American community is is not doing anyone a service except the Asian women who leave it and the white men they inevitably marry. Interracial marriage does NOT make for better race relations unless a majority percent of the population is very open to them, and with all races and genders in equal measure. If this is not the case, it may even make existing race relations worse.

Being hapa in many ways is trading undiluted Asianness – the languages, the cultures, having a huge part of the world that belongs to people like you, and everything that entails – for white DNA. Is it worth it?

My comment:

Ultimately the hope is that we would never have had issues with it. For twenty years Asian women and white men prayed fervently that these issues would never be revealed as being less than innocuous. And given that there are so many hapas coming here agreeing and yet a number who just plug their ears and scream “no it’s not true!” reveals in actuality that these women do indeed wish that asianness be subverted without any collateral damage.

Now that the collateral damage is happening, they are quickly backtracking on their hatred.

“Real Life with A Japanese Wife”

My cliff notes:

  • Asian women that refuse their own men are probably not the best people, by the same rule of thumb that men of other races operate on (e.g., most black men would despise a black woman who hated black men; most white men would despise a white woman who hated white men). Even the Asian women who post here married to white men reveal “telling” character issues.
  • This is all well and dandy except the marriage results in children who grow up with parents who never actually liked each other and were together for the sake of convenience or fetishism. On top of that we’re constantly reminded that Asian men, which we are, failed to be seen, even by Asian women, as worthy of existing.

Somebody posted this video on Reddit. Looking through the comments it seems a lot of white men came to an agreement. I didn’t watch all of it, maybe the first three minutes but that’s enough to make my commentary.

White men falsely perceive Asian women as being more morally sound. This is incorrect because any morally sound woman wouldn’t idealize the men of another race. This isn’t racist. This is saying that in a moral ideal, races wouldn’t have different values; most men are way too egotistical and / or naive to question the behavior of why a woman likes them.

(The issue becomes much more complex when Asian-looking sons are involved, however; hence I am forced to think about these things while my father is not.)

White men go through their entire lives not overtly being hit on by women, and then an Asian woman does it and they don’t see red flags; despite a decade of being verbally humiliated by my mother (taking his gifts and throwing them against the wall, for example), he still believes her to be an angel because of her “traditional values”.

I’ve been hit on by women of all races. It’s actually fairly common (or was when I was younger, probably not so much now, there is, in my case, a truth to Eurasian beauty; not so much in the case of others). So I understand that women have something called autonomy – they don’t sit around waiting for a “good guy” with XXXXXX bank account to marry.

I’m not talking about approaching women – most men can get dates like that after a certain point in their life after they accumulate enough capital; I’m talking about having certain qualities that make women approach you when you’re young (i.e., looks, good hair, height, narrow-tapered waist and broad shoulders, confidence, non-neurotic behavior).

A lot of white guys go their whole lives never attracting attention from a white woman in the west; they go to Asia and suddenly are approached by Asian women, or are approached by Asian American women, and they think this is indicative of a moral agency, rather than, in objective terms, bias, or even worse, ulterior motives. (By moral agency, I mean that it is assumed that they like “traditional values,” as embodied by a white man).

Most men completely lack the self-awareness and experience to discern between a foreign woman’s “attention” and genuine love, which, if she had been living in her own space for 20-some odd years, would at very least have leveled against a single local guy, at one point in her life.

Anyways, my dad was and is an extreme paleoconservative. But it doesn’t have anything to do with his politics. There was no way in hell he could ever have landed a white woman; to this date he is unable to make prolonged eye contact with most other people. He mistook my mother’s affection for him as a sign of morality when in fact it was his height and blue eyes that were the draw.

Their entire marriage was a hell of death threats, separate bedrooms, swinging knives, verbal abuse, sexlessness, and yet he still couldn’t see it. He couldn’t imagine that a woman that scorned her own race of men wasn’t exactly sane.

The reason he didn’t know this was because he has never been with an Asian woman who liked her own men or a woman who liked Asian men; I am, and the differences are staggering. She adores children, is traditionally beautiful by Chinese standards, constantly gets complimented on her looks, and told me when we first went out that she “would never had said yes were I not half Chinese,” and that her primary qualification for a partner was “stability” and a “stable life.” I’ve also noticed in my life that the women interested in me had a tendency towards real beauty (not just mini-skirt hotness) and came from “normal” backgrounds; i.e., Jewish women, Caribbean immigrants, Indian, Mexican and Polish immigrants.

This is exactly a contrast to a woman who wants “a foreign husband,” because this entails a fantasy about what life with a foreigner is like, and when the fantasy proves to be different from her mental ideal, she will exhibit the childish, psychotic behavior that made her unable to differentiate between fantasy and reality in the first place.

Of course I expect the collective IQ of the “yellow fetishists” who read this blog to be too low to understand this post, so I leave you with the warning that being a piece of shit and marrying a piece of shit is fine.

The problem is that your son will be half-Asian and the ball is up in the air after that.

Daniel Holtzclaw’s case was not unique to Eurasians: READ ME

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Violence against black people and black women is not new to Eurasians.

Hapas winding up in white nationalism / racism is not new. I personally dabbled in it, if you read back into this website.

Sometimes it ends in violence.

There have been several cases, one involving a half-Asian white-supremacist woman with an Asian father, where a half-Asian Neo-Nazi planned a shooting at a mall in Halifax, Canada.

Another case you might be interested in (if you’re following the topic) is Marcus Epstein.

Arrested in ’07 for assaulting a black woman on the street. White father, Asian mother.

Epstein works for both MSNBC columnist Pat Buchanan, who has a long history of anti-immigrant extremism and white nationalism, and his sister Angela “Bay” Buchanan, who once called for a revolution to end immigration. Epstein is executive director of Pat Buchanan’s group, The American Cause. In addition, he serves as executive director of the immigrant-bashing Team America PAC, which was founded by Bay Buchanan and former Congressman Tom Tancredo, for whom Epstein wrote speeches during his recent presidential bid.

It seems that during the early evening hours of July 7, 2007, Epstein was walking near the intersection of Jefferson and M Street Northwest, in Washington, D.C., in a mild to severe state of intoxication. A friend of his later told the Secret Service that Epstein had been drinking. Apparently, Epstein was making offensive comments about non-whites, and decided to express himself more dramatically by calling an African-American woman passing by a “nigger” and then attempted to karate chop her in the head. He was briefly detained by the woman’s husband, but escaped, only to be taken into custody minutes later by a Secret Service officer who witnessed the altercation.

Marcus was half-Korean through his mother.

If you want the low down for what’s really going on, I summed it up here:

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Note Daniel’s sister’s appearance. Dyed blonde hair. 

A lot of Eurasians are essentially just raised as substitute white men, by white fathers whose extreme right wing views were not reasonable enough to get the real thing they wanted: white women. Even worse is that self-hatred for ones appearance is almost completely unique to Asians – for whatever reason (probably because they are unique in being so physically different from other races) – seem to dislike their dark features, have an obsession with light skin, and big eyes, both culturally and within Asian American domestic culture. I cut my hair very short for years to maintain its lighter brown color, and to avoid its oily, thick texture. But more importantly is that most Eurasians are raised by white men. 

I.e., when a white man has views that are way too “traditional” for the average white woman, he will leverage his race and his status (i.e., green card) to get an Asian woman, thus finding a partner who is complicit in his “traditionalist” oftentimes white-supremacist views.

It is possible for white men to harbor white nationalist views yet pair up with Asian women. Dylan Roof expressed admiration for Asians. Hitler was well known for viewing Asians as honorary Aryans. The creator of a massive Neo-Nazi website said: “Second, following from the key word there – “marriage” – the men who involve themselves with Asian women are looking for a serious and traditional relationship.  Women who go with Blacks and Latinos are looking for excitement.” 

So in other words, if a man is a White Supremacist, it’s fine to sleep with Asian women as they are seen to defer to White men. The kids are raised to be either substitute whites or “honorary Aryans,” or worse, “superior Eurasians.”

Every. Single. One. Of. My. Aunts’. Or. Cousins’. Boyfriends. Or. Husbands. Is. Some. Variation. Of. A. Social. Conservative. One is even a teacher in Harlem who has… strong views about this shit.

I’m telling you guys this from experience as a Hapa. Read these words carefully. If you want to go down the rabbit hole there’s a whole different kind of hell down there, in WMAW relationships. You just never considered it because it didn’t behoove you to think about it.

News Article from 200 describes a Half-Asian Son of a Korean woman as having “never accepted his Asian ancestry and wished his mother dead for having had him.”

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How about this news article from 2000?

Original here:

“The inherent evil of Woldt is not in question – his own mother is Korean and apparently Woldt never accepted his Asian ancestry and wished his mother dead for having had him.”

More here:

So… another Eurasian who snapped due to a combination of being raised under a white-worshipping Asian mother and a patronizing white father who tries to raise us as being white.

People don’t recognize that the world might see Woldt as white – but he doesn’t. And even worse is that people can smell the Asian blood on you, and will humiliate it for you. I’ve had women straight up tell me “you have an Asian body,” “I don’t date Asian men,” etc.

Explain to me, dear reader, right, now how Asian women that adamantly refuse Asian men, fail to instill pride in their own children in their Asian appearance (and even if they did attempt to, their actions still prove louder than their words) are going to raise productive citizens.

“Oh but white guys have problems too.” White guys have problems and also don’t deal with debilitating sexual stereotypes. Let’s be honest.

This site is well on its way to being the largest half-Asian website in the world, and yet nobody has attempted to shut me down at all with lucid arguments.

 

The Most Blatant, Obvious Fact That No One Wants to Even Come Close to Acknowledging

It’s the same empty rhetoric over and over. I’m imsane. I’m stupid. I’m insecure. I don’t get laid. I don’t lift weights. I whine too much.

So answer the fucking question:

If an Asian woman likes a white man because she feels he’s superior in ANY WAY to an Asian man, and a white man is with her knowing this, and even himself feeling superior over Asian men…

What happens to the son?

It’s such a simple question. It’s literally so fucking incredibly simple. 

No insults, just: Answer. The. Question.

Provide a suitable answer and I’ll take this site off the website, remove it from Google listings, and stop it from becoming the number one site devoted to Eurasian issues on the planet.